Let The False One Die While You Are Alive - 8th October 2016

Just how... how about if I call it fear instead of doubt? This fear is very primal. All of you are... get what I'm saying? It is fear or not? There is some fear to fall into this.

Fear, yeah. That's what I was feeling yesterday. It just comes down to that, everything.

And it is because of this primal fear that Maharaj said that everyone has to go through their death to find their freedom. Yeah. And Guruji has said you have to die while you are alive. So we don't talk strongly like this often because I like to keep it light for all of you, but do you have the commitment to die for this?

Yeah, Father, because it happens anyway. Whether I try to avoid it or not, it happens like this anyway, like panic attacks in hospital and blah blah blah. So this isn't really a choice anymore.

So right now, in the allowing yourself to remain empty, allow all of us... allow yourself to remain empty and let the thoughts just come and go. Let everything just come and go. Even if great resistance comes, even if it feels like you want to hold on to the floor, don't. Allow yourself to fall. Allow yourself to die if you have to.

It's kind of not here because I don't know who I'm talking to. I don't know...

Yeah, but then use this opportunity. It doesn't seem to come... like, Father, when I'm talking, use this opportunity to remain open. If the fear is not so strong in Satsang, then remain open. Then when it comes outside Satsang also, you'll be more used to this emptiness. This is the main point. The point behind all the pointings is this: to bring you to this point of death and to allow, if there is fear, to allow that to come and go. Whatever thoughts might be saying, allowing that to come and go. Emptiness. And you will find that this urge to go with these thoughts then jump around. So this fear and this urge is actually the same thing, but allow it to just bounce about you, but you continue in your allowing, not resisting, come what may. And if it feels easy and light right now, very good. It's... then you carry it about like that. This is how a sage is living: lightness of being, simple allowing all things to come and go.

Feels... it feels light, but there's also the fear... fear there as well.

Yeah, let the fear... let the fear vibrate. Don't even check too much. Just allow everything to happen. Allow all thoughts also to come and go. Allow your attention to move about naturally wherever it wants. No control over anything. Let go of all sense of control. Anything. Allow it to happen outside, inside. If this room catches fire, you don't leave. If the body has to fall, let it fall. See, now it's so small actually. It's small, the stuff that you try to make out like huge. Just exactly nothing. It's not even small, just nothing you.