What You Already Are - 8th January 2018

If I have a gift for you, it is this one: what you already are right now in this moment is greater than any notion you can pick up about yourself. Even the notion of the greatest enlightened sage cannot match your reality right now. How many are with me on this one? This existence, this presence, is not personal. Whose presence is it? Your existence is whose existence? Who's in doubt about their own existence? Can you stop being? Stop being. Don't exist. Who is able to do it? Why is it an absurd notion? Because you know who you are. You exist now. This existence is whose existence? This existence, bodily existence? Mister bodily existence? The body has changed completely. The body that was born is not this body now, but your existence has continued, you see. No body-mind organism... or what to say about the mind? One moment it is there, next moment it is not. It comes and goes. But does your existence also come and go with that?

So when Bhagwan said 'Who am I?', he is asking the same question: whose existence is it? Now, one set of answers is coming to you from the mind saying, 'My name is this, I was born here.' Is there a deeper answer from your intuitive insight? What are you existing as?

The answers that was quick: existence itself, the witnessing presence.

Now, whether you see that you are existence itself or the witnessing of even this existence or presence, can you tell me your shape or size? Can you tell me when you were born? What is true about you? What's beyond the surface of emotion, sensation, thoughts? All these are there and they are fine, let them be. What else is there? If you expect something timeless from that which is time-full, would you be wise? If you expect timeless happiness from something that comes and goes, what is the result of that? Suffering.

You know that this body is coming and going. All bodies that appear to us are coming and going. When we call something 'mind', what is that but an invitation to suffering? This 'me' itself is empty of reality. And what does this mind contain? My life, my relationships, my body, my money, my security. How long are all these things going to last? Now you might think that this means that I must get rid of all my attachments one by one. I'm not saying that. I am saying check right now: you are free of them. The mind of course will come and say, 'No, no, no, but, but, but, if, if, if, and, and, and, then, then...' Rest. And if you just let it come and go, what are you finding about yourself? Are you free or not?