Turn Towards the Only One That Has Ever Lived - 17th April 2026

In that missing, not only are we missing the king, the lord, the highest, the most intelligent, the most merciful, the most beautiful, but we are also missing ourself because in reality there is no distinction. You see, so we are missing all that is real in trying to grasp at all that is ephemeral changing made up. Within you is that heaven, within you is that where God lives. I wonder if we can take this literally, we can take this seriously because if you were to take it literally and seriously, what else could be so important? What else could be so important?

So remember that Maya's temptations and the idea that this body mind is all that I consist of, all that I'm made up of and this world of objects is all there is for me to explore and to find. There is nothing really of value here without meeting yourself.

So our soul, our antahkarana itself gets transformed into that divinity. The more we stay with that divinity, you see, and it transforms more into a worldly seeming entity called the me the more we immerse it in worldly things. So it adapts, it adapts to your choices, or its choices, whichever way you want to call it, you adapt to your choice. So whether you call the choice me or love or me or God or the false or the real the framing of that choice is not important.

And it is not important at this time to determine whether this seeming agency is a real agency or a seeming agency because it seems that we have it. You see, and as long as it seems that we have it, we can turn to God no matter what the mind says. You see? So be careful of that conceptual Advaita knowledge which tells you that but it has to happen by God's grace. You see your turning has to happen by your grace. The revelation has to happen by God's grace for now. Let's put it that way, provisionally, to take out all the excuses.

You see what is the highest grace you can give to yourself while we wait for God's grace. Just do what he's saying.

So the biggest grace we can have on ourselves is to turn towards God. But what is making us so meek and weak? And it is not that kind of meekness. We are meek in front of Maya. We are meant to be meek in front of our brothers and sisters. But we become meek in front of Maya because we are trying to take this me along. We constantly in a mode of tracking what is happening to me. While the Lord of the universe waits.

Constantly in this concern about but what is happening to me. And God has become just something for the me to feel happy about or not happy about. So basically why is that happening? Because we are trying to squeeze God into our mind. We're trying to understand God. We are trying to conceptualize him. We trying to imagine him. Now all of those things would be helpful if you allowed that to deepen and fall into your heart. Then it would become a contemplation.

So yes. So if Ram Ji was standing in front of you, Dvima was standing in front of you, Krishna was standing in front of you, Jesus was standing in front of you, Allah in the form of any of his prophets would be standing in front of you. Then what would your focus be on? Oh Lord, you have come. I feel so good. You see, you have come. Why am I not feeling so nice? You are here finally. See, but I this emotion is still here. This feeling is still.

So if Ram Ji walked into the room, would that be how we were? I felt you will come in a different way. Why have you come as Ram? I wanted Bal Gopal to come because that's the one I really love.

So when we put our ideas, our preferences, all of these things too much into that meeting where we are meant to go completely naked. There are no elements of separation allowed in this holy rendezvous. And if our spiritual life is becoming more and more God for me and what is happening to me as a result of my spirituality then is it really spirituality at all?

Spirituality is a path of giving. You see it's not a path of getting. Every aspect which you think belongs to you has to be handed over to God. Otherwise our spirituality will remain armchair lip service feelgood spirituality with no presence of the spirit. If in Satsang the holy spirit doesn't come then is it Satsang at all? It has to be blessed by the Atma. Otherwise what is the company of the truth if the Atma is not here.

Can I tell you the truth? I can't tell you the truth. Can your mind handle the truth? Your mind can't handle the truth. You see, so the discipleship of the Atma can only happen if you make space away from the me. But if there is no space to receive the highest by giving all that we consider to be ourself, then it doesn't matter what this mouth says.

Every moment two doors are open for us. The one that takes us to our heart and the one that takes us to our head. Thought thought thought, love love love. Presence present presence. God could force our hand but he doesn't. God could force our hand but he doesn't because he loves us too much and he's too humble. The mind tries to force our hand but it can't. It doesn't. It has not been given the power. But it has been given the power to lure. So it lures not always in the most attractive ways also in the most scary ways. So that for the moment we forget about him. For the moment let's forget about him.

You see, and now because all of us are quote unquote spiritual now the mind's biggest topic to lure us away from him is spirituality because we all spiritual people that is our core identity you see. So our spiritual tracking, our spiritual self diagnosis, our spiritual ideas of progress or regress or our inability to grow spiritually or whatever the topic may be or even our phenomenal spiritual experiences. All of these if met through the lens of the me and not taken as a gift of love in the heart will actually become a distraction from the spirit itself.

How will we live in Atma Gyan? How will we live in Atma darshan if all we have is knowledge in our heads? We're so scared of leaving it. So don't get into this trap that spiritual answers are spirit. You see if you feel like you have the spiritual answer that is not spirit. If you can talk about the Atma it is not the Atma. Anyone can talk about the Atma after reading a few books actually after reading a few Facebook posts. Why books also? So the conceptual knowledge has nothing to do with Atma. The phenomenal world has very little to do with Atma darshan.

Until we don't offer ourselves, don't offer our highest love, don't offer our heart to God, our ideas about the spiritual life are just fanciful notions. If we are not even seeing that we have the choice in this moment to love him, to praise him, to live in his light and presence or to make this moment about my narrative, my story, how I will look good, how I will look special. You see if like Arjuna we are not seeing the two armies standing next to each other in front of each other then we need to open our eyes a little more.

If you're not getting that this is our life is a striving between God and Maya then we are not striving really to live in God's presence all the time because we have forgotten who God actually is. Because if we reminded ourselves of who God actually is, why would we ever make the decision to leave him even for a moment?

You see that's why I'm abhorring the use of the words like consciousness and awareness now because in that we made him into some strange force field like magnetism. Go stand next to the magnet and you'll feel peace. It's like a spa or something. Please, who is God? Who are we dedicating our life to? You see, then we would not be able to say God is here.

Let's not be meek towards the voice of separation which offers you the slightest temptation and off you go. Me. So the beautiful contemplation is do I want not to be right and happy but do I want to be right or God? Suppose that you had this choice right now that the whole world would consider you the most foolish, the most irritating, the most obnoxious fool that has ever existed, lived in this world, but you could live forever in God's presence. Or the world could consider you the highest in all ways and love you the most. But you never meet God. You never have Atma darshan. What would you be?

