You Can Wobble for a Long, Long Time - 7th November 2017

But usually when this motion comes and I think 'I can get myself out of this problem,' that is how you prolong it. And it is this 'what's in it for me' attitude. Or if the attitude of surrender was created, this wobbly mess... it must be wobbling. But if the 'I' comes in—'I can'—then that is a way of prolonging it. The mind itself takes it on and says, 'So I didn't do the surrender or the inquiry.' You find that I am not wobbly; it's just a wobbly mess which has happened before. I don't have to do anything about it. Then you see that you cannot really prolong it because, like with everything else, phenomena, it is based on whether we are believing an interpretation of it which can then take your positions. It is very subtle.

So that is, in fact, to take all outward manifestation of this inner wobbliness. The color of the cloud is grey or white, I am unaffected. Ultimately, it only boils down to the will of consciousness. If it wants to play as the wobbly one, it plays as the wobbly one. So there is no difference between when we say 'Grace of the Master' and the 'play of consciousness' actually, because that is basically the Guru's will. What is, is what is. So it wants to play as a limited entity fighting this wobblyness, personality... it plays there.

But the funny thing is that in the play, upon hearing this, usually some peace can come. That is also part of the design of the play. The Guru's Grace, or the seemingly undeserved blessing that we get in the presence of the Master, is also part of the play. It makes it a different quality or different beauty. So, play nevertheless, but the play which is unaccompanied by the idea that this is a personal play. And it is to be seen that this is the play of consciousness. Being is playing with light and sound; Being is playing with all these gunas and qualities; Being is playing with all of this field. So, waking and dreaming and sleep... then a new experience would be unaccompanied by this constant 'what's in it for me, what's in it for me' motion.

I was playing it as if I'm a person, and that was also part of God. Now I'm playing it without the personal baggage, without this heavy weight, there's a lightness to it. And as long as consciousness wants for that play to continue, it continues. When it wants to go to sleep, it goes to sleep.