Free to Feel Sad and Grumpy in Satsang - Feb.16, 2015

Father, could I say something? Could I say something? Yes, my dear, of course. Um, um, there's such a sadness here, such a, a very heavy sadness. And, and it feels so wrong to be sitting in your presence and to be feeling sadness. It feels like exactly the opposite of, of how things should, should be. And, and so I just wanted, I just wanted to say it to you and to bring it to you. And that's, that's all. That's, that's all I wanted to say.

We have to play this game of muting and unmuting the mic today, that's why the, that's why it seems like it's pausing a bit. It's very welcome. You have to come as you are. You don't have to be a certain way. In fact, it's better that you come to Satsang if there's this feeling, some feeling which is like this. It's better that you come.

I, I didn't want to, want to to be in, in the hangout with my grumpy face. I didn't. And I, and I left for a bit, but when there was a space again, I just felt I, I have to, to come back in, even like this. Yeah, I'm not really sure. It's not about anything. I'm not really sure what's going on, just right.

Is this your grumpy face? Show, show how it goes. How does it go, the grumpy face? Is that as grumpy as it gets? Doesn't get any grumpier? Now she's working hard to be grumpy. Very... just a feeling? Just this energetic feeling, or is there something, something more to it? Is there some belief about something, or no?

Nothing, nothing, no. There's nothing there. It's just a, it's just a, a feeling of, of heaviness and sadness and no, with no story attached whatsoever. Nothing, just a feeling. But it was a feeling that, that made me want to, want to avoid being in your presence because I didn't, I didn't want to be here with you with that feeling, I guess. So I knew I had to be, if that makes sense.