And if you pick God, then we have to really bring ourselves into the fight wholeheartedly. So suppose you had this intention that you will stay with God's name all day and it's the end of the day and you're revisiting your day. You're contemplating your day and you said that I had this intention when I woke up and then the whole day went in some worldly thing and I've not remembered God at all. You see now what is your next move after that. Is your next move oh I will do better tomorrow, oh I'm so foolish I'm so unworthy I can't do this this is too difficult I'm not getting anywhere. Is that your next move or is your move Ram Ram Ram Ram Ram Ram?

You see otherwise the mind is using the world to distract us and then the mind uses our spirituality to distract us. You see where is the time spent with God? And this only happens if our spirituality has become self-serving not the capital S self. You see so remember one thing you may understand every word in Satsang but really Satsang is not about that. I'm not saying don't understand but that what you have heard and you can repeat in Satsang is not spiritual progress.

Have you waited at his door for one moment? You see, because access to even the waiting room of his door is given when we are naked, even of the highest ideas we have. Have you fought the temptations of the mind even if it seemed like your life is being squeezed out of you and continue to have faith at that holy place where Atma darshan will happen. I'm not even saying can happen. Is there a reason every moment to postpone this project?

Are you happy if you met if you lived the whole your whole life in a spiritual g but never met spirit? Happy, we were so spiritual since a very young age. We've been in one Satsang or the other and that is what took up most of our life. But really not one moment did I hand over myself to God. He's coming. Does it matter if the whole world takes you to be spiritual? But God you haven't met.

So please all that I'm pleading with you, I'm begging you. Actually, it may be sounding like I'm ranting. I don't know why, but I'm actually begging. This is my begging voice. I'm begging. Don't waste time because time is running out.

What is Maya's theme today to distract you away from God? What was Maya's theme yesterday, last week? You know the trick? The trick is that one moment you get, grab his feet with all your might and decide not to leave. You see, then Maya can't trick you. I'm not going to leave him. Just decide. You see or if you are inquiry minded you say that I will not leave, I will not create one false misidentification today, I will find out who I am, not going to waste another moment on a lie.

Are you happy to live the lie of this identity? I am this body mind. I am my name and form. Your inner life can be much much much more. Do we really want to spend this life where we love God just when we got the time rarely? Today nothing was happening with my family. Today nothing was happening with my work. Today my body was fine. Today everything is fine. Then I will make time to love God.

You see there is no difference between God and heaven and there is no difference between me and hell. Vishnu. So if there is no difference between Vishnu and Vaikuntha, is there a difference between ego and hell? That which blocks Vishnu cannot be auspicious. Why can't you find out who you are? Why can't you find out?

Now if one of you came to me and said I have spent all my days in the contemplation but the grace of revelation has not yet happened that's all right that is still probably the highest life. But that's not what I'm hearing. I'm not hearing that report from anyone. None of you report to me that I have loved and loved and loved him with all my heart for days and days and months and months and still why is he not revealing himself to me?

So we will be paid by the master that we serve. You see if you work for Maya, Maya will pay you. If you work for God, God will pay you. But to work for the other one and demand wages from the other is foolishness. God is not opposed to such foolishness. At least if we turn to him and say you are merciful, help me. I have been caught in my heart. It's all right. He may still listen. But is that your highest approach towards him? So let's not be so weak when faced with the mind.

The tools you have have the blessing of the one who is the Lord of the universe. He has blessed us with his name. He has blessed us with the tool to find out who we are in the form of the question who am I? So suppose there was a germ living on your skin. There was a tiny germ living on your skin and his life dependent on you. You see now what greater gift could you give that germ than giving him your contact information today, so that the germ can call you and tell you, help me with this. Now, what we take ourselves to be is no greater than that germ. And yet, we have the helpline, we have the lifeline, we have the hotline to God. We can call him.

You have a soul at the center of which he lives. And if you really explored your center, you will find him. You will find the true you by using the inquiry. Why aren't we doing that? We aren't doing that. I am speculating because we feel we have time. But this project is not like that. It is not an exam which you say okay now I have 95 years I need to clear this exam at 94 years and 11 months then I have passed. No. It's about how much time have you spent in God's presence. What is your life, what is your antahkarana been filled with throughout your life? Me. Your spiritual stories about yourself. Or is it truly being filled with divinity, the divine light?

Does your soul have the capacity to be filled with divinity? You know the answer. It does. Although nobody literally nobody nodded but I'm telling you it does.

Father it's already filled.

Well, happy to hear that report but I don't know I'm not in the buying it mood today.

I don't want you to buy it but when you say you know have you spent all your time or are you going to self inquire or something I feel somehow I feel not to waste time with this question from past and future. Because even you know you said God is merciful and there are like he transforms you in a single moment.

So is that the excuse then?

It's not an excuse in this moment. When I said, you know, I wrote to you today and I wrote you a long message and then I thought as I was writing I just saw the avoidance in it like my own avoidance and my own postponement like you said. And then I moved it away because I know these vasanas will probably come again and I wanted to expose them but then I wrote you this message and the end of it I said don't let me escape. And then you came to this Satsang and you started begging and I wanted to say I answer to your begging with my begging. And even these words you know it's too much and too less in the same time. Too little in the same time and irrelevant. Maybe just quoting Guru is more relevant when he said there is nothing to talk about the unreal and nothing to talk about the real. Can I keep that and can I stay with that? Can I forget all the Satsang knowledge I have?

One simple way to look at this is when we love someone, all we want to do is talk about them.

It's true.

All you want to do is talk about that. So Jesus said your heart is where your treasure is. I feel also our mouth is where our treasure is. Is our mind also where our treasure is? What I'm trying to convey is that if I'm in love with Ram Ji, then I will want to keep talking about Ram Ji. If I'm in love with me, then I keep talking about me. Even if my references to myself are spiritual.

Yeah.

So spirituality really is that pathway where we learn to fall so deeply in love with God, truth, love, that the me is not the most interesting thing to talk about. Of course, not to dwell on, but but the talking reveals what we dwell on.

Yeah.

You see, now of course this does not mean that we must just become spiritual actors. We love just to present ourselves in a certain way. So we will just talk about God to show how much we love God. That kind of inauthenticity will destroy our life. If you end up becoming spiritual actors then that will destroy our lives. So I don't feel any of us, neither the one who was speaking from the chair nor the ones who are listening, want to destroy their lives in this way. But if you're being authentic then the mouth always betrays what we really love.

