Switch Lines to the Way of Your Heart, but You Have to Leave Your Baggage in the Old Train

It is an impossible thing in the human condition. Faith means that we must accept that which is completely unacceptable. Take that to be true which cannot be known through traditional means. That is faith. Otherwise, what is faith? It is not a half-hearted attempt to, "Yes, I am open to satsang, let's see what happens." It is not faith. It is that for this discovery, I am willing to go as far as it is needed. Whatever is asked of me, I am willing to surrender all my attachments, all my desires, all my expectations about where life should go, and most importantly, everything that I think I'm right about. Everything that I think I'm right about—let go of that. And then you are truly sent the invitation. That's all we've done then. Then we have truly sent the invitation.

Because I may ask you then whether your Self is apparent to you. I may ask you then whether your Self is apparent to you. But all I can do is invite. Whether you accept the reality of yourself as that one which you cannot perceive, whether you can accept the reality of that one which you cannot perceive but you know in your heart is your truth—that is up to faith. And faith only is the gift of Grace. So can you accept this?

You are that which is aware. You are that which is aware. Do not see yourself. You cannot think yourself. It is not even an experience that you are having that you can try and hold on to. Now the universes have collided between the knowable universe and the unknowable universe. It's collided. The instant you truly met the inquiry, you went beyond the realm of the knowing. That awareness which has no shape, no color, no size—it's not a thing, it's not a person—it's apparent to you. And yet it seemed like me sitting in this universe asked myself the question, "Am I aware?" and I got the insight of something which is not in this world.

Now it is only Grace, it is only your faith that you can replace your worldly identity with this reality. The universes collided when I sat in front of Guruji because he did not show me anything in this universe. He did not show me anything in this universe. He showed me my reality which is not to be found here. And because the mind could not make sense of it, the mind could either dissolve or try and fight back even more. In case with something which is beyond sensible, your mind can either shut up or fight back even more. So come, come from here. This is not good. In this case, it is pure Grace that the mind dissolved. Could I have controlled it sitting over there? "Oh, mind, please dissolve." No, purely the working of Grace. So my job is to introduce you to the truth which is not sensible and to give you the opportunity for your mind to dissolve.

Actually, every moment of our life is like that, but we have built up enough defenses in our mind for those. But what we introduced you to in satsang, in the form of an intuitive insight, or in the form of a koan, or in the form of an appearance or something which you cannot make sense of, but you have to conclude that it is true—just like it is true that you are witnessing all of this and yet you cannot see the witness, and still you call it "I." You cannot make sense of it and yet it is true, you see. So now what are you going to do with this? What are you gonna do with this?

Is it not true that it is you that is witnessing, and yet you cannot know how you know because it is beyond the knowable? So you can say it is intuitive. Now make sense of it. Make sense of it. Cannot make sense of it. You will at best try to deny it or distract yourself on the worldly thing. But don't run. Don't run. Face yourself as this. Meet yourself as this. Do you see yourself beyond sight? You see yourself or no? Not perceptually, but you find yourself as the ever-present witnessing which has no color, it has no shape, it has no objective quality whatsoever. This is the "I" that you are finding. Is that reasonable, sensible? It's not.

So the mind, when faced with this, will try to include this into your lifestyle and say, "Oh, now that I found this, do I have an enlightened life? Do I have a stress-free life?" Who are you talking about? Not the one you just discovered. Who are you talking about? All in an attempt to make sense out of that which is unsensible. So does that mean I leave my life? Yes. Yes, inwardly. Inwardly you have to die to yourself or die to the false self because you cannot juggle. You cannot even handle one universe, how will you handle two? You want to handle the unknowable universe and the knowable one? Cannot handle it. See? Wow.

So now is the time to pick. Now is the time to pick. Will you go with what you are finding and yet cannot make sense of, or do you want to return to your sensible life? Both you cannot do. And I'm telling you, if you plan to waste time trying to do both, then take my advice: don't waste it. Both you cannot do. Your alignment, your loyalty, your heart cannot be split. And it is that splitting which is the oscillation, the 40 days and 40 nights which I'm trying to avoid for all of you. If you try to include the world into your insight, it won't happen. And if you try to include your insight into the world, it won't happen. And this is not the time to say, "I am not the doer, I cannot do, you have to do for me." No, you pick. Because it is not you personally who is coming here; it is you as Consciousness itself.

Same here. You said that we're building a boarding times in the activities we try to... normally when we say that I'm aware of Self, sometimes while I'm talking to you or doing some work, Self is present with love. Do you need to say that that is present?

