The Doubt Sati Once Concealed
Bala Kanda, Chaupai 109
Doha 109 · Movement 1 of 2
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Parvati asks Shiva to explain the desireless, all pervading Lord and not become angry at her ignorance. She wants no protection for the doubt, only the method by which delusion can be removed.
She confesses what Sati concealed. In the forest she saw Ram's majesty, became overwhelmed with fear, and never told Shiva the whole truth. Even the cosmic vision did not fully awaken that former mind, and the consequence arrived through separation and death.
That old delusion is gone, but a subtle question remains. With joined hands she asks for mercy and the purifying account of Ram's virtues. Now curiosity is not a test of the Lord. It is love longing to understand him.
The secret once hidden on the forest road is finally spoken beneath the banyan.
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AI-created devotional illustration · Chaupai 109
Uma's present joined-palms request and interest in Rama story
Source reference and artistic choices
Gita Press code81 undated · PDF pages 124, 125 · printed pages 122, 123. Reader passage: bala-kanda-chaupai-109. Printed numbering may differ.
Source facts
- Uma still has some doubt and requests grace with joined hands
- She says old bewilderment is now gone and she is interested in Rama story, asks holy narration of Rama's virtues
Artistic choices
- Approved adult braided rosecream Uma and ash-white/blue-throat Shiva with crescent and short Ganga wave-symbol at matted hair reused; exact age/face/garments/serpent/jewels/poses imagined unauthenticated
- Uma viewer-right at front-facing Shiva's anatomical left, own-chest joined palms and slightly forward earnest interest, Shiva quiet listening with resting hands
- Banyan aerialroots/tiger-patternhide/cloth/floral boughs/ordinary birds/distant pavilion/mountain garden all exact artist choices not botanical/geographic/historical reconstruction
- Past recollections remain narrated and outside selected present image; no old Sati/forest Rama/death scene or future answer visualized
An imaginative interpretation, not a historical portrait or documentary evidence.
जौं अनीह ब्यापक बिभु कोऊ। कबहु बुझाइ नाथ मोहि सोऊ।। अग्य जानि रिस उर जनि धरहू। जेहि बिधि मोह मिटै सोइ करहू।। मै बन दीखि राम प्रभुताई। अति भय बिकल न तुम्हहि सुनाई।। तदपि मलिन मन बोधु न आवा। सो फलु भली भाँति हम पावा।। अजहूँ कछु संसउ मन मोरे। करहु कृपा बिनवउँ कर जोरें।। प्रभु तब मोहि बहु भाँति प्रबोधा। नाथ सो समुझि करहु जनि क्रोधा।। तब कर अस बिमोह अब नाहीं। रामकथा पर रुचि मन माहीं।। कहहु पुनीत राम गुन गाथा। भुजगराज भूषन सुरनाथा।।
If there be some Lord who is desireless, all-pervading, and omnipresent, then explain Him to me, O Natha. Do not hold anger in your heart, knowing me to be ignorant. Do whatever will remove my delusion.