You see, so it is important that we don't fall in love with medicine. You see we take the medicine, that is important. Today thanks to YouTube internet all of that we have we are in the biggest spiritual pharmacy. We can access all the medicine in the world, we can talk about the conceptual efficacy of this medicine versus that medicine. Why this is better? Why that is better? Why this works? Why that works? But the taking the medicine is important. That falling in love is important. That sacrificing the me at the altar of the truth is important. That feeling the danger, feeling the risk when we have to live a life of faith is important. To have your throat squeezed by Maya and still shouting God, God is important.

I feel to say nothing now but it was coming because I see you're talking and some projection is happening. The mind is still active and maybe goes in the memory where I went wrong and I didn't apply self inquiry immediately or something on this note. And I have to say because my question was where am I and I was trying to apply it. And then you asked me last time to contemplate what does God want and I could see this resistance maybe towards a different approach. But I let this question run in me.

Father, are you still here?

Yes. I saw Shiva Shiva Shiv was on his mic was on unmuted that.

If you saw Shiva we are good, all that's needed in Satsang. See now my head is going to say if I saw something is not real. So what to do then? Exactly.

Exactly. Take the medicine my child. Take it. To take it is the key. To know it is not enough.

I pray to take it father.

Father, can you hear me please? May I have a question?

Yes, please.

Is there a difference between love and God? Love and God. Love and God. Is there difference between love and God or is it the same?

What is the way in which you can tell that a flower is real or plastic?

I can smell the real flower. Yeah.

So we can smell the fragrance. So would God be God without love? Without the fragrance?

Would not be.

So really it's impossible to divide the two. Let's just say that God would not be God without love. You see, so if you love unconditionally, which is different from desiring, wanting, grasping. You know, being godly.

I feel I want to grasp God. It's not love. When you want to grasp God.

You want to grasp God. Yeah. It is not love. That's okay. That's allowed. Yeah. That's the only one, he's the only one you're allowed to try to grasp at. Meet him in whichever way you want. But meet him. That is the important thing.

Thank you, father. Thank you.

There's just so much gratitude. There's just so much gratitude, you know. I remember you said something, I don't know if it's what you say or if it's what you just speaking me like that. And you're saying that you said that the first trick of the false is to blind you from the spirit. And but then you said that the second trick is to is to prevent you from seeing like the magnitude, the power and the glory of the truth, you know. I feel I'm very blessed and I feel like we all blessed that you're here because it's like you're just pointing to the secret of like because not everyone is fortunate to be able to have this very direct just very something is very directly pointed at you. So not everyone is fortunate to be able to hear this directly. Some very direct and there are some beings who like they just yearn to be able to just just hear that thing just just light the matches like something they're just very something is longer and you're just pointing very directly like it's like all the thousands of books on spirituality and all this here just pointing like one sentence how to live like to just leave this world and enter into the realm of God.

It's just I just felt in my heart I've been feeling a lot of gratitude in the past days and I just felt to just keep writing you every day like thank you, thank you, thank you. I just didn't want to disturb you in this way. And because only in the heart that it really like you begin to see like the power of these things, you know, because in the surface it almost seems like because you just hear it every day. So it's like it's just but in the heart is it just somehow spontaneously revealed like the power of these very simple things like just very powerful. And I want to thank you for entering my heart and for giving me the courage to be empty of myself because that's the highest gift. Yeah, his highest gift and it's like a secret like the key to this mysterious existence.

So I fel was afraid. I cannot speak conceptually about God anymore. I cannot deny the power and the spirit that I feel in my heart. I just can't deny this thing. I don't know what it is. I can't speak about it, but it's true. And I still see that I'm still very much like just beginning to see because I still have a lot of limitation in terms of being able to stay with it. And I forget so many times. it. One thing I'm happy is that the spirit knows and it's able to like the more something just intends to it responds almost immediately like it's just some just it's like something is very immediate about it. It's just because it knows like every like fiber of my intention and will. It's just so at the same time it's very strange because I see that I am appearing inside myself like I don't know how to explain it. I'm also appearing I seem to be appearing in that somehow. I don't know how to explain it. But you've shown me that the power is not in how many books I can read or how much I know about God but about what I choose, you know, where I choose to stand and and truly like that I just intend to be empty of myself like I'm just brought directly to that. Just brought directly to that. There's no like there's no book in it.

Bless you. Bless you so much. Bless you with all my heart. Bless you so much. Good. Yes, my dear. Please come. The other mic.

Okay, let's go to Shiva.

Hello, father. Can you hear me? Yes, I can hear you. Yeah. Yeah. I just wanted to come up and to just to as you as you told me. So yes yes. Yeah. I'm here. Yeah. I've I have been working. So yeah I couldn't come often as I wanted to to Satsang but yeah. Actually we've not had that many since we. Yeah that's true also. Yeah.

How has it been? I know it's been longer since. You found a plan and then God had a plan. So, how is it? You're you're back to being on mute somehow. One second.

Yeah. And yeah, I don't want to hide from you the the fact that yeah the resistance still be still very much present. For example today the resistance not to come was very strong not to come up. And few days ago when the satsang got cancelled at at the at the last time I was was like I was there was like a I was there there was a release a release a reling of oh. So but I want to yeah I would I want to tell you this I don't want to hide this.

Okay. So let's pause on that for a moment. There is resistance. We notice the energetic movement in the form of some constriction and we observe the thoughts which are fearful thoughts or thoughts which are saying don't do it run, don't put yourself out there whatever the thought may be. So this combined these two combined we call resistance. Now besides resistance what is there?

Maybe should I add something to the question? What is the resistance?

Resisting. And on the other side, who is the resistance resisting? And on the other side, who is being defended or protected by this resistance? We can start on either side.

It seems that it's resisting itself, it is an inside battle. I don't know how to put it.

You mean that the resistance itself creates the separation or the separate entity, in a way the idea of a separate entity is the resistance itself.

Yes. And what is it and who is it resisting from? It is resisting the the the opportunity to the absence of me to to is resisting that possibility that the possibility. Yeah, I don't know. Sorry.

Yes. And in the absence of the me, what would happen? What is it afraid of?

It is afraid of disappearing and on is afraid of losing my life. Yeah. Losing the things I think I want. Or yeah I want to do this I want to do that. And I the feeling is that the fear of losing that that drive let's say you know yeah.

But every day for a long period of time we lose this me. In our sleep state and suppose that we didn't have sleep then we would get very upset after a few days. So somewhere we are also waiting for the absence of this me. We waiting for the absence of everything which is not the ultimate originality of us. You see, we look forward to that absence in the form of sleep, but we are scared of meeting this absence in the waking state itself.

