Sharing Satsang - Ram's Report - 15 May 2015

I don't know, because many times I listen to the Satsang of Guruji, he says something like there's some people in Monte Sahaja and they're just like fooling around. Like they spend many years but still they don't get it, you know? Thinking... can you hear my voice clear? Again, this... like sometime Guruji, he says that there's some people they spend time in Monte Sahaja for a few years but still they just like fooling around, like they don't really get in touch with him or something. If I think like, is it the same with me in the hangouts? Because there's not super much gratitude here and I'm so... there's a kind of like there's nothing happening, you know? Like I mean, how I expect like there'll be some peace and some love and some gratitude arising or something, but it's been like for a few months but it seems like it just... it's somehow it's not developing somehow. I don't know how to say exactly, but maybe give you...

And this can become some trouble. So I just want to tell you that forget about gratitude, forget about loving me. All these things are not important. Just where I'm pointing is for you to find out what you are. And that must become completely clear. All the rest is just the beautiful... can be beautiful sweets, the greatest recruiting to ourselves. All the rest is fine. My true interest, my only interest in you is to point you to what you are. And this what you are is present, see? So when even Guruji speaks about how 'I'm just fooling around and not really getting it,' it only means this: you're getting involved with the sideshow, not really coming to this true oneness. So when you point, then you see, 'This is what I am, this awareness.' Then you will not be able to say you, me, Bhagavati, this, that, all that much, see? Love, peace, joy, all this can come and go. Don't be so worried about any of this. Just stay. My root message, my main message for you is just come to this point of discovery of what you are. This is always present. Don't even do that: 'Why I don't feel enough gratitude? Am I just hanging around? What's happening?' When I was 20, I don't know what I was doing. So if I start comparing like that... at least Grace has got you to Satsang. All that is being pointed in Satsang, you just this... sorry, who am I? Am I aware now? All the rest is okay. It's coming and going. It's okay. Many have told me, 'Oh Father, I love you so much, I will always be at your feet,' and now they don't come, they don't see me at all. That is not important. But at least my feeling is that in the time that we were here, they saw something. They revealed what was true to themselves, see? So that is the main thing.

That is the main thing. And I just want to say that like, I don't know, maybe it's soon for me, but I want to say that whatever sense of specialness or whatever sense of ego is coming up, you know, may your Grace and Guruji's Grace just slap it out for me. And then I just want to finish and I don't want to like fool around. I don't want to waste time, you know. And so thank you so much.

Thank you.