Turn it Over to the Master - 21th November 2016

Anger can come, but we attach to it. You know what this anger wants to do one day? Well, okay, but yes, so much yes. My house, yes. And you know, one day when I just started sharing Satsang, Guruji was there—you know, Rishi—and Guruji was there and he was sharing with someone, making this quote where he said that one day you will either come to the truth of what is being shared or you will turn against me with great viciousness, you see? He was sharing like that. And just sharing, it just started from here and it just felt like, "Oh, all my children, they will never become vicious towards me." And then it started happening and I realized that it's true. Why does it happen? Because something wants to take this on independently at something, and then it will find every single reason to be upset, to be angry, to find resentment and grievances against that which we call the Master. And it can feel like, "No, no, I can do this by myself."

So this turning to viciousness, I realized that happens very often actually. And I still get surprised when it happens, actually. I should stop being surprised because there's nothing that Ananta has really done which has been vindictive or something where I have been, you know, in any way unfair to, as far as I can see, to anyone in the Satsang. Like I said, he's a very generally nice guy. So if you were to look, just look objectively, I don't see why he has to bear the brunt of all of this anger and things. But I know that this is the nature of the mind which will come and say, "But he's like this, but he's like this. He says to do this."

Like many times it'll be like, someone has been saying, "But you tell me not to make money." But where have I said not to make money? No, no, I know, I know, I'm just saying. Though many times some of you will come to me with some request to give some advice—"Should I do this or should I do that?"—and some advice which feels right will come from here. But I've never said I'm some expert on how to run your life phenomenally. I'm only pointing to your non-phenomenal truth and existence. And yet I trust the intuitive presence which speaks from here to say, "Okay, maybe to do this will be better, to do that will be better." But I find usually the mind makes use of this kind of thing and says, "Okay, he told me to do that, he told me..." It's not like that at all.

The fear of letting go of everything.

Yes, the mind is like this, you see. The mind will not say—the mind will not say that all this noise has been happening for months and things like that. Look at how nice he is, he never told me any time to go, you see? For so many months. Mind will say, "See, now even he is rejecting me, he told me to leave." And what did I say just that day? It was just feeling like, "Oh, it's just like it's getting in the way of the words because the volume was not increasing from here," and it just felt like for a while, while this is happening, "Can you step out for a bit?" The mind can use this, you see? That's why I say I can say "I love you" a million times, but if in anger one time I say, "Okay, I really hate you," what will the mind remember? "Oh, he really must hate me." It will not say the million times of "I love you." Yes, yes. And why sharing all this? None of it is memories, Father.

Father, that's what we call projection, you see. That is projection. We take other different situations and we make...

Yes, yeah, yes. So I want to make an important point to all of you, which is that none of this is meant to make you feel guilty. Yes. Just go on a one-week fast from this "I"—the "I" that disappoints everyone, the "I" that is feeling this, the "I" that is feeling that. You leave that "I." Yes. But you witness the tension. The body is not you. The tension and sensation which are experienced in the body is not you. It can pull all your attention, you see? It can pull all your attention in that way; it can feel like it is you. But even then, that which witnesses it is not being choked in any way. This is what your own intuitive voice is saying. It is not an outside external person in a fight with your mind. It is your own intuitive presence which is you.

Look beyond that. Look beyond what is there. What is the space in which all of this is happening? Is that space also being choked? Then if that space is not being choked, then how is the witness of that space being choked? Yes. But now you trust one voice, which is the voice which is coming in Satsang from here. Let every other voice say whatever it wants. You say, "You take it up with Ananta." If the voice is saying, "You will never be free of me," okay, not my problem. It is my Master's problem. That is surrender. Whatever your mind is saying, whatever the energy is saying, whatever sensations are doing, let it all be my problem. I'm happy to take it. If you make it my problem, then it becomes a problem for me. If you let all your problems be my problems, then I'm happy. If you make them your problems, then that is a problem for me. All your garbage to me. You give the misery to me, all the garbage to me, then you will give only the good things to everyone. But when you say, "Okay, I will keep my garbage and I will give him only the good things," then you're giving everyone this garbage. You give all of it to me, then everyone will find only good things from you.