What is the Relationship of Awareness to Dynamic Consciousness? - 25th July 2016

And you said very rightly that you can hear all these words, all this understanding can be there, the learning can be there, but ultimately it is not this learning which helps you. So as you stay like you have been doing very well, keep coming to satsang and surrender everything at the Master's feet, then these insights become clearer and clearer. And then we go beyond just the learning and understanding mentally of concepts, and then it is seen that this is really an insight. It is 'I', 'I am', you see. So 'I' is the unchanging, then 'I am', and then other states. Why not 'I am'? So when I say, for example, that waking, sleep, and dream are coming and going within this 'I', which means that this 'I' which is the basis for 'am' or 'not am' plays as 'I am'. And when it plays as 'I am', then there is waking and dream, and it is when the dissolution of this 'I am' happens that is sleep, you see.

So also in terms of what Maharaj said, again, he is speaking, he has spoken various things. All of us have spoken various things. But what can seem confusing, or our confusion sometimes, is the speaking personally. 'Oh, I like to eat pasta for lunch,' you see. So obviously it cannot be awareness which is saying 'I like to eat pasta for lunch.' It is that 'am-ness', this being, is playing with all the conditioning which has a preference for a particular type of lunch. Then we can say that 'I am that I am'. I am the space in which all the phenomena is functioning, working. All of this is moving through me in the space of being, you see. So from this perspective we can say that I just am, and this human clay is allowed to play in itself because there is no individual entity or doer of that. This is what Maharaj was pointing to.

And from the perspective of awareness, you... so now when you say that 'I can just be awareness and therefore be unconcerned with the world,' it is... we are talking about something which is separated by levels, you see, in the plane. Because that which is participating in the world is part of the appearance, part of the realm of being, this phenomenal play, you see. So awareness cannot open or close its eyes. It is the appearance of this body of Anil which is opening or closing the eyes. It is the appearance of this body-mind of Anil which people will call words or say useless or very useful or great or whatever, but awareness is not participating in that way, except that it is this being itself which is everything, you see.

So when we speak of multiple levels in the same breath, then it can seem like confusion. So 'what do I do?' is not a question that awareness is asking. It is not a question that consciousness is asking. It is a question that consciousness playing as Anil, who has come to all of this understanding, is saying, 'Now what do I do with all of this knowledge and my day-to-day life? How do I integrate these two things?' You see? Better to drop this. Drop the 'Anil' and stay as you have been staying, and then you find that everything is functioning. The body-mind of Anil is functioning along with the rest of the world, just like the leaves are falling from the branches and flying in the wind. Who is controlling them? Nobody, you can say in this realm. But actually all of this is a projection in the light of consciousness alone. So what will happen through Anil's life, whether the eyes will be open, whether they will be closed, is not something that awareness is pondering, you see. All the movements that will happen from here will just be another play of the light of consciousness itself.

Yes, yes, captured. I captured just like a particular aspect. So I have not moved out of the house for the last 25 days, not even out of the apartment. So sometimes I don't know why I'm just not able to go. I'm just not able to go out. I mean, even there for a walk, I'm not able to go out. You know, I am living on the 14th floor, so I don't know why I am not able to go. I'm just not able to go. And all that happened was maximum for six months I did not go out of my house. Yes, my body used to shake. There was so much fear. Even the, you know, bang of the door will keep my body trembling for 15 minutes. Those were kind of the sensitivities, I know. So like this, I mean, what I'm supposed to do now? Just accept it as the way the life is coming or overcome, you know, this... overcome this, you know, the sickness of the mind and to take the plunge or the... I mean, it is only in the mind. It is all... it is only a mind phenomena. So what to do?

What I'm saying is that my feeling is that both the surrender and the anxiety will not last, you see. Either the surrender will last or the anxiety will last. My feeling is that the surrender will last. So it will then just surrender to the grace of Satguru Mooji Ji and through this body, and just don't make a judgment or a prediction or a conclusion about it, you see. If it is the true surrender, then all that is auspicious will happen then. So the dropping of this doership of what to do next is the surrender itself. So don't bring yourself to a particular perspective. Just don't know what the next day will be like and allow my Master's grace to flow through you and everything will just be exactly as it is meant to be.

Thank you, Father. Thank you so much.

I feel it's been a very beautiful satsang. And if you can drill down on the inquiry like we did today: I am aware. Who is this 'I' that is aware? How is it distinct from awareness itself? And also I feel that my response to all the questions that came today also, the last one, I feel is very useful because many times there can be these things like confusion of levels, you see. So sometimes we are talking about a different aspect and the mind says, 'But you are awareness,' you see. Whenever it comes to something personal, then you want to look at that. The mind says, 'But you are awareness, why are you bothered about this?' And then we want to look at awareness and just come to the recognition of who we really are, then the mind brings all personal things. So when we are continuing with satsang, we'll find that here we are able to recognize this trick of the mind and be able to distinguish between where the question or the pointing is coming from, from this level...