To Know What You Really Want - 29th November 2016

Father, really I don't know what I really want or value the most.

Yes, it's an important question, isn't it? Because I was telling someone else the other day also that we make a journey out of this simplicity if we seem to oscillate between the things that we want. Because if every day the wall that we want to climb itself changes, or the well that we want to dig itself changes, we realize, 'I'm not getting anywhere.' I climb one step over here, then I come back and climb a different wall one step. Or I start digging one feet here and then the next day I'm digging somewhere else. It seems to prolong if you have first not truly contemplated this question.

That's why Guruji sometimes just asks someone, he says, 'If you had a genie and the genie gave you one wish, what is it that you would really want?' And I know that it's not always that there's great clarity about this, but it's good to at least ask yourself this question. This is what Maharaj meant by integrity. And this world is for us to enjoy, to enjoy the game. We can play with these desires and aversions and all of this. It is when this urge to play starts to settle down, then we come to the point of dropping.

Oh, no reason to feel guilty, anything at all. Just contemplate: if I could have one wish, if God appeared in front of me now and said, 'What is your wish, my child?' what would you really ask for? There is nothing wrong in playing life in that way. There is no real pushing from here that you must only want the Atma here. So, if you have said that 'This is what I really want and I'm willing to let the rest of the world burn if it has to,' then the words of Satsang can point you directly to that. That's a very good contemplation, but just there is no reason to pick up any sort of unworthiness or guilt or anything about it. It is good to have some clarity and integrity about what we want.