We Cannot Deny that Awareness is Here - 5th Oct. 2015

Often some also say that the problem is that it is too simple. Yeah, why do we say this? Actually, what we're speaking about is the simplest thing. Who is aware right now? We cannot deny that awareness is here. Without awareness, in order to be, you would not be able to even say that there is nothing. We cannot see. We are aware of even noting that there is nothing; even that we have to be aware of. Who's aware that there is nothing or there is something? And because we have seen that all this changes—the world is constantly changing—we know that this is seen, this is always the case. Therefore, we work really hard to deliver ourselves. The hard work is not in the true finding; it is to keep the delusion alive.

The only switch, if at all a switch is needed, is the switch from wanting to mentally understand. 'I finally figured it out' is what we want. From that, to just simply seeing right now: I am aware. Who is this I? Does it have size, shape, any form? And when we say 'seeing,' because we use terms which are phenomenal, it can be confused to say, 'But I don't see anything. He keeps saying seeing, I don't see anything.' That's why we keep switching between seeing and being aware. None of these labels can actually do it justice. Is somebody else aware? You know what I mean? Is it an indirect report that we are getting about all that we are aware of, or is it clearly seen that I am aware directly? Who is this I? Is it separate from awareness itself?

So instead of saying, 'See that you are this awareness,' now I am going to start saying the reverse. You leave it aside. This light, can you stop being? Just leave awareness aside. Don't be aware. Separate from it. Separate from it. You be here, let awareness be there. Okay? Create just one millimeter of distance between you and awareness. Keep it aside. As little distance. Then you say, 'But my attention goes here and there.' Okay, let attention go far. Let it go into imagination, let it go into physical phenomena if you like. And then, do you have distance between yourself and awareness?

Of course, we don't usually say this to everyone because for those who are new to Satsang, it is important to even hear this instruction: just stay as the awareness. It's okay. At some point, because our habit is to just give so much belief to the content of what is appearing that it seems that I am the content, there comes a point where all of you must be invited now to check that: Is this effortful to be awareness, or is it what you are? Not even effortless; no concept of effort is what you are.

The funniest thing is that in this upside-down realm, very rarely one reports now having trouble being whatever my name is. You never say, 'I'm having trouble being my name,' which you can never be, actually. And in Satsang, we report that 'I'm having trouble just being the awareness,' or staying as the awareness, which you can never leave. Can never leave. Right now, I am aware. Who is this I? And if you were to stay here now, just in this looking at who is aware, and don't pick up any understanding, any concept, any history, any expectation, then no suffering, no trouble of any sort. Just watch what happens after this.