When Your Gear Is in Neutral You Have No Trouble - 6th December 2017

When your gear is in neutral, you know no trouble. Just keep your gear on neutral. It is the automatic, some neutral gear. So remain in neutral. Neutral means positionless, motionless. I have been saying the last two days, and I've been saying also, that in this neutrality, what happened? Did your sight stop? Did your hearing stop? The faculties stopped functioning? Nothing stopped functioning. Heart is still beating, body sensations are still there, the world is still around. All that needs to happen is still happening. So getting into a gear is the false sense of control. It's like you have your plane—you're pretending to play PlayStation or something—but your joystick is not connected at all, and yet you're feeling you can do every little thing.

Once it happened like this: my son plays this football game called FIFA. He plays it very well. And once I had the other controller, and I'm like, 'Okay, we are playing.' And it was going well. I was looking at the screen and thought, 'How come I'm playing well today?' After a while, he realized, 'Father, it can't be you.' And we realized he was playing against the computer and my controller was actually not connected at all. This whole while, I was feeling like I'm playing. So it could have happened that way that day because it was going well, so this idea was coming, 'Oh, I'm playing well.' But suppose the computer was playing badly? It would be like, 'Oh, I'm playing terrible.' Both options are possible, but the 'I' who was controlling it was not there. In reality, this gear, this joystick, is not connected to anything at all. Our idea of personally doing something has no impact on our phenomenal existence. What is happening is happening.

It is we who are dropping just this false sense of control that you have never had. And you know that I like to report from direct experience. So from direct experience right now, I am telling you that there is no one 'Ananta' sitting here speaking these words. There is no objective entity who is the creator of these sounds. These words are just appearing in the light of presence. You can't even say 'my presence' because it is one presence. That's why the other day I was saying that the perceiving of them is this being. There is no two; it is one appearance. So the speaking is happening, but I remember there was a time that there was a sense here that the words that were coming here were being spoken by some 'me,' some entity. But this is just not true. The non-existent one cannot move a finger. Yeah, the mind might come and say 'yes, but...' I cannot show you. Whether it happens or not happen is up to the will of consciousness alone.

The mind does not know how to do any of this. Just like the words of the many in the world, those who are not in Satsang also feel like they're creating their thoughts internally. So they're trying to think positive, which is useful at some level, but now we're seeing that even this concept to think a certain way is not really here. Thoughts are just coming in. Just like these words are being heard in a different qualitative way, you are perceiving your thoughts. Both are just appearances in your consciousness, in your being. When you are, then all of this is. When you are not there, no appearances. Even to presume that it is... like you might have an idea the world exists when I am not. That can only happen when you are awake. Even that presumption cannot happen in your sleep. What exists independent from your existence? That must be there. If there is something like that, it must be there when you are not. But you are finding that if my attention is not on something, then I cannot truly say that it exists. I can only presume.

So we are getting out of this presumption business. You're not presuming anything because you have presumed 'I am,' and this presumed 'I' is never you. So when Guruji says, 'Who are you without your stories?' it means the same: who are you without these presumptions about yourself? In neutrality, no presumption. In no presumption, or in neutrality, reality is apparent. It is only a notion that there is something missing. How can something be missing for the one without a boundary? The idea that I stop at the body is a presumption. It is not natural. We have presumed that we live in this three-dimensional or four-dimensional existence, but I am taking you out from there. That which we call 'going within'—when we say 'I'm going within, I'm checking on the source, I'm staying with the I Am'—which dimension is that? Is there an 'I Am' sitting within the body? If you call a doctor and say, 'Okay, I'm going to open the heart with a surgeon's scalpel or something,' will we find an 'I Am' sitting here? It is not in this dimension.