Yeah, so firstly understand that attention can never go to Self, you see. Attention can only go to an object. Attention can only go to the perceivable. So when I ask you if you are aware, now is your attention on the Self? No. In what, with what tool did you find that you are this awareness? It is just... and because this just like that or just... it is, you see, we have a nice term for that called intuitive. Yeah, it is just known intuitively, you see. It doesn't mean anything. It is just that, just like that doesn't sound good, so we say intuitive. So intuitively it is known.

Now this intuitive insight, independent of attention or thought, you see, can happen only with Grace. Because if there is no tool you can use to get to it, then if it is happening, then we can say it is only happening due to Grace. It's not even using my attention. So Grace has happened. Now you have found that you are aware. Now does the movement of your attention make a difference to this insight, to my Self?

So it is the Self who is attending to this Self. It is...

It doesn't mean it is... firstly, if it doesn't make sense, we are heading somewhere. The paradox is what we're aiming for. So paradox is important right now. You're right that... but who is coming to this insight? Isn't it? That's what you're saying. But so, you see, so that is the paradox which you cannot resolve and yet it is the most important insight you will have in this world, you see.

Now your question is that if I am operating in the world, then how do I retain this? Because it seems to go away. And you're absolutely right, it seems to go away. But it goes away only on one condition, and only in that condition alone. And that condition has nothing to do with what is appearing in front of you, you see. That condition has nothing to do with what is appearing in front of you. It is only dependent on whether you are believing the content of your thought. So without being hypnotized by the thought, see if that knowledge can go away. That apparency of self-knowledge, which I've been calling it recently, see if it can go away. Stare at any object you like, even stare at a thought if you like, and see if it can go away.

There is a detachment, right? Should I understand that way?

No, don't add anything to what I'm saying. Okay? Yeah. I am saying that if all your brothers and sisters in this room started having the experience that that child is having, you know, they all went "ha ha ha ha" all the time like that, even then, unless you buy a thought about yourself, the insight into yourself would not go away. See if you can shake it with your attention. If self-knowledge or the apparency of self-knowledge can be shaken with your attention or the objects in your perception.

Okay. How could you operate without the hypnosis of a thought in the apparency of self-knowledge where your intuition is present?

Okay, so I'm going to say something circular to you which is very important. You found yourself in response to a question: "Are you aware?" Now that you are aware became apparent. We said that that is intuition. We said that that is intuition. And through no other mean can you find yourself except through this intuitive insight, you see. Now I am introducing you to the good news that that intuition where you know yourself, you also know every single thing in that intuition where yourself is known, because there is actually nothing other than the Self.

Which is very important, you found yourself in response to a question: 'Are you aware now that you are aware?' It became apparent. We said that that is intuition. He said that that is intuition, and through no other mean can you find yourself except through this intuitive insight, you see. Now I am introducing you to the good news that in that intuition where you know yourself, you also know every single thing. In that intuition where yourself is known, because there is actually nothing other than the Self, there is nothing that is left unknown, you see. So you can live intuitively or headless in this way, you see.

So this is the beautiful thing that in this satsang we can say: because myself is apparent to me, I know I'm being intuitive. And therefore, as we get through life, as long as our Self is apparent to us, we are just being intuitive. Just like the sharing of this satsang right now, because myself is apparent to me, my being is also palpable. I am being intuitive. I am not having to think about these words. In the same way, all our life can be lived. All it needs is a sliver of faith. The sliver and the mountain is the same, where you're willing to let go of every attachment because your mind will come and say, 'If you live in this way, the way of the heart, in God's way, then how do you know you won't just become a wandering beggar?'

So you must trust that and say, 'For Truth, wandering beggar is okay.' 'How do you know that your family won't hate you?' 'For Truth, if my family hates me, it's okay.' So faith gives you the strength to not fall from until distraction, because all it can offer to you is things from the world. You have found the otherworldly. You have found the out-of-the-universe. So then, in the moment of self-discovery, you also found a tool as to how to spend the rest of your life in fear, because continue to live there where your Self was found. Continue to live there, and that is to live in the unborn, in the notion of this existence, in the open and empty.

If I have to go to the mind in the relative world, then I have to use relative things. This is looking for absolutism, and this is okay for satsang. If you divide yourself up in this way, then division, duality, and suffering. If there were two intelligences on offer, would you trust the intelligence which knows who you are, or the intelligence which has no idea about who you are, only speculates? The only trade-off is trusting a complete unfamiliarity, a completely new way of life, versus a familiar way of life. The trade-off, because you don't know where your heart will lead you next moment. Are you up for that or no?

