What's the point? Parvati's Report - Part 2 (After)- 25 May 2015

If you want, I can give you the other 'after' because we had the 'before' in the previous Satsang.

Yes, my dear, of course. We'd love to hear that. So you should watch the two videos; that's 'before' and this is 'after'.

I am... I don't know who you're speaking to in the room, but last night in Satsang, Mooji said—and this is a direct quote because it landed so deep with me—somebody said to him, 'Mooji, there's nothing I can do.' And he said, 'There's nothing that you can do to be yourself, but there is something you have to notice to stop being who you are not.' And that, if there is anything that you have to do, is all you have to do: you have to just constantly notice what you are not. So there's not really a doing to become what you are because you are already that, you know? So it like stayed in my brain, and I don't even remember something I did a minute ago, so it must have stayed in my brain for whoever you're talking to.

And my report is a few things about that particular Satsang. One of the main observations I have... and if anyone is watching this for the first time, it's a Satsang we had a few days ago and it's called 'What's the Point?' It's called 'What's the Point?' because that is what was going on in my mind the whole time and I kept saying it: 'What's the point? What's the point?' And a few things: the first thing is it was like I had absolutely no control over the tantrum that was being thrown. I really... you know, I must have got like a hundred messages saying thank you, and I really in some weird way believed that it was meant to happen, kind of thing, you know? Because it's very unusual for that level of mind stuff to come.

It was the greatest blessing. First of all, the greatest blessing was that I could bring it to you. I love you so much for that and I appreciate you so much for that, because if I had gone through that alone, I'm not sure that I would have come out the other side with so much peace and love like I did, you know? And it was just because you keep like just stay on point with me, you know, which you don't think people do on their own. So I just first want to say thank you for that. And it was like a mind attack just before a retreat, because I think I could feel something was coming, you know? And I was having a lot of resistance and a lot of like... I was believing, I was really believing the negative thinking in my mind about the teaching.