You see, so this absence of the me: the mind is designed to primarily fear this absence because the truth will reveal itself in the absence of this me. In the absence of the me, we will learn to use the true eyes of the spirit in our heart to see the reality of the self and to see the reality of God which is the same.

You see, so now you are put in a difficult position. You are put in a difficult position because on one end I am tempting you to leave the me. By giving you the offer of truth. You see, and the mind is tempting you to hold on to the me for security, for safety, for like you said, wanting its will to be done. And I'm saying if you leave that, transcend that fear, go through that fear. Don't bow down in front of it. Try it this way. And the gifts that you will get are unimaginable, unfathomable. But your mind will tell you, can't I just do this my way? You see, so it is also an avoidance of the absence of this me.

So let's not overdo it. Let's do it in the right balance between my work and my relationship and Satsang. You see, let's do it my way which then fits perfectly into my life. But then this my little life because life met through the lens of this me seems very little compared to God's glorious life in this universe. So you have to just grab onto God's feet and just jump.

Do you want to meet the truth?

I'm afraid to say yes because if I say yes, I I I should do it. Yeah.

Yes. The question is a trap like that. You're right. But it's important to clarify for ourselves that am I okay to try and balance out this life with my will and to have the right amount of God just so that I can feel all right and feel like I'm on the spiritual path or am I willing to really chop off my head to meet the truth?

It seems that that right now what you're. It seems that I I'm trying to to live a little bit here, a little bit there and to because seems that is a nightmare, but it's a living a livable light nightmare. I don't know. Yes. Yes. Even though it's I I see that the absurdity also of trying to to follow what I want. Yes, because it's so so small. So so is such a small vision is such a. But but yeah but I at the same time I don't I don't understand why I still like wanting to fall in this trap. I don't know how to put it like that. I don't want to sound too too mental or too but yeah.

If you had complete control, everything happened according to your will. What would you want?

To feel at home, to feel safe, to feel. I think I would love to be in God's presence. This is what I feel that I'm really looking for somehow. But I feel that I'm still looking at it in things, in my job or in my art. I'm still looking at God in things. I'm still searching God in things. And I'm still searching the fulfillment that I know that it's God somehow but I still look in it in music in stuff. And there is like a strong drive to keep creating stuff and to keep living. But at the same time the knowing that there is nothing there without God.

Let's pause on that for a moment. There is a complete valid pathway to God. There's a completely valid pathway to God by seeing God in everything on the outside as well. You see, but then don't pick and choose. Then don't say I will see him only in my art. I will see him only in this. Then see God in everything.

Sometimes it seems that it's it's possible. It's it's sometimes it's it's real what you're saying right now. But it's a gleam. I hope so. I think I should hope so. No. No. Well, in in my case, what what I'm saying is in my case, not. So I can see what you're saying. But is a glimpse, you know, is a is. But but I I I need to confess I I I still very very much the me part is very. I don't know the the all the the first part of today's Satsang was very very true. I don't know I can't repeat the words but yeah but you were you were saying something about choosing the me and what you love more more more, so it seems that my words are saying that I love more myself the me than than God, you were saying something like that I don't know.

So even when you find that you see God everywhere on the outside or even when you see God in your art in your music how much of the me is present in that moment?

There is still a me somewhere that wants this to be, that it's searching for recognition.

Yes but in that moment you see now whether you find God through unconditionality absence of labels on the outside and you have a unified vision and you see God everywhere, or whether you find God by going deep in your heart and meeting him at the very core of your existence. In either case, the meeting of God or meeting even a sense of meeting God is not possible if there is me in that moment.

You see, so even for that which you're calling an experience on the outside where you feel like you're meeting God. I can I can bet a lot of money. I wish I had a lot of money but I can I can bet a lot everything that I have on the fact that in that moment there would be that absence of me which your mind is preventing which your mind is resisting. So you're saying something like even even now.

Yeah. I I have like a a sense of the love that you're talking and and I have a sense of God.

Yeah. Even even if it's because sometimes what I feel is like discomfort. No, not not in comfort like. That like there is a convincing something that says that I'm not I'm not able anymore to to see God or to. So but what I want to say is that maybe what you is that right now even if it's a glimpse even if it's a it's not true that I'm not able to see God is this is what I sorry it's.

Yes yes yes. I'm a bit confused I'm a bit I'm I'm not clear in how I'm saying it but. All that I'm saying is that. Sorry, is that I pointed out that there is a valid pathway to meet God by loving everything on the outside unconditionally by not labels of separation. And you said that you have had experiences of that. Uninterpreted fresh perception. Labeled by the narrative not getting caught in the me.

So the mind says there's a lot to fear if I let go of the me completely. But you are reporting that you had those moments and I'm presuming that they were very beautiful moments where there was no me oppressing you. There was no no mental oppression in that way. So this is a sign that there's nothing to fear in letting go of the me.

And I feel that I've never been good at art or music or any of that but my feeling is that all artists wait for that moment where there is no me operating in their art. You see and that you may call that the zone or you may call that any other word but that is where true creativity from the heart even flows to the outside. And my understanding is that most artists, musicians, all the creative ones feel very inspired by those times. They're waiting for those times to happen. So the absence of the me doesn't get in the way of your creativity, doesn't get in the way of your art, your work.

No, exactly. But I do want to say one more thing which is that it seems like you're trying to do it without the medicine you see.

So what are you trying to take a particular medicine which is a tool that you are practicing from satsang?

I'm using to say that the name of God but was I was saying to you the other time it was that there is no regularity. Let's say there is. Or or I'm using also in the inquiry. In the last few days I was contemplating what is here without an effort. And sometimes yeah the the yeah and and that was helping also. So to to see what is happening right now without without any any any effort. But yeah there is also.

Why not take the name of God constantly. I'm getting I'm just going to get all the why nots out of the way in this conversation. Because the mind will try to sell you a story on why not later.

Could it be also the name of God like to say God is okay?

Yes. God is the name of God. Yes.

Because it's the one that is coming more natural and then so. So why not take it constantly? There is no why. There is like a I start like saying the name and I start with the intention and then I find myself like doing the dishes or you know doing something else thinking something else and then I start again and but it's it goes it goes like that and maybe I get lost for a few hours doing things and and then I come back except so it's like a there is no a form like there is not like like a a method or or.