You see, or like in property's terms, have you tied already yourself to a rope from the outside so that you don't lose your way here? According to the reverse idea of the mind, don't go too far in satsang so that you may get lost. Because the heart, your mind cannot control your heart. Your mind cannot know. And the heart is just this intuitive presence. I'm not talking about any emotional heart or any physical heart. This intuitive presence is Guru presence within you, which forms the bridge between the universe where nothing is conceptually known but the universe of the Truth, and the bridge between that and this world of just perception where nothing is reality. That is your intuitive presence, your presence.

How much are you willing to risk on this discovery which you are having? See, everything is gone, no? If you thought you were a cat and you had a lot of brilliant—you had collected a lot of great cat ideas all your life—and one day you saw there is no cat, what will you do with the cat thinking? Is there a practical cat life if there is no cat? No. So what to do with the thinking which is about the non-existent one, which intuition or God cannot handle that I have to do? If he was so good at handling those situations, I guarantee you we would not be here anyway.

If you are good at handling those situations from the tools at our disposal, which is the mind and perception, then why come to satsang? And most of humanity still has hope from those tools, and that's why they don't come to satsang like this, which is fair, which is fine. But if you are here over and over, you already recognize that those tools are not serving you well. You don't know how to run your life. You don't know what you're doing in life. You don't know how to run your life. You don't know how to plan your life. You don't know how your life will end, how it started. You don't know. And only in this admitting have you come to satsang, although you may not admit so blatantly.

If you can meet this, then we return to the innocence of a child. That's all that's being asked for, actually. A non-judgmental, non-interpretive state, which is your childhood. And now it may seem like life is more difficult, not easier. This is because it may feel like both voices are available to me and it may feel like I have to pick. Do you hear the call of the mind and you hear the call of the heart? The call of the mind is saying, 'Come, come back. All that stuff feels some voodoo business. Don't go there. What is the guarantee you'll be fine?' And the voice of the heart is just calling you in love, calling you in love. The love of non-separation, the love of Truth, the love of Oneness.

Now, what is going to win is up to you, but I would implore you to save yourself. I would implore you to save yourself from the false judgment and interpretation of the mind, because it's fully meaningless. And save yourself moment to moment. And this moment to moment, the way I said it, I hear it sounds like such a difficult lifetime project, but actually it's a sign of reassurance that you only have to do it now, you see. The world of time and the world of eternity can only collide right now, you see. They are not walking in lockstep; they are intersecting, and they're intersecting right now. You have got the point of intersection now.

Which universe will you continue to live in as you go back to the universe of false knowledge, of ignorance? How will you take this? Switch lines, no? Like in the London subway, switch lines. Get off at this station and switch lines right now to the world of your heart, to the way of your heart. But you have to leave your baggage in the old train for the love of the new train. What baggage can you not leave in the old train? Because this is exactly the stuff the mind will tempt you with and say, 'Come, come, enough, enough, enough. Balance, balance. Don't go too far,' you see. So you miss the intersection and then the mind has won that round by allowing you, by getting you to postpone, you see.

And that is why recently I've been starting to say that this battle is only about one thing: it is about time. Yeah, it's only about time. And soon this life will be up. Who will be taking a victory lap? That is up to you. Who will take the victory lap at that point, mind or heart? That is up to you. You cannot escape this. This you cannot even say to the Guru and say, 'You do this for me,' because Consciousness cannot take away the power of Consciousness either. Consciousness cannot do that.

The alarm clocks can ring all over the dream, but you have to wake up. You have to let go of the dream. So do you want to be the one where the mind says, 'Well played, but next time'? What next time? Because it won the battle for time. It doesn't need to win your heart, actually. It just has to win your time. And what is the way in which it cannot win? Hand over everything through God. There is no guarantee that your life will not go well. There is no guarantee that your life will not go well, just like there is no guarantee that it will, as much as we have to think.

And what is up to sacrifice? Only our idea about how life should be. 'Well' or 'not well' is not some universal presentation, because some say to live a life in utter poverty is the best life. Some wanted Janaka-style enlightenment. But nobody can universally feel that this is best. So 'well' or 'not well' is very, very up to what belief systems you carry. But a handed-over life is not a guarantee of making your mind's desires come true, although most of us approach surrender in that way. With effort I could not make it, now let me try everything. That is not the approach. Truly surrendered, what is going to happen? Joyful? Yeah, could be, but there's no guarantee either way. Love God more than joy.

