The Truth Is the Truest Representation of You - 28th November 2017

Time is only so that it doesn't taste every color all at one go, if you want to savor every bite. Space is only so that everything doesn't continue to appear as one, which is its actual reality. But it wants to savor itself in all its flavor; that's why time and space exist. In reality, you are beyond this. You are not contained in any space. And all of these are not fancy things; they are not esoteric. And the best news is, as you are empty of notions, this truth is complete. Yet apparently the mind will protest and say, 'It is not apparent to me.' Actually, it is not apparent to the mind, and it will really never be to the mind. All of this will only seem like a concept. But what is your insight about yourself? No reporters needed. In your heart, you know that this body boundary is not my reality.

Where are you now? Do you have a location? Do you have a shape? The sensations that you are experiencing—do they contain you or do you contain them? What perceives all things? You. And what is aware of this perceiving? You. And you remain without your conclusions. Remain without your interpretations. You have deluded yourself to believe that they are helpful to you. They are completely meaningless.

You will not find yourself in any corner of the world. If you go ten thousand miles in every direction looking for the Self, you will not find it. You will not find it in any corner of the body. All your chakras might be open, all this energy might be moving—that is not the Self. You will not find it in any emotional feeling. Joy can drop in, but you will not find it in any well-being state because all these are changing. The Self is the unchanging. All these states that we can see—the dream state, sleep state, waking state—none of these things can continue. But you have believed yourself to be an object in this waking state. How could that be? Because you were wired to this. Even if there is a world in time, without you, there is no time. You are this abstract. In none of these things can you be contained. You don't even have to transcend them; just transcend your ideas of them.

You don't even have to transcend the ideas of them; just transcend the idea of yourself. Just this one right here. The idea of 'I' is not 'I'. The idea of 'I' and you transcend this truth of the real 'I'. It's completely abstract. Being needed all this study, which is the withdrawal symptoms of the idea. It's a funny story, like the fish swimming constantly in water but dreaming that it is thirsting for water.

This beautiful level amusement park is here for your joy, and yet you got so caught up in the ride. Thank you for your faithfulness. It's the fact that nothing here can hurt you. It's here for the Disneyland. And through the ages, you have heard so many reassurances that your reality is that which cannot be cut, it cannot be burned, it cannot be scratched. And nobody has said that you will become that immortal one. Everyone has said that you are. So just transcend this idea of 'my'. Let's be wobbly for a bit. At last, it's like we've had these weightless crutches. You are absolutely fine, but we had these crutches because we believed we needed them. And when we throw away these mental crutches, for a while it can play as if it is a bit wobbly. 'Without my crutch, what am I doing? I'm going to fall.' But you are like a bird with perfectly functioning wings believing that you need crutches to walk, and actually you can fly. You can fly. So the wobbliness is your takeoff. You might really like it as a story told by the story of 'I'. Don't let the concept rest behind any phenomenal thing. Don't let the concept of 'I' rest behind relationships. Don't let it rest behind money. Don't let it rest behind health of the body. And don't let it rest behind the seeker identity. You want to know these along with you to present one of these on annuities is where the question is. What does 'I' represent? All confusion is only about this. All confusion, no matter what it might seem like, is about 'I'. Your regret or guilt or pride—everything that you can call suffering is just a confusion about 'I'. If you are all there is—in fact, beyond even all there is is also you—then what is your suffering? What's your trouble?

Yes, you have to invent the individual. So let's see now. Who now wants to come and let's see if a friend now has to invent the individual? And you caught me right. I know that's like work to me. You know what I'm going to talk about. I'm so grateful, Father, because I don't want to say... because I got an opportunity to do seva there. There was a desire to do seva, like to be fast typing for a long time, and I got it. And I must say it was a wonderful opportunity for me because I happen to be coming to satsang a long time now. And in the last... it took a long time actually to finish one big one, and therefore the powerful one actually. In the end, it was like very stressful to finish it all because I was in a hurry to finish off quickly. But then even going back to that stressful condition, I tried doing here the words what was coming out there. It was hitting like an explosion, all the mountains and also something like that it was happening. And there was a profound love feeling. 'I' kept from solid to liquid, liquid to a state, gaseous state like that. So it was going something like back there.

I started to feel that this deep sleep state is okay, I can understand that part, but then that I think that it was here. But this waking state, I always felt it was a little bit real or something like that. The conversation you are having, it was making with these moves that reality... even now I can feel like it's very fluid, you know, that I cannot say that there is some tangible thing to this state. And it's going deeper and deeper. I forgot that I was a person. I am a person. To me, this whole thing is... my family, me, everything is dissolving totally. And it's not that it makes any difference or any sense to say this for you also. I hope I'm making sense to you, Father, because I have been talking to myself now and I don't need that.

