I, Even Prior to Am-ness - 26th March 2016

Okay, hello. You there's a question you can answer, which even that which never moves, even the existence isn't apart from it. So let's try, let's try to locate it. How will we do it? You can see that it is here, but it is not here spatially. So when you look at this awareness and you see that I cannot find the spatial location of it, it's just here. But actually, within this here, all space is. Amazing. This is not about contemplation because you can say 'Where am I?' and we are referring to ourselves as this absolute awareness. We try to find 'here'. Here, spatially, is it like all other content which seems to be appearing in the space of my own being? No.

It's also so obvious that I'm already looking from there. Yeah, it's just that we're not used to looking at things not phenomenally. Therefore, we have to use terms like 'here' and 'there', but actually this is prior to, even before the concept of here and there. Before the sense of thereness and hereness, this is always present, even before presence. So if all things are arising from this presence—all the forces, time and space, everything—you see that this that I truly am, before I am, cannot be located in this way.

Is there anything which is not phenomenal in this appearance? Ultimately, I call it the primordial phenomenon. It's not phenomenal in an objective way in that it's there, and it's so obvious it's there, but I can't quantify it in any way. And it is limitless, and I can't find any edge to it, and I can't find any properties. And I guess that's the thing, that it's just a thought and nobody... but it's there. And then maybe just expose it somehow, because if the beingness has no qualities whatsoever, no edge, no attribute, just what could possibly be watching that and able to look at that? To be able to look at something and say, 'Yes, it has definitely not in space.' That which you perceive, that you can perceive that from which space is born, can definitely not be in space.

Just like the witness of a dream is not within the dream; the dream is within it. So this is a dream. We're trying to say, 'How do I find this awareness within this dream construct?' It's not possible. Then waking up, we're aware of the dream; it was within me. So the dream was within me, but wherever it comes from, it cannot be within me. It has no spatial location. Time and space don't apply to it. That is why it is eternally timeless, endless. Everything else, all phenomena, is time-bound.

So this tendency to watch for a movement to see this, because even the beingness moves in its very, very, very unique and subtle way, you know? It's the tendency to search for some kind of... but what would you say? Yeah, and what in the sense that what would have to move for you to see that awareness?