What are you willing to give up? If you say no joy there, you want God? No, it's pure grief. What is Grace? Unexplainable. It's an unexplainable gift. That's how we started satsang. The best we can do is prepare the table for the guest. Whether the guest comes or not is not up to us.

Sound like a crazy life as I'm hearing the words also. You have to be willing to be that crazy. I prepare the table every moment for God's arrival, but whether I behold God, whether I find God, I have no tools to predict.

But what state it would be? I hope I'm asking—that's a different question. What state? Like you said, it's like the notion of events turning out and your prediction and how they turn out. That's the thing that we—I don't know what's going to happen.

Yes, that is to live a life of the head, not a life of faith. But what field it is? Faith is to surrender fully to that which we cannot understand. If it could be understood, then it would not make faith; then it would just be rational. And we've tried the way of rationality. We tried the view of rationality. It's now risk it on stupidity. If it seemed like stupidity, risk. You tried the rationality. Become fully crazy, silly. Yeah. There is no riskless faith. That is rationality in the garb of faith.

All of us have a notion of a miserable life. Or miserable life outwardly speaking, you may say. Any life that is spent in the presence of God inwardly cannot be miserable. That's fine. Inwardly, now it has become that. It's become like prison. Say we have an idea of a miserable life outwardly. Maybe it has no money, no friend, no relationship, unhealthy body, whatever it is. Suppose I said to you that to remain in the presence of God outwardly, you will have to live that miserable life. What will you do? Suppose it is guaranteed that that is exactly how it plays out. Then what would you pick?

You see, that puts it in context, no? It takes away from the airy feel-good spirituality of the New Age. Who is this about? Who would actually be able to describe your experience as misery if you were in God? Suppose you were, suppose you could not escape that, you see? Where you have to—you would have to put it in a narrative. Even then, what would you pick? Suppose you could do the impossible task of being in God and yet describe life as miserable because of the external circumstances of it. Then what would you pick?

I have to find some other poke because the minute I say it is an impossible task, then you're reassured. 'I love God. I realize what happened. I really became a lot more relieved that all inwardly...' No, says God, where is the world? There's a picture of the table waiting for the inviter to go out. There is still mind asking like a child, maybe: 'Who will come? How does it look? Does he look like...? What will we eat?' and how to... Yeah, we have no way to answer that. There's no way to answer that.

I think this school, yes, exactly. Because faith is there that it will be. Mind's asking time to understand what mind itself knows that it never will be able to understand.

All of these uncomfortable inquiries that I'm placing before you are to really correct the agenda of spirituality in some way, okay? Did you ever hear Shankara say, 'Oh, if you become spiritual you'll have like a peaceful, blissful life'? Not for that have any of the lives of the sages really come here to show us their bliss and their splendor in their worldly life. It may happen as a byproduct, but really what is the message? The message is to forget about you because the lane is too narrow. The lane is too narrow. If there is me, there cannot be God. And if there is God, there cannot be me. What is that a provocation for? It is a provocation for...

Did you ever hear Shankara say, 'Oh, if you become spiritual, you'll have like a peaceful, blissful life'? Not for that have any of the lives of the sages really come here—to show us their bliss and their splendor in their worldly life. It may happen as a byproduct, but really, what is the message? The message is to forget about you because the lane is too narrow. The lane is too narrow. If there is me, there cannot be God; and if there is God, there cannot be me. What is that? A provocation. For it is a provocation for you to pick. You're not there as some referee statement, you know, 'Nice, there's one, there's no me.' Yeah, it's really putting the context of spirituality right in front of you. What do you want? You want the better me, or you want God? Or you want me to become better because of God? Better life, better experiences, more bliss, more joy for me? Don't fall for that kind of spirituality. It is not spirituality at all; it is materialism in the disguise of spirituality, selling candy in the garb of God.

If there can be God or me in this lane, and betterment—the constant betterment of this non-existent me—that will bring me to God? No. It is only the letting go of you. So the no-journey journey is immediate. The intersection of the universe of the heart and the head is right now. Which line are you going to be on? Everything you write about is on the old line. All your spiritual experiences are also on the old line. Little ideas in the old line. Everything that you attached to is on the old line. Are you ready to jump trains? What do we need to do this, huh? Do we need that love, that craziness? What is it that we need? I suppose everything that you needed was already with you, and I am saying, 'Come.' I am calling you from the new line. Come. Would you come?

It's not an experience. It's not an experience. It is not a happening. Because all of happening, even the experience, all of that is in the world of linear time. Bringing you out of all of them into a non-linearity is the world of your being, the world of God. And there's a world that is conjured up by your head. The world conjured up by your head has time, it has space, it has objects. The world of God, the world of your heart, the world of this Guru presence is unfathomable to your mind. You cannot even say it is timeless or eternal. It is way beyond anything that we can understand.