There are three things I want to tell you in this. I'll be lucky if I get two of them out and forget the third and forget two and remember only one. So the first thing is that this is the story of all our lives. All of us start with good intentions and then things happen. So that is one thing.

Second thing is that one tip is that when there is a lot of distraction especially when it is just physical activity like doing the dishes then that's very conducive to continuing with God's name actually. You see so then what you do is that you try to do it faster. Try to do it faster. If it still feels difficult try to do it with your lips. Like say it audibly if you have to. God, God, God, God, God, God. And the dishes can go on. It's more challenging when you're working on a computer spreadsheet or you're trying to do some calculation. That's when it's more challenging, but physical activities or physical work seems to be quite conducive for taking God's name. So as much as you can try to use every aspect of your being in service to remembering God as much as you can this will help you. So increase the speed of it if you want to and use other tools which you have like your tongue, lips, whatever way that you want to use, you can use that.

And the third thing I wanted to say and I'm very happy I remembered all three is that try to have at least a few moments of focus prayer every day. You see, if you don't have a few minutes of focus prayer every day, then this constant remembrance is going to be very difficult.

And what you mean by that is to sit to take the time to sit and do it and do only that.

Do only that, that our only intention in that time should be to remember God and to be with his name. You see and all other times there can be activity there can be washing the dishes there can be other work there can be art whatever else is happening but we try to hold on to his name as much as possible. And the third thing is not to beat yourself up on this too much because everyone every one of us wants to do it constantly but every one of us fails during the day because of something happening in the world. So that is the story of all our lives.

Somehow it changed because I'm not beating myself up too much, you know. It's like okay. That's the because I used to beat myself much more like in the past but right now it's like okay. But I feel that is another form of avoidance somehow.

And so that that that is why I I I came up last time with because there is fear because there is like this the fear here that I'm become I be becoming too too too complacent or complacent about not not being in satsang not so that that that scared me like oh my god what because this seems to lead to to to be lost you know to be lost completely. And so this is why I came like last time like begging somehow to to because I need I I yeah I don't want that. I don't want that in a I I know that I don't want that to to to to get lost you know. And in mind I I this is what I I so yeah thank you again for.

So the first part of Satsang today was an attempt to fight this complacency. And it is meant for all of us including myself. I was hearing the word strongly as well. Before the stealer of time steals all our time, we have to wake up.

I don't know what I was saying. I because yeah I wanted to bring something else like maybe the fear of being of using of using Satsang words. This is what you were saying at the beginning. But you and I see that using higher concepts to to I don't know. It's like sometimes it's like I don't know how to leave, you know, because there is like this mental drive and the idea that I I shouldn't be following the following the mental and and there is a conflict like I don't know how to say better but yeah.

I hear you. So one good thing about this is that the only safe refuge for even the mind is God's name. There is nothing else which is safe in the mind. But God's name makes the mind also safe. In fact, I will go so far, I cannot imagine I'm saying this, it may even make the mind worthwhile if it is consumed in God's name.

You see Sant Gyaneshwar said that unless our mind is immersed in God the mind goes to waste. You see now the usual position in Satsang especially Satsang in Advaita Vedanta is that the mind is a waste and we must ignore it. But another way to look at it then is what the saint said which is that unless the mind is immersed fully in God's name it is going to go to waste. So then if we are using the mind to remember God to remember his name over and over again then even the mind by God's grace will not be a waste. So then we don't have to worry about the mind anymore because it's full of God.

Can I try again to because sometimes it's like the drive to to live things to to to live life like like let's say to to go out and see friends and stuff like that and and and there is some something that's saying no don't do it it's it's dangerous because you you will lose do something. It's it's this kind of battle. But I think it's all in the mind. It's and maybe what you're saying, if I understand it correctly, if I if I stay with the name of God, it's the the only is the only guide I can because there is there is no right way to to to live somehow, no to to to live life. But but coming from from from from God, I don't know if is.

Yes. This is a good way to start. Once you start by filling yourself up with God's name, then what will happen is that you will feel God is very intimate. He is happy. He is smiling in your heart. He's connected with you deeply in the heart. And at times you will feel a distance from him in the heart. So then that becomes your compass, your inner compass in the heart. So if you're starting to feel a distance from God, there will come a point where you can't bear it anymore. There will come a point where you no longer can bear even the slightest distance from him in the heart and you will lead your life just to be pleasing to God in your heart. So the only happiness you remain in this life.

Sorry father. Sorry. I can't hear you right now. Sorry because my my phone is dying. One sec. Sorry. No worries. No problem. I feel it. Oh my god. Yes. That's keep remembering. It's all right.

Can you hear me, father? You hear me, father?

Okay.

So what I was saying is that initially it may seem like we have to rely on a mind which is completely immersed in God's name, God's remembrance. But then what will happen is that your prayer starts falling into your heart and your heart has a lot of texture and you can literally sense God smiling in your heart. God pleased in your heart. A deep deep loving connection, a loving embrace with God in your heart. And you can sense a sense of being distant from him and that being distant from him becomes unbearable. So the only happiness in your life like the only happiness which remains in my life is when I am pleasing to God in this way when I'm in his embrace, when I'm loved by him. And that is the only joy which remains and it is a beautiful joy which remains.

So then that becomes an internal compass based on which we learn how to live. Then there are times where you receive guidance from him in your heart which is very specific about the next step. In my case at least I don't receive guidance in the form of this is what the plan is for the next 10 years. I just receive guidance in the form of this to take the left turn seems auspicious at the moment. You see this is the next step which feels auspicious at the moment. So then we get all of these ways in which we learn how to follow God's will. Although initially it's all right to just keep yourself immersed in God's name as much as possible and to follow from there. All this deepens into greater deeper textures in our heart.

Like when I used to also hear about we need to follow God's will, we need to lead our life in servitude. I never realized what a beautifully loving process that is. You see, because it sounds like a master and servant relationship, which it is in a way, but it is actually a loving embrace. And I know that I'm pleasing to God when I'm in his loving embrace. And when he's not that pleased with which way I'm going, falling into the me, falling into Maya, then I can sense a loosening up in that embrace. I can sense that he's showing me in my heart that I'm going down on my will and not on his will. And that is a good nudge for me to turn back towards him. So it's a very loving life. It's a very supported loved life when we are determined to follow his will alone. His presence guides us constantly in these ways.

All right. We just keep it simple for you today which is that. So I had to do little bit of focus prayer and try to keep with God's name as constantly as possible.

Thank you. Thank you father. Thank you my love. And thank you everybody.

