The Great Knowingness Cannot Be Known - 31st May 2016

Possibly the worst thing that can happen is that satsang could be shared and then the mind is interpreting everything, everything. And then what we remember from what was being shared, or what is assimilated from what was being shared, are these mental interpretations, you see. Our idea about what was being shared. And if you remove this interpreter, you see, then I feel like satsang is just so clear actually. Just so clear. Because what are we pointing to? Don't believe your next thought. Does it need any addition, subtraction, interpretation? Can you stop being now? Simple. Doesn't need any interpretation, not even a report card that this happened. Are you aware now? These are just the pointers which need no additional content to make it clearer or something.

The additional content that is shared in satsang actually is just to get rid of any ideas we might have picked up about these very simple pointings. And I ask you: Are you aware now? You know it is yes. I don't even care what your mouth is saying actually, because I know you know it is yes. It is yes. That's it. You had the darshan of yourself. The Self has had the darshan of the Self. And the mind wants to come and gatecrash into the party later and say, 'Nothing happened.' But nothing? What do I see? Is this freedom? Can I keep this? I must forever be like this. All this is just the mind wanting to gatecrash the party because it's feeling left out.

Are you aware now? You see, nothing to confirm this that you are aware. You did not see awareness as an object, and yet you know you are aware. You say, 'I am aware of something.' So it doesn't matter what the 'of' is, but what are you aware of? It seems like such a simple phrase, 'aware of', but what is this 'aware'? You cannot understand it. You will never be able to understand mentally what is this 'aware'. You say, 'I am aware of it. I'm aware of the world. I am aware of my presence also.' Some of you can say that. What are you? You are aware. The 'of' is not relevant because the 'of' is changing. But what are you? Are you an entity that is aware? Who is that entity that is aware of sleep, of waking, of dream? Bodies are changing, worlds are changing, happenings, events are changing. There is something and then there is nothing. All this is moving about. What is? Is there an entity that is aware of them?

Who are you in your deep sleep state? In sleep state, is it your experience that you are an entity that is sleeping? It is our experience that there is nothing, no? Is there? Who is it that knows the difference between sleep and waking, that is aware of? Therefore, when you check, 'Am I aware?' you say, 'Yes, I am aware.' This 'I' that is aware, is it separate from the awareness itself? No. There are no two. There is just I. No attributes, no color, not empty or full, no description, no label. What am I aware of then? Then the play of 'of' starts. Then the play of 'of' starts. I'm aware of my own existence. I exist. I am. But the 'I' changed? It became 'I exist', but the 'I' did not change. That for which there was even the distinction between existing and not existing, that 'I' did not change. Only the sense of existing seems to appear, and within this sense of existence, of being, this whole phenomenal existence seems to arise. There is nothing outside of this existence. Nothing phenomenal outside of this existence that you are in.

None of this so far has there been any opportunity for delusion, you see. The appearance of the world is still not the opportunity for delusion. That which we call the mind—there's no separation there, no two, no sense of me or mine and other and theirs—without the appearance of this energy that we call the mind. Just I am. Just I am. Everything can appear like to a baby, to a child before they are two, two and a half years old. Everything can appear. Pain can appear, external images can appear, fear can appear, but the sense of me and other does not exist. The sense of separation does not yet exist. And this is true right now. Right now there is no sense of me and another. Anything can appear. Images can come outside, seemingly outside, or images can come seemingly inside as imagination, emotion, sensation. Everything can appear. Is there some distinction? Unless you label it, unless you have a thought about it, unless you call the body 'body' and the space 'space', is there a distinction between the body and space? It's just part of one appearance, one existence, which is shining with the light of my presence, you see. When you are, it is. When this sense of existence, 'I exist, I am', is not there, nothing exists, or more accurately, no-thing exists.