How to live in this world of the heart? Moment to moment, allow yourselves to act directly from the present. 'Directly from the present' means through no mental intervention. And if you're convinced that you need some intervention or guidance, then allow the heart to guide you. Until then, trust the silence. So, a very simple way of life. You don't have to work hard. You will have to think about things, yes. Moment to moment, your Satguru presence itself is guiding the universe. But if there are moments where you are convinced that something is needed—some advice, some guidance, what to do—then wait. Wait for that before rushing to the mind. That is to live in the heart. That is to live in God's world. All right?

I don't know if it's kind of avoidance, but it seems like a comfort that it's only about resisting the voice of the mind moment to moment. It takes away these big images of worst-case scenarios and what happens then to myself. It's just always this moment. Yeah, then it's somehow... it becomes some...

Yes, and it's even more reassuring because we could have done anything in the past. We could have been full of mind, full of arrogance, full of pride. But this moment, we got on the heart train, you see? But remember that this offer expires now. Yes, because you cannot hold it for tomorrow and say, 'Ah, that means I can do whatever I want, and then when it's close to the end of my life, I'll just come to my heart.' No. The offer is fully available, but it expires now. You cannot do it tomorrow. So it's a great reassurance, but not an avoidance to reverting, which is the rare thing in this world. It's a great reassurance, but doesn't give you the possibility to escape because it is 'best before now.' When is the offer valid? Till now. Best-buy date is now.

So it doesn't matter what you've done in the past, what your history is like, nothing. Now, look. You cannot hold on to this offer till tomorrow. You might say, 'Okay, today is my last day of enjoyment. Can you just do that?' You know, because where is my heart going? It's going to be here. No. Like Narada in the story, you move and forget for your whole lifetime. That's why I said, but you still hear me. Mind doesn't have to; you have to do this. And if you are ready to jump, it should be in that spontaneous moment. Mind cannot understand.

What is the attempt in the question? To understand. Can't do it. You can only jump. Mind cannot jump. Mind is a bundle of thoughts; thoughts can't jump. You can jump. Jump without moving your body, with no guarantees. Only open. No left, no right, no up, no down, no yesterday or tomorrow. No. Right now.

And that's why it starts attacking even more, because that's his design. 'This one is going, it's gone. This passenger is leaving my train.' So he's designed to try and shut the doors on you as much as possible. Because not only does it want your attention and belief, it wants dominance—complete dominance. He's not happy with just like, 'Okay, now like a little path, I'll give you some attention, music video once or twice a day,' you know? It wants to help you, wants to own your lives. It is designed to try and take away the master and become the new master of your life.

Cannot be understood without it. So you will have all troubles throughout your own experiences like... um, you have your prediction areas, expectations. Ultimately, it will find a way that, for example, I mean spirituality... come to the spirituality, and then it will try to modulate in a way that at least even though that happens, you'll be happy even in that case. That's not what the project is. Only like that. Yeah, that's a false versus a jump that you're asking. Yes.

One is a noble path: thirty steps to happiness. Yeah. One is jump. What will happen? No idea. How to jump? No idea. Where to jump? No idea. Cause to jump? No idea. Reason? No idea. You're asking for some cause? No. Unreasonable. Completely unreasonable request. Sorry, my request for you to jump is completely unreasonable. That's the problem. You ask me to jump to know God? No. You prepare... I will prepare a feast without any expectations whether God is going to come or not. Still, I'm preparing it out of faith. It's ultimately a jump of faith where you jump with faith. Yeah. At the end of the jump, you don't know who's got you in the hand. But ultimately, what is it? The grace wants me to jump for no mind. What else do you have besides your ability to understand? I mean, look, look really. It's deeply invited. So your ability to understand, or the need to understand, or your intellect, whatever, has all these questions. What else do you have in your being? What is bigger? What is faster? What is true?

Are you willing to live there for me? And willing to live there, you don't understand, for me? Just like a child. Yeah, this is the return to innocence. Just like a child. And then jump into the open and empty. Sometimes it is... that's how sometimes this seems very fairy and sometimes that seems very simple. It's like when you come to satsang and you feel like, 'I'd like to come to every satsang.' Then when you're back in the world, you feel like, 'I'll go next week, too much.' Just... it's a sort of acclimatization.

