The Point Is 'What About Now' - 8th August 2016

I mean, Father, when a tsunami of thoughts and emotions strike, whole attention is drawn to it. It is difficult to find the center. Please guide.

Yes, yes. You see, that is why we have satsang every day, Monday to Friday. Otherwise, we could just have one satsang, because mostly we repeat everything in that one satsang. If it was as simple as it being pointed out once and over, easy, then it'd be very simple. But it's not like that. That's why I've been saying that even after the recognition of the truth, it takes a while for this conditioning to become lighter and lighter. You see, mostly in these events when they happen, we start to look at them as opportunities to shed some of the conditioning instead of looking at them as events which add to new conditioning. So first, that attitude will start changing. You see, when something pokes us, then we contemplate into it, we inquire into it, rather than believing ideas about it. So as this changes, then over a period of whatever time was natural, over that period of time, this conditioning becomes lighter and lighter and lighter.

You see, for you, you have the best maha-mantra, which is the mantra of surrender at the feet of the Master. You see, so when these situations come, there are beautiful opportunities to surrender. Can even these be surrendered? You see, questions from the mind will come and question a surrender in those times. Listen. So then we see, yes, because as a person I am completely powerless, therefore only my Satguru can handle all of this event also. You see, so it is said that a surrender is tested. I don't like to use the word 'tested' so much because if I start saying 'tested,' then we start making report cards of ourselves very fast. So these events and opportunities will come for us to surrender and to inquire, and that deepening is very important.

That is why so much I've been warning today about prematurely making proclamations of freedom, prematurely giving belief to the spiritual ego. Because then what happens is that when these events come, then our identity has been still strongly attached to being a free person. Now that becomes more dichotomy, that knowing worldly we are feeling some belief in fear, belief in thoughts, and some suffering is coming, but the mind is also at the same time saying, 'But you are free now, you cannot be suffering, you cannot be.' You see, so that causes even more churning and more trouble. So the spiritual ego is the most burdensome place to be.

So in this way, when a tsunami of thoughts and outward events are appearing, then based on our temperament and based on what our Master has advised us, we can inquire into who is it that is suffering through this, or just say, 'It is my Father's problem.' And it doesn't happen hundred percent of the time, so don't create a report card of how well you've surrendered or how well you inquire. That is also hanging on to something which happened in the past. What happened, happened. The point is: what about now? And as we stabilize more and more, we come to satsang more and more, then you find that the attraction to these thoughts, the attraction to the tsunami of events as you call them, will not be so much. But what's very good is that we are not getting into some sort of an Advaita denial of how much things are affecting us or hurting us or how much fear we are feeling, because that can be a very constricted state. So as you are going, keep going and keep surrendering everything at the feet of my Master, and you find that all of this is getting lighter and lighter and lighter.