Sharing Satsang - Prya's Report - 15 May 2015

Love you. Here's my dear, come. I don't know what I'm going to share. I guess that that's kind of how it is for me now anyway. I just don't know in any moment. And your teaching for me is completely clear. Just, I think love has got a lot to do with that. It somehow opens good space, opens something out, or dissolves something—something which isn't real. We took your family, I'm in it. Oh, that's long. Hey, you just, or whatever is in my gene, you just speak from there. It's just love, just love and nothing. It's just, I've been seeing clearly that even any appearance of person is just appearance. But I say this all the time, but I access where is that sense, what's here? And it's just so clear now that everything is just so perfect. Every moment is just perfect.

And it's a seeing now that there's even a suitable play with it. Yes, like I feel like I see it. I say I feel it, it's not a feeling, but it seems like I'm like a child again, rediscovering everything. Like finding things, like you know, everything's just new, you know? And yet, and yet I don't know anything at all. I just don't know anything. It's all a mystery. I was contemplating the Atma the other day on the beach. We were contemplating how come it's this appearance and not any other appearance? I don't know if you've looked at that, like why is it this one? Why could it change any moment suddenly, like you say, how can we suddenly be sitting on Mars or something? It's just the mystery how it is, just this appearance. And yet, and yet at the same time, it's so much. It's so much is appearing, so much it just doesn't seem to have any end to it. And it's all your grace, your grace. And it's just amazing that five minutes... oh I don't know, feels like five minutes.

Oh yeah, it's a beautiful contemplation, this one about why this appearance is why. Why can't I be just being on Mars right now? Yeah, yes. And you want to, want to, want to play this more? You want me to spoil it for you?

I want to contemplate it more. At the same time though, I know that it's so perfect. It is perfect. It's just, it's everything. It's just as it is, as it is. But I still want to contemplate it some more. I'll let you know. Very happy. I get really excited when these kind of contemplations come. I was saying to Bhagavati yesterday, and I won't know if it was Atma that... that I just, what I just love to just spend hours talking with you about all sorts of mad contemplations. I would enjoy that very much, but they're not going to take up all your time and think of everybody else's time.

It's okay, baby. Very beautiful because they have gone beyond the personality, you see? These kind of contemplations have gone beyond the personal. So much of our lives have been spent on these so-called personal issues, personal problems. But when these kind of contemplations come—why is it this appearance and not some other appearance?—something this is beyond doesn't have any personal info. But I know you will not have a personal benefit, and yet it seems to have so much joy just in this way.