How do I say this? It doesn't feel like the human being living this life, something like that. It doesn't feel like that because you have your body lost, just you lost it. It's that it's taken out the whole... I don't know what it is taken out, but it has brought something else which I'm not able to explain to you. All I can say is like... I don't want to work to even say that. Maximum I can say it's like a dream or something. That's the thing coming up to me to say to you. But I do know that if it is you're not here, but this is what is happening. And that outside is still so... it is happening, so much happening and performance, it's true. But that's not affecting me anyway. I want to say I'm so happy even despite stresses at home, it's okay. And even today or yesterday I was doing something and then also I think I had a little bit of still something left, and that also he said even the body is nothing. So everything is dissolved or it's dissolving, I don't know. But there is something which is... you know me, Father, I don't really know how to tell you. I hope I'm making sense.

Surely. What I'm trying to say is this is a very nice report, actually. As far as seva is concerned here, because we don't have an ashram, we don't have any donation, nothing, no financial work needs to be done, no actual physical work—not much, some cleanup things happen here—so here I've always felt that transcript seva is the best. And many who have done this transcript seva, they feel like, 'Before we did this, we never heard what you are saying in satsang.' It felt like they were hearing, but when they wrote the transcript, they said, 'Oh, this is what you said.' I feel like it is very good because it immerses you so much in the power of satsang, in the field of satsang. Most of you, actually, in terms of transcripts, you've experienced this. So this can happen very strongly. Satsang can...

The transcripts are always elicited. Seva is the best, and many who have done this transcript seva feel like, 'Before we did this, we never heard what you are saying in substance.' It felt like they were hearing, but when they wrote the transcript, they said, 'Oh, this is what you say.' I feel like it is very good because it immerses you so much in the power of satsang, in the field of satsang. Most of you, actually, in terms of transcripts, you've experienced this. So this can happen; very strong satsang can happen when we're in the transcript seva.

You see, that is something. It is so strong that you saw that you are not contained in the waking state, or you're not contained in any state. The body doesn't contain you. So this hits home as your reality at some point. This is very good because many of us, especially in India, heard these concepts for a long time—that you are not this body, you are Atma—so it has become this conceptual thing. But as you immerse yourself in the satsang field, you will see this as your reality. You will see that this body is just an appearance on your own screen. And this idea that 'I was speaking the words, I was doing the actions,' all that starts to fade away, and this sense of doership gets replaced with the sense of wonder. It's like the wonder of a child when you really know a story or something. So this is the wonder that comes. You don't know what this play is going to bring to play because you see that you cannot be hurt, you cannot be harmed.

So that which you call stress, you see, used to be so strong as long as we believe ourselves to be individual. When we believe ourselves to be an object, then an object can obviously be harmed by other objects. Once you see that you have no objective reality—all that is objective is just a play appearing in front of you—then all this is just a play. You see, grievances, anger, fear, all of these can come in full, but they don't have a landing. It's like they are trying to land on space, but they can't find a hold, nothing to hold on to. So like this, as you see yourselves beyond limitations, we don't even have to make any conclusion, any judgment, nothing to try to answer 'What is happening to me?' Don't try to answer this question because if you make a conclusion, then again it will become a position. Remain positionless, empty of any reference point about yourself.

Because you will not become the free one. The 'free person' can only be another position that you will take, and that can only come if you make a conclusion about yourself. So if you don't allow your mind to sell you any story about what is happening to you, and whether something is real or not real, and whether you are free or not free, whether you got it or didn't get it—none of this is applicable. Actually, this is the force of the words of my Master, who is using this body also as an instrument. As you transcribe, his words are finding that the mind's landing strip is being chopped away. There's nothing that can represent you, and only the truth is your truest representation. As nothing phenomenal becomes a container for you, you will find that you are beyond all concepts, beyond all that is perceived. Did you hear this? Thank you.

If I tell you, 'Look beyond all perception,' the mind will not know which way to look. Something more innocent has to follow this instruction: look beyond all that can be perceived. You are actually that which is beyond the dance of Shiva, that Self that is before 'I am.' May my Master's grace allow all of you to transcend the limited idea about yourself and come to this beautiful recognition of reality. Om Namah Shivaya. Thank you so much for being in the company of the Satguru.