Discovering Your True Place - 9th October 2016

Yes. Oh, I'm here. I'm here. Yes. And a lot of energies playing around, yeah, in the body.

Okay, so what you have to do is tell me that which affects you in reality now. That which is playing is playing; it's fine. It's like children playing in the park. It's okay. What does it really... if there is something that really affects the reality of who you are, then report that.

It's nothing. Nothing. This is just something that is happening now and I know it's coming and going. It has been during the last two days, it has been a lot of these...

This thermometer. You give me, before you go, give me the thermometer which you used to measure yourself. You know what I mean? Once again, this thermometer, this temperature, you is measuring and writing down the medical report of what has been happening. Yeah, so you give me that thermometer. You see, the meter that measures the temperature, so I can't measure.

Yes, I will. I will.

Very good. Don't leave with it here. I know it's a habit, but it's a bad habit. Let's drop it. If you were to ask me, 'Can you tell me what your state was in the last two days?' you don't know how difficult an assignment that sounds to me, to go back and say, 'Day before, what was this day?' It just sounds like too much work. Why you have to do it?

Right. Right, isn't it? Yes, it's a lot of these because it happens so many things. This is also that, yeah, and I try to... this is also there, but this is also that. Yes, yes, and I try to remember. Why? Why can't I come back to this?

So this is the checker guy I speak about. The checker. So what happens is the seeker now manifests mostly as this checker guy saying, 'Okay, today now, how many thoughts did I believe?' That is not the point of the pointing. It is not to make reports about yourself because you already started by saying that the reality of what I am remains untouched now by any play that might be happening. You started by saying that, you see? And then when we go to reporting what has been happening in the play, then we are going towards reporting what is happening in the unreality. So if reality is untouched by anything happening in the play, then we must not bother too much about what's happening in the unreality.

Yes. Last night I couldn't sleep almost at all and it was because it was hot and I'm having cold. And one thing is that I read a quote from someone, I don't know who it was, saying, 'You are not in the now, you are the now.' And that struck me very deeply. And after that, when I tried to go to sleep, I became afraid because it was so much loneliness in this. I almost got attacks of, I don't know what it's... I was very, very afraid.

This happened to the reality of who you are?

No, of course not. Of course not. But it's something to look at now, no? And see what...

And see that was not real. Yes, that's it. That's the only thing.

Yes. And that made me... when I went to the only coffee and tea in the restaurant, I was sitting for quite a long time and I suddenly... something became deeper and deeper. I more and more into reality, to awareness. And somehow I was taking off later and more and more layers. So I saw that I am a collector actually at home with quotes and copies of Amma's, all these... okay. And I experienced that I can't go on with this because I have to go into myself and see what is true here. You can't read it. Yes, and it became so true to me.

Very good. It's very important. If you're just reading and collecting knowledge, it's not helpful. We can take one Satsang, only one paragraph, this is something that appeals to us, yes, and just use that to check within. That is more than enough. Yes, there are just pointings, like what you are saying, it's pointings too.

Yes, and it feels like an opening to see this.

It's very important because we're moving away from the conceptual knowing of things into the true knowingness. Yes. Bye.