Give Your Fear of Nothingness to Me - 7th January 2018

It felt like a void opened and it was really, it was really frightening because it felt like annihilation. I can drink... it felt like higher than me was gonna be gone. Yes. So my question is, it's like it's not just a simple step to understand, 'Yes, I am the Atma and I am not me.' It is like a terrifying thing that you lose every, every idea of what you are and then the 'me' disappears. Was it easy? It's now the last couple of days I'm sort of like, well, this is, this is a terrifying step. It's not just an easy slip into being.

You got me out there. Why? Because maybe Jaya will remember, but somebody when here's a book on me smiling... Atman... what is being shared with such simplicity here, to the mind, to the ego, is completely destructive. It can sound like it's big-time blowing up happening. So, but I can tell you that if you're here and you've been in a few satsangs with me before online, I know that if you are here, it means something there is ready for that. Something is ready for that.

Mind has a version of how the head has to be chopped, and you might find that how it is actually being chopped is a little bit different from that. So that is what we're here for: to chop the heads off. But as I'm taking you along, and most of what is being said here is an invitation to inquire, as you inquire along with me, you might find that you no longer find your head anywhere. Sometimes in the middle room, I know that fear can come. Sometimes I could have said something very innocent actually, and you looked at that and big fear can come. Some have reported that 'I can't find the ground under me. I can't find what is up, what is down, what is left, what is right. Is he... is everything going to be alright?' And I say this is very good.

So I'm here to hold your hand through that fear if it comes. But if you see it through, you will see that this fear, like most other fears, is completely unfounded. The fear is telling you that you are going to fall into an endless void or something like this. Just go all into some endless void. The reality of your no-thingness, the reality of your no-thingness will not feel like you are falling in an endless void. That is just the mind's interpretation of it. You will discover your boundless space, but you will find that you are beyond even that.

Now what happens is that we've been using some concepts, some notions, some beliefs about ourselves as crutches, believing that we need their help. Now as they are being thrown away, you see, you feel you're falling, but actually you're flying. So let the fear be mine.