Bless you. Bless. Thank you. Okay, let's go to Yanek.

Oh, am I audible now?

Yes. Yes.

Hello, Ananta.

Hello, man. I haven't talked to you in a in a while.

Hello, Ananta. I haven't talked to you in a while and I'm happy that that the chance comes now. And so you were involved in two Mayas. I was involved in two Mayas. Yes. So I don't need to say anything much. I guess you know a whole lot about me because I've been around for quite a time. But I wanted to ask you about some tips. You already gave a lot today but I sometimes experience I have struggles sometimes like I get from time to time I get filled with let's say a thought of maybe I'm attached to some thought, resentful thought from my father. And sometimes I'm being flooded with like judgmental thoughts little bit. And I don't know because sometimes like yesterday night it happened I was feeling quite clear later I went for a walk and I'm thinking I'm feeling clear like should I bring up to mind the image of my father and pray for him now or am I just making myself again filled up with these resentful thoughts. I'm not sure what I should do.

That's good. That's good. I actually love it when all of you ask me for tips. You see because I prefer these kind of questions now because these questions come from those who are trying to practice what is being spoken in Satsang. So I don't mind at all when you ask me for tips. It's fine.

In this particular case my tip is that at least in my life I look forward to the opportunity to pray. So whenever I get a prayer request I look at it as a great opportunity that thank you for this prayer request because it allowed me to visit the holy temple in my heart, I may have forgotten in Maya for a few minutes or for a few hours. A prayer request really is that can you bring this to God's notice? Can you beg for mercy from the holy one in our heart and to really bring it to his notice? It's a great reminder for me to return to where I'm meant to be anyway. So I'm very appreciative of any prayer requests that I receive because it's a great reminder for me to return to my home where I'm meant to be. So if you can pray for your father with that spirit that it helps you return to your most natural home which is to be in God's presence, to be in his light, then you must pray for your father or pray for everyone that you would like to pray for in the heart. It cannot do any harm. It can only bless.

And yesterday I downloaded like by chance the course in miracles in PDF file but I'm not sure will it help me in my case I mean to read anything like or or just throw it away I mean.

I am very grateful to A Course in Miracles when it came into my life many many many years ago. It really helped me a lot. And it can be read only by God's grace because when I received this book I couldn't make any sense out of it. It felt like it's written in a different language. It felt like it's Greek or something. It's like what is being said here? And then only by God's grace one time I opened it and it started to reveal itself to me. I feel very strongly in my heart that it has the hand of God. Of course, Helen's personality, Helen's input, all of this would have got mixed into the course as it happens with all teachers of God, all instruments of God. I wish I could share Satsang without it being contaminated by Ananta. But it doesn't happen. Ananta always seeps into Satsang. So in that way the scribe would also have contributed to some of the words but I feel very good in my heart to say that it definitely has the hand of God. It's very beautiful, it's also very precise in spotting the tricks of the mind and sharing the ways of the ego. So it's a very helpful book to notice how the mind latches on to grievances, refuses to forgive. And how the whole project really is to come to acceptance and forgiveness. It's very beautiful.

I was just going through the index just looking and I was drawn to certain topics like specialness and guilt for example. I thought it's a miracle also like I'm being drawn to certain topics.

It's a big book. It's a big book. That's true. So what we could do is you could do one lesson from the workbook every day which is a small lesson every day. And if you just do that then it may lead you to what else to read in the book. I was a very stupid child when I was reading the book. So I was trying to read all three sections. I was trying to read the book. I was trying to read the workbook and I was trying to read the manual for teachers. And I failed spectacularly in all three aspects of the book. But I feel like because somehow some things have a very clear taste of God that that stage of my life blessed me also by God's grace in some way. So if if it seems intimidating just read one workbook chapter in a day. You're not supposed to read more than one anyway in a day.

I'm not feeling I feel it only spoils my head, you know, when I read too much. Yes, I can understand. Because I'm already like fighting this tendency to not conceptualize. Like I don't know.

Then maybe just workbook is very good. Just one lesson every day from the workbook. If you're drawn to A Course in Miracles, it's not a prerequisite. But if you're drawn in some way to it, then one lesson from the workbook every day could be fine.

I don't know what else to say. But I feel like last days I can feel that I have little bit from time to time there is like little bit more faith like more faith and trust grows but still from time to time I get fooled into like going off as you said go off with something. But this is so good like to sit and just to sit even on the bench somewhere. So good. And why why did I leave it so many times? I can only say that I hope that I will stay on track. I will hope and that I will be able to to keep a habit to to show up from time to time and apply the medicine.

Yes. Bless you. God bless you. God bless you. All right, let's go to h sorry my dear you were saying something. Yanek was still saying no thank.

Namaste father. Right now there is no question and I think no question. Oh, so there was a question it is not that much important related to the mind's memory being fading something like that that's not important.

Ah very good very good very good, thank you. So welcome. Bless. Okay let's go to Samia.

Father. Thank you so much. Thank you for you. Thank you. Sorry, I'm. I want to ask for God's help. Yet I see just, I don't know father I just see what's happening presently, it's also just what's happening.

My internet connection is not good.

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. But it you're quite audible. Am I audible to you? Oh.

Okay. Yeah, now it's good.

So, so you want to ask for God's help. But also something is stopping you because of the present situation. Can you expand on that second part? What do you mean?

No it's not. I'm sorry, father.

It's all right. I love silences. I love silences. I don't get bored. I'm happy to take time. It allows me to stay with God's name inside.

Last Satsang I mentioned about Allah's 99 names. And not all of the names but some names of him is like a Shiva like a destroyer, God is the one who restricts everything. And it's like one of the names of him is that he just closed all the doors and does not allow anything. And in Sufi tradition if you are just find yourself in a situation it's also like you can feel it's just God's will you know. And I'm in that position right now like nothing works father but I feel at the same time it's just, nothing works and it must be God because nothing works like he does not allow anything. And it's just there is peace in all of this because you can see that it's just God is the one who does not allow anything. It's just I'm in that period.

Yes.

So that's why like I can't even ask for help because you can see that God is doing something which I cannot understand presently. Yet still yet still I have to ask for help. Because only God can solve it and only God can make things flow. Like I'm in situation where no moves, no moves, nothing can work.

You see how he you will see how he finds doors when we feel like there is no door over there.

Yeah. Yeah.

Only God can work.

