Where Did Your Existence Come From? - 4th September 2017

Again, you exist. Is it when you exist? We can't make it safe. We exist. Then when you exist, you see within your own existence all this play of the phenomenal, phenomenality play. Now, so far we've been trained to go toward certain aspects of this phenomenology and covet other aspects. Usually, we go towards those aspects which give you pleasure and avoid those aspects which give you pain. Now, what I am saying is that greater existence comes from what's on this side of existence. If consciousness itself comes to the recognition of its own source, then you will find that in the nature of phenomenology, there is one aspect which is designed to make you play, which is this phenomenal creation. So, it will try its best to toss through attachment, through desire, through something to do, to make you as consciousness focus again and again on just this, your phenomenal creation.

So, every Satsang I ask you: what is aware of this existence? Because that must be that which is on this side, you see, beyond, beyond the existence, beyond 'I am'. Many don't want this. Many don't want the truth, and that is fine. For those who are done with getting as if they are objects, that whole play of limitation, with the play of considering themselves to be an object which was born and is going to die, ultimately then this kind of pointing will be music to your ears. Where did your existence come from? What is aware of your existence?

And those who are here in Bangalore, I tell them, okay, you go on a fast. The fast is what? Don't report anything from your phenomenal side. Don't report anything from your phenomenal side. Tell me something about that which is prior to phenomena. So that means what? Don't report anything about your life events, the state of your body, what emotions you are experiencing, what thoughts still seem powerful. None of this. Not even about the fragrance of love, peace, and joy that comes as a portion of your own existence. Not even that. Is there something beyond this? And the clue is: what witnesses all of this? All of this that is moving. Is the witness of that also phenomenal? What can you say about that one?

The mind won't like this pointing because all the mind can fathom is all these things that we spoke about: life events, state of the body, emotions you're feeling, or what the mind is saying and how it is so strong, and all blissful experiences you might be having. In coming to your true presence, suppose we are not interested in any of that. Is there nothing left to you after this? Is that the entirety of yourself? Is it possible that you might be open to my words, that the greater of you is still not included in any of this? Be open to this possibility, and this discovery is right here. It is already there. How many are willing to go beyond this play of phenomena and open to the possibility of their non-phenomenal truth? And you will find that all the 'buts'—'I am awareness, but...'—the 'buts' will all start to dissolve, to fade away, because you are no longer considering yourself just phenomenal, just an object, just an appearance.