What Are You Truly Seeking? - 7th January 2018

It seems that once you're in this space there is no... there's nothing happening here and you feel that... is that it? Or because you've heard a lot of stories about enlightenment bliss and this is something which I was also talking to a fellow seeker some time back, because your mind expects something to happen here after this. Because you feel that once you reach this state, what's there? What, what, what, what more is there? And your mind is looking for that.

You said, 'Don't expect, don't have a notion about what you will achieve through this retreat.' I want to tell you all that what's really at one point becomes the most important is that it is truth for truth's sake. I want the truth for the naked truth, for its truthness itself. I don't want it because it will be giving me something else. And many of us say this: 'I have devoted my life to the truth now, I want only the truth.' But what we actually mean is, 'Where is the bliss?' Now you're having a beautiful insight about your truth and what is the mind saying? 'But where are the byproducts?'

So this is very much in line with what I started sharing about. If the truth did not have any other benefit, would you still be here? Maybe not. So this is a beautiful contemplation for you: What are you truly seeking? And I have a feeling that 'maybe not' is not true. If the truth had no byproducts, no benefits in this phenomenal world, how many of you would get up and leave? It's good to be asking on the first day. And by the way, I am not saying it won't; all that it will and is, is saying: forget about it.

So can we, over this next five or six days, be in this just for truth's sake? Not because it should mean something for the life of Raman or Omkar or any of us. I know it's not an easy ask because we've heard so many stories about what happens to those who are free. But all those who are truly free have told us: don't bother with this stuff, focus on the truth. No master has said, 'Ah, look at this beautiful miracle I'm performing, this is what it's all about.' Really, 'Look at this halo around my head, this is what it's all about.' Nobody has said that. They have said, 'I found the truth of what I am.' That is the only thing that is important.

Because otherwise the mind will keep playing this card: 'So then what? Now what happened to me?' Nothing happened to you. You were not even there. You said 'me' is not here right now. I think the mind says, 'How could it be so simple?' Yes, it could. This so many times, and all those who have heard this from... they have come, or those who have continued to stay in Satsang, I have seen that it is so simple because it is the truth. You see, if the truth was also coming and going, what kind of truth would it be? And if it does not come and go, it must be here now. And what is here now is you.