Yeah. So we have this sense. No. Many times I pray to God and I feel like this particular door should open like this. But actually he answers the prayer by creating a whole new door that we never even fathomed was there. And it's all right for both things to be there together that you accept that nothing happening is also God's grace. And yet you pray for his help in making something happen. Both can be together. There's no problem. God does not operate in linear ways.

Father, I'm aware that like this is my kind of destiny or karma that I'm working in this life, you know, like all my family and all these things. But I invite him there because I'm sorry. I don't want to bring so much personal things and I know that it was my thing that I bring again and again again and again. But I think I'm just inviting God that maybe there is a point that I don't know it's like enough moment I don't know but I just want to invite God into this because just before Satsang even my being just triggers my sister a lot and we don't speak for years in the same house. She just goes crazy without me doing anything. And you know, father, I want to say that today in a book I read something. Someone could quote from Rumi and the saying was like this. I don't know the English name of you know like Egyptian uh kings what's the foss. Yeah so Rumi was saying that if you are given the opportunities which are given to Pharaoh you will be worse than him. Yeah. And it really struck me and I see also within me of course all the time and also I see what's happening with my sister you know she just goes so wild father and she just does not even want me at home. Today she fights with my mother that I want her to leave and and you know I I don't. We were staying in the. I'm sorry. It's all right. It's all right. Take it. I don't know what to do.

It's my turn. You you seem to be frozen now. I'm not sure if my voice is reaching you. It's reaching. Okay.

Is it good? Yeah. Sorry, father.

It's all right.

Like this ongoing situation since my childhood, you know, I'm always blamed. I even go to all this psychiatric thing because of them. And now I come to see that I had nothing. I it was and when I go outside it didn't work as well. So I always believe that yeah there must be something wrong with me but recently I see that there was nothing wrong father. Of course everything, I mean we are not also so pure but they made me believe that there was really something wrong but I came to see no.

I take all of this to God's presence in my heart and I pray wholeheartedly for you.

Thank you father. Last time we spoke about I ask for work and all this stuff and you ask me you want this or what is best for you and I still of course I ask for what is best because it's also a pressure always comes from me from them. Work. We don't want you. All this stuff. You have to work. Of course, we need money for this world. But I think I can not work also in their terms. And I'm so grateful to my mother and father that they accept me no matter what. And you know, father, I actually stay in their room for years because there is no other room. And I'm so grateful to them, being such accepting me in that age. And I see that through me, by accepting me they actually accepting God into their room and their life and I see that in their life how grace flows to them through me. But maybe it doesn't work anymore also for me.

I want to share a story. Years years back, many years back, while I was sharing the same room with my sister, every night, every day, she was firing me, you know, just get out this house. I don't want you, get out. You're a burden for us. You're a parasite. All this stuff. And I did not bring to you at those times but almost every night I was going to bed crying to Guruji and getting the poison out by crying you know so that I could sleep. And because it was many years back, sometimes I was cursing back her inwardly. But as soon as I was come into God's presence, I was just praying and removing all my curses. I was praying that please just don't take my curses back and all this stuff. But you were always saying that Don't you trust God's justice? Something like this. And actually I started to really believe God's justice after something happened. And all my anger towards people dissolved when I see that you know God takes care of everything. And it's not that I'm happy it happened, but it happened and he just shows me that he really takes care of us. So she was just always shouting me only because I was just in her sight and I was not able to work. So I had to leave the house at that time. And one day my mother called me and before she called me I came across with a car to video which I was not actually watching but just one video and he was saying in that video that you know like he has a phrase like pain body and he was saying that some animals, some stuff is just reflection of negative energies, negative channels and pain body such as like cockroach and mice. Just I saw that in that video and that information stayed with me and few days later my mother called me and told me that one day my sister just lay down on my bed. Our beds were different and that day very big mice just eating the walls and came into that room our room and only that room and for weeks never left and she couldn't sleep. Nowhere nowhere else in the apartment but only her room and she was not able to sleep. I just wanted to share this story.

And I was happy actually. Because it was for me just so obvious that this kind of stories we can see that oh I made a mistake. So God sends me this. So I was so happy that finally she could see this and understand her mistake. But when I back home again the first words she says again cursing me. So sometimes people does not even understand. I'm sorry. Father, I just want to dedicate this life to God. Recently many things changed.

Remove the want to, just dedicate your life to God.

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Just recently many things changed. It's okay. But I'm just so used to live with a saint. And of course when you have this taste you just want to continue in that way and you cannot find any other taste.

May this be so true that your life is now completely dedicated to God. I pray for all of you. I pray for all of you.

Guruji is my guru father and you're my father and your path is just what I resonate with. It's just sometimes confusing what I hear from other teachers here because they also given much importance to how to live life. They have some ideas about this which does not align somehow with my path with you. It is confusing me. But even if I don't know I still have to choose your path because this is what satisfies my spirit my soul my heart.

May confusion be confused after meeting you.

Say it again.

May it be the confusion that gets confused after meeting you, not the other way around. May it be the confusion. May it be the confusion that gets confused. That instead of us saying the mind is resisting, the mind is creating fear, may the mind become fearful after meeting all of you. May God's light shine so much in all of you that the mind may be so confused about how to try to pressure you, how to oppress you. May it run out of moves in meeting you. And if you live in God's presence as you have dedicated to do, it will happen. The mind will not know how to deal with you.

I still offer my confusion about what I hear from the teachers that I met here and between you because it feels oppressive.

So the confusion is in the mind. So let the mind get confused. You stay in your heart. They are also spiritual beings. So you keep pulling all of them also into your heart. Then by being in God's presence in your heart, all of us will figure out how to handle you. You pull all of your teachers into your heart along with you. Then when we are together in your heart, we'll have a committee and decide how to handle Samia.

We can just dance there.

Exactly. That's a better way to do it. Father, I cannot express my gratitude enough that you and Guruji are really exist in this world. Oh, thank you. Bless you. Thank you.

Okay, let's go to Corona.

Father, I can't really take myself too seriously today. I think it's thanks to your grace from our last talk. So the first hour of Satsang is bhakti, the second hour is Advaita Vedanta and the third hour is Zen.

Okay. So just know that whatever question you ask will be answered in a Zen way. If there is such a thing. Can there be a Zen way? If there is a way then it cannot be Zen.

You know I almost I I was about to call you Guru G and I just.