That's why I want to get you every time you come. Oh, you're here. Ego arises. I used to say this—I don't know if you ever heard this—that when you start recognizing the words of the mind like a stand-up comedian or something, then it is losing its power. The same vicious voice, judgmental: 'I am right, you are wrong. See how you are and how I am.' Even the other way around. The same one has become a comedian because you start to see that the protagonist doesn't exist. That's when it becomes a comedy. If you still took yourself to be the protagonist, then it would not seem comedic, because what it's saying is not comedy. But because you recognize he's talking about airspace... my mind comes and says, 'You did so well, you're amazing.' Who is that?

But still, you know, but still... she comes to pure insight very quickly because her heart is full of openness, actually. But her mind still gets very attracted to 'but still.' 'I know I have to trust fully, but still...' 'I know I can only do this now, but still...' It seems very harmless and humble and almost... so beware of that mind tactic which comes in the guise of that requester. Where the mind and you are cornered, right? You know, like literally not happy with the so-called... this life, isn't it easy to turn into it? Baby, of course. Yeah, of course. So I have to grab you in those moments, otherwise you still feel like you have a chance with the mind. 'I can still win.'

But when you feel like... but the latter most who come to satsang actually have come like pre-bajal. And also, this paint is not mandatory, right? This cooking is not mandatory, right? To experience this? Well, if it worked for you, then it worked for you. We don't have to make a rule. Believe with her, but it still happens. It still happens, yeah. Because you wanted it. Yes. Okay, I don't know that. I know this, I want this too. Yeah, yes. And that is what's causing the push-pull. That's where... that's why I keep saying surrender, surrender, surrender. Because the mind can only invite you with things that you want. 'I have a ticket to Ranchi, you want, right?' What's your favorite destination or hometown, whatever? It offers you that. See? Yeah.

So it uses your want to pull you in. What is the other way it can do? I was coming to the conditioning part, yes. So the conditioning took so many lifetimes, no? The issue was in one moment that... why you want to understand? There is no time, actually. Okay. Reducing you to the timeless world of God. How did they get creative? How many of those lifetimes have I lived in the whole time? No need to know. Come. You feel like our greater understanding will help us surrender better, but the child is not like that. A child lost their innocence with the understanding. Understood, still in the wrong playground. No. Come back to where you were. What else do you have besides your ability to understand? Just no. No. Now you made an understanding out of it. See the difference? I'm not picking on you, I'm just saying that. And they're saying that the first time, the second time was reliant on the previous experience and the interpretation of it, which is just me. Yeah, I know. Still in the realm of knowledge again.

That's why the master has to keep finding new pointings, because the minute you start including it into your understanding, then it loses its potency. We feel like it is covered ground now. 'We've understood this, now next.' You feel like it is covered ground. It is not, because you jump out of the time, full into the timeless. Like many kids, you know, after a point, 'I'm actually done with the inquiry, I don't think I have fun.' So what? It's like a punishment to inquire into who you really are and to come to the darshan of the timeless reality that you are? It's a gift or a position. So what if you had that experience three weeks ago? Because our mind works on linear progress. I am starting to realize every day that what I was first told in spirituality was more than enough. I didn't need to understand much more.

The spiritual understanding then takes the shape of the identity. Because for like advanced Advaita or something, it can sound like somebody comes and says, 'Oh, my spiritual practice is... I just sit by myself at peace for like twenty minutes every day.' You don't do inquiry? You feel like we have some progress, better sort of thing. Do you know just that? Is there really anyone in this world who can sit without troubling you?

Spirituality was more than enough. I didn't need to understand much more. The spiritual understanding then takes the shape of the identity. Because for like advanced Advaita or something, it can sound like somebody comes and says, 'Oh, my spiritual practices... uh, I just sit by myself at peace for like 20 minutes every day.' You don't do inquiry? You feel like we have some progress, better sort of thing. Do you know, just... is there really anyone in this world who can sit without troubling themselves for themselves for 20 minutes? Thank you.

Good morning. So, how to live in caves? I've said many times now, so I'm actually expecting an answer, not rhetoric. Just jump. Usually, when this kind of recording is there, first you can ask yourself: What do I want? What do I want? Be fully honest with yourselves and whatever pointer, whatever spirituality, whatever you have learned, use it to let go of that. Return to the openness into your heart. This is the sacrifice of individual will. The sacrifice of individual will is the sacrifice of the individual because there is no individual without will, okay? The sacrifice of the individual will is the same as the sacrifice of the individual because there is no individual without will.

