This is Awareness Being Aware of Itself (Silent Retreat) - 17th Oct. 2015

Are you open to the possibility that: Right Now You Are Free? And the trouble is that our knowledge, our intellect gets in the way, and it says, ‘But that’s a rare thing, to be free.' 'How can all of us sitting in this room be free?’ Many have said, ‘It’s one in a million or one in a billion’. Are you going to continue to buy these stories? Are you willing to look directly at yourself…, to see that only You are Here? Only You have always been Here, and this ‘I’ has always been what has been looked for? That is just This. That’s why yesterday we did this exercise of exposing which thought is still getting belief; and throwing it into the fire of Satsang. And we heard mostly everything, isn’t it? Most of the objections of the mind came up. And we saw it, ‘it is the same guy’, the same one that is giving us the same stories.

Don’t go with the thought that says, ‘I still don’t see it’. Because the Seeing is Here. And if you saw it, then that would not be it; because it cannot be seen phenomenally. You are not a thing; you are not an object which will be found in the same way that we are used to finding things. But the pointing ‘Who am I?’ takes care of the false…, because when we check ‘Who am I?’ you see that there is no ego, there is no separation, there is no person. Almost immediately upon asking the question, you can see this: ‘I don’t find the one that I have been referring to myself as, all this while.' ‘Then, who am I?' 'I have the sense that I exist, that I Am.' 'This I cannot deny.' 'And I am aware of even this Presence, this sense.' We can very easily say these words: ‘I am aware’. What is this Awareness? What is this Knowingness, Seeingness? How is it separate from You?

And whether your mind likes it or not, you cannot become a ‘thing’. You will never be able to point to a thing there and say, ‘I found it. That is me.' And some of you, the mind is playing tricks with. It is giving you a visual, showing you some empty, dark space, ‘See, this is it; this is what you are.' Who Sees this? Or some bright light, or some energetic beautiful aura. Who Sees this? Don’t go with any imagination, any idea; just stay and see what is the Seeing itself. Who is Seeing? And how long will you believe this objection from the mind saying, ‘This…, I don’t get this. This is too abstract for me… ‘ ‘Until Being, it is fine.' 'But when it comes to Awareness, then I lose it.' Don’t buy this. Because you are saying, ‘I am aware’. How can you then after saying, ‘I am aware’…, say, ‘I don’t know what Awareness is?’

If I ask any of you, ‘Are you aware now?’ you`ll say, ‘Yes, I am aware’. And then very quickly say, ‘I am aware OF…’ Quickly, we will go to the ‘OF’, the content. Of what? Of this, of that. But already you are saying, ‘I am aware OF it’. Aware! That means you know you are aware. This is the awareness that we are talking about. I am aware that I am aware. I know that I am aware. But here, just here, the mind pulls all its tricks and says, ‘Now this is becoming too difficult. I’m not getting it’. … ‘Yes, you are not getting this. You keep quiet’. We’re not interested in the mind getting this. Allow me to bypass this one. What I’m saying is very simple. You say, ‘I am aware’. By just this: ‘I am aware.’ which means ‘I know that I am aware’, which is the same as ‘I am aware that I am aware’. This is it. This is Awareness being aware of Itself. No fireworks need to happen, no experience needs to happen. Even you cannot report that something happened because Awareness is not experienced phenomenally. It is enough that you say: 'I Am Aware.' This ‘I’ that is aware is Awareness Itself.