Okay. I I just I'm just going to thank Samia for exposing myself so well. I want to just humbly ask for God's grace to dissolve all these ideas of distance to him and separation to any other being and any idea of criticism or judgment and any concept of being spiritual, any concept of why. And I want to thank Yanek for his progress and for his heart. I want to thank you and I wanted to remember that Mavaki said when you do pronounce at the feet of an enlightened being, you are asking for those qualities to be embibed in your being. And I want to say I appreciate your compassion and your patience with all of us. In the message that I wrote to you actually this morning which I deleted because it was too long and I felt in a way it's not fair to waste this time, the end of it I said don't be too kind to our egos because we are going to exhaust you. And when I put my hand up again, I actually wanted to ask for a chop off of my head.

And I'm not crying of any sadness in this moment. It's just and it's not like I did stay with your question. I didn't want to bring it up earlier in Satsang just because it was not the moment for it. And I do have my mild attacks and they are very strong and somehow I go against Guruji full power, or I think it just in my mind the text is just it goes against him. Even if a how do you say it a straw of sand or whatever grain of sand moves in a different direction, it's just his fault. And I was staying like I was with the children and we went to the beach and last night the children were in the car and I stay by myself. I prayed in the beginning and then I asked this question but who are these thoughts coming from? And even if I wasn't prepared for sadhana, I wasn't in deep meditation. I was on the beach with my bum on cold sand and he still answered. And I remember your question like what does God want? And the end of my contemplation or whatever my sitting because I have limited capacity to contemplate was like be, be fresh and be happy.

Very good.

And I'm just very grateful to you and I'm very grateful to Guruji. I trust both of you, watch over me for my highest. Like even the burnout mother and all these personalities that can play, they are just rubbish and they just leave space for this victim to play out. And I appreciate your kindness and your generosity and giving me space for this, but it's not something I choose. When I'm in Satsang with you now I pray my heart to make the best of this time with you and whatever it is that I can do to stay centered when I listen to my brothers and sisters and when I listen to your guidance and whatever is to come up and to see what triggers in my own being that needs to be cleaned up. That's the best I know. Please just correct me and just chop me and don't spare anything. Don't be kind.

I hear you. Thank you. Thank you so much. Thank you very much. Bless you. And I just want to add that Anna was in Satsang with me when I spoke first to you and she was so happy. I heard her and I blessed her while you were speaking. Bless you. God bless you. All the grace be upon you for your sharing and for your work and for your family life and for everything. Thank you.

Okay, let's go to Clarissa.

Can you hear me?

Uh, just about, my dear. Just about. Okay, we'll try like this.

Yeah. Can you hear me?

Yes.

Thank you, that that I can come. It's very difficult for me to come. It's like there is a lot of resistance and there are such overwhelming and distracting feelings.

How much of the space of your being does the resistance take up? Because I hear this report a few times today.

There is a lot of resistance.

So what is a lot? How much of your consciousness? How much of your being has the resistance taken up?

From from the being there is no no resistance. It's just that I always follow the mind who is so strong.

Yes. So just don't do that. It's like that there is always this this dark cloud about over my my left eye and then it it it's sometimes I can watch it but mostly I'm identifying with this.

There is always this dark cloud about over my my left eye. It's always always here when I'm in in meditation and I can can also feel it in my heart and then sometimes I'm able to to watch it and there is a little space but mostly I'm identifying with this. It's it's a pressure and you once said to me this big boss theory and I should watch this big boss theory.

It's long time ago that you you said about this.

What theory? Can't make out what is it? What is the theory? We can't hear you so well. The big boss or big brother.

Big brother.

Big brother. Uhhuh. The theory. Mhm. Big brother theory. Sorry, I don't recall. My memory has been very bad since I was unwell last year. So I it this must have been before that.

This pressure if it is where does it come from? Is it from outside or is it me and I should watch this?

I see. I see. And you feel like this pressure is the same thing as the dark cloud you're saying above your left eye.

Yes, I think that there is a lot of pressure.

I see. And you are clear in your heart that it is not a physical thing. It is some energetic oppression. Is it like that?

It it is energetic because I I was um by a lot of doctors and then I I I more than once and so I know that everything is okay but I always feel feel this.

That's good. So this dark cloud, who witnesses that? There there is an I feeling. The I feeling witnesses. Is it an assumption that I think that the eye feeling is watching. I feeling though. And who witnesses the eye feeling? If there is a feeling even of the eye, then who witnesses that feeling? How do you receive the information about this eye feeling?

I just feel my stomach contracting.

Yes. But what who is the witness of all of these sensations?

This I don't know because I I can see that whenever I'm searching and I can see when I I thought I found someone I can see them this can't this can't be this.

Yes my that's good that's good so let's look at which is the eye doesn't know.

That's just I can't can't see.

All right, let's make it even simpler. So, just open your eyes and see the you see your screen. Mhm. There's a perception of a hand. So who is aware of this perception? All right. You are aware. What does this eye look like? Does it have any attribute?

There is a tendency to to go to this form, but I know it's not this.

Yes. So, so then tell me more about this eye than any form. The eye that is aware of this perception called sight. Who is that one? Where is that one? How do you know about it?

It's intuition. Intuition.

Intuitively, that's very clear. So, intuitively, you know about this eye. Now, intuitively, what has happened to this eye throughout your life? Has anything happened to this eye?

Mostly I don't recognize it.

But intuitively right now, what is your sense? Can anything affect this eye? Can anything hurt this eye?

No.

Cannot be heard. So the cloud which is perceived is also a perception. Can any perception affect this eye? No. So then who is the one that is affected by it? A thought is just just an energy construct carrying a message. Can a thought be affected by anything?

No.

Cannot be affected. Then which is the eye which is actually affected.

It's the made-up entity, the made-up belief.

So it is not the truth. And if the body is not afflicted by it because you've checked with the doctors, it is just something that is showing up in your imagination in your mind, whatever Maya may be showing up. But it seems so strong energetically.

It's really strong. Strong energetically.

Strong means that the one who is affected by it is hurt by it in some way or affected in some way. That is how we can say strong or weak. Isn't it? Who is it strong for? Just an idea of it being strong. So you remain in that holy place where intuitively you see that this eye is untouched by any perception. You abide in that place. You see because you did not go to your mind for the answer. You did not go to your senses for the answer. The answer you said is intuitive which we call the heart. So you abide in your heart.

I really try and I try to sit.

Yes. And whenever you fail, you don't worry. You don't do any postmortem. You just return to your heart.

Thank you very much.

You're welcome. We can speak more next time when you come. All right. I feel like I need to now stop.