How to know that you're being personal? Ask yourself what you want. Even if you want nothing, it is still what you want, okay? But that's confusing; leave it for later, it's okay. Then let that go, either through inquiries or in the open empty. Are you aware now? Whatever—all the tools are in your arsenal now. Use them. Mostly in this openness, everything is unfolding naturally, but there will be some conditions, as you said, which will come and say, 'But this you have to decide.' So even with that, when you believe that some decision, some action has to be taken, don't go to the head for that. Trust your heart. Let presence itself direct the action directly or guide you. Just live like this.

If you feel like you have to do this over and over, over and over, do it. Because every time you snap out of your individual desire, individual will, you have changed your track. You boarded God's train. Every time you go with yourself being right, ego train. So even now, you may say, 'What do I want? I want freedom.' Freedom? Drop it. Return to emptiness. Return to your heart. Live here, new, open, and empty. Your presence itself is directing your life. It is, in fact, directing the universe. Allow presence to do that. Outsource everything to presence. In the outsourcing city anyway, so outsource everything to your presence and just be careful of being rushed, that's all. Don't get rushed because that is your mind's tactic. Yes, there's no time. There's always that time is in service to your presence, not the other way around. That is the only way you will save time, by picking God moment to moment.

Allowing yourself to let go of your will is to pick God. I don't want this to be confused with like, 'No, no, I pick God,' because then that is what you want. So let go of that also. It may be a prompt, which is okay. When you say empty, in essence, something you want like peace—all the spiritual wants, do not only want good, God wants. If you follow it more with guilt, stop. Then retrieve to your heart. That's all. This simplicity. If you can meet just the simplest thing. How do you know your heart is guiding you? Because your Self is apparent to you. This is a bazooka thing, all right? So, bazooka thing. Who can say that? Yeah, so blessed that we have the capacity to even say something like that. How do I know I'm not being fooled? Because my Self is apparent to me. And where my Self is apparent to me is only intuition.

And if some of you feel like the Self is not as apparent or whatever, then at least keep your being palpable, the presence of your being. For a few, it is quite straightforward now. Even then, you could not be fooling yourself. Return to innocence will happen, which is natural. It's okay. But I'll give one more trick. Equal to mind is that if not, there's no time, then is that it's too boring. For example, you may not know what you want for lunch. You may not know what you want for lunch. Even then, you don't have to follow the mind. The mind will say, 'Come, come, it's lunch.' Yeah, like your friends inviting you to have one cigarette. Oh, come on. The presence is doing it. You don't have to wait for like an audible, writing, sort of conceptualizable guidance every time. Your presence is doing. Your presence is not unable to run this life. But don't go to your head even for lunch. And if you go to your head for lunch, then don't go to it for dinner. But don't beat yourself up saying, 'I went for lunch.' Nothing is too small or too good for God. This is the subtle way to insert these categories of practical and spiritual. And if you still can't decide, your presence is just like that. When you leave it to those who love you, that's what I do mostly in hangout.

It's okay. It all works out fine because it doesn't matter how it works out. The only thing that matters is whether you pick God—to be more precise, didn't pick the head on them. That is the life of surrender, a life of faith behind the screen. But lunch, at least I can decide. Yesterday morning I woke up, I had no feeling that I'm going to go to the office. Suddenly it just came to me: go to office. Then no driver, nothing. I went to the office and there I met somebody from... not that it had... okay, this part you don't have to take it seriously. So there I met Yashoda. You remember, some computer came a few years back? She follows Guruji in the English term, and her husband Prasad. Both of them used to come. They're the ones I always remember because they used to go to one Swamiji.

The outcome was opposite, where I met somebody who just like took all the energy out of this body. Okay, okay, it's possible to live like this. So the tip I have is that, of course, whatever is showing up—and this is thanks to Claudia actually, where we used to, of course, say that whatever appears in our perception is the Master's grace, and it is the Master's grace. So it gives us great acceptance of what is appearing. But the higher will of God you hear in your God presence itself. Trust that much more or unwaveringly. And then don't go with the mind saying, 'But your life is showing you something else.' God is saying... this is the only way to miracles. We do with miracles, but not of the kind that we may expect.

It is this true life that will seem the most absurd initially. This invitation may seem absurd to you initially. Actually, it is our current mind way of life that is absurd. What better life than to be guided by God? I said by God. No, no, what, aren't I one with God? You are only if you guide Him. You have to serve up your ego, so work your head on a plate first. Unity with God is a product of our complete submission to God, not the other way around. The submission is not a result of your unity to a point of complete submission. Surrender, you already find that you are one with God. What is the submission? One way to surrender till you find I actually have one.

Anyway, for most of you, what I'm saying is post-insight. And even for most of you it is post-insight, you cannot, you cannot, you do not have the excuse to say, 'Oh no, no, but I'm waiting for an awakening to recognize what I really am, then I can really surrender.' In a simple inquiry, in a moment, you discover that now. Now, to refuse to give up on the false is unacceptable. So most of us is the cat story. The cat story, you see no cat in the mirror when we check now hundreds of times. No cat. Still, what about the camera? Surrender. Cat's voice will call you. Balance it out. Balance it. Bearing up here, it is fine. That fear is fine. That's why you want to remove that, because tension from that situation. But God's will do something else that we shall talk to me. All is it intimidating, the project I have laid out? Inclusively butchering the mind. Relentless. Thank you.

And you're giving... you're saying so many things, you know, like jump, become naked and open.

Yeah, it's okay. Come naked, all right? Nakedness is fantastic because that's, you know, that's what you are in the heart, where they can. And you see a sacrifice, but I say... I'm not saying that yet, but I said what if I did? I say it's a curse not to be in the heart. It's a surrender. The head is surrendered, chopped, surrendered, kept on the feet of the Master all the time. What He wants to do with it, He can do with it, I think. The Creator is on our pleasure week. The greatest gift.

I just need to provoke. As often I have said, that human shouldn't really be so arrogant and proud because plants and animals are freer than us, you know? It's oppressed. They're not oppressed by the mind. The only thing that I feel brings us to some equality with nature is our ability to utter God. That we can invoke the greatest. You can't even see being greatest, greatest. If some reassurance about the human condition, that this intersection is possible through grace, that which is beyond this universe, it is into this and reminds us of its reality. Is love beyond any understanding. What greater love can there be that time and space becomes immaterial? Before we can become one with Ram, we have to become Hanuman. Follow, follow, follow, follow.

You asked to jump over the sea with the mountains? Hard. Because follow God in your heart fully and have created them the most irrational, unbelievable things which point to the highest. Okay, no, not conspiracy theories types of fear. So have faith that when Hanuman opened his heart, Ram and Sita were seen. So the mind would sound like complete pumpkin, but you can have faith that it is true. So I have faith in these testimonies which point you to the highest truths, although you can never understand them. And the mind will constantly want to rationalize them and see, 'Oh, it is metaphoric, it is like that, and it is representative of nothing.' And once you opened his heart where you don't have a problem with that. Jesus was put up on the cross; after three days he was born again. They don't have a problem with that. Stay there.

I'm going to lose my job. Right choice of what? It's so slippery. Try to sleep so easy. I know how to work. Anything you don't want to say anything?

Yeah, I was just saying that, you know, it just... I think the grace and with grace and, you know, your guidance and we need to recognize, you know, living for the One that truly makes everything happen. Yeah, you know, makes everything possible. It's all experience impossible. So all surrender to the One, the only true One.

Channel of God, which is the will of God. It is a beautiful woman, a few lines which I keep repeating almost every satsang. Not by thinking, by sitting in silence, not by immersing in love, not by materialistic desire, not by fulfilling hunger—none of those things is it possible to come to truth. I will go, illusion get unveiled, and the unveiling of the false into the truth happen. To immerse ourselves in some enjoyment, and even a spiritual enjoyment, we're entering to the One who makes you can surrender possible. Everything. I mean all the senses, the capacity to understand what the word surrender means—it's called God. It's not through conscious blood. So it is peeling away the false. This is the beauty of it. To surrender, although we don't know how to surrender, is an act of grace, as an act of faith which we don't know how to do. In every surrender, it's like the jump.

We just fortunate to be here. I feel very fortunate as well. All of you come with such openness to hear all this absurdity. Maybe what I'm saying... cute. It's completely unreasonable to expect something like this can happen, and you're seeing it with your own eye. Recording it on YouTube makes it...

To surrender, although we don't know how to surrender, is an act of Grace. It is an act of faith which we don't know how to do. In every surrender, it's like the jump. We are just fortunate to be here. I feel very fortunate as well. All of you come with such openness to hear all this absurdity. Maybe what I'm saying is completely unreasonable, to expect something like this can happen, and you're seeing it with your own eye. Recording it on YouTube makes it entirely perceivable in this moment where really it awakens our faith so deeply. So it's very good where we get such a beautiful perception which we cannot explain, and then that deepens our faith.

But we should use that experience to deepen without needing. That's a deep faith—that we don't need to see anything out of the ordinary also. So may these experiences also lead you to that depth of faith which is unshaken no matter what comes. So may we not need even a miracle to stay with God's presence, but as long as they are occurring, they are deepening your faith, which is very beautiful.