Sharing Satsang - Amba's Report - 15 May 2015

Let's go next. I am very much enjoying this. It must be a bit of a nice break for all of you.

Father, can I go? You got me good and I don't know what to say. Sometimes when it comes to speaking to you, even though I have nothing to say, just the idea of sharing really honestly from my heart in front of you brings lots of nervous energy. I noticed this for a while and something then wants to bring it to Satsang and just like be here. So it makes perfect sense that you're asking all of us to share today. I'm free. Thank you.

But I don't really know how to share because I don't feel like I have much to say. I just kind of feel like everything is just like okay and I'm not like concerned with anything at all. I'm not really even interested in... I hear even you saying, and I know you just say whatever comes, but I hear you saying like life is so amazing and all of the appearances are amazing. But I just feel so like I'm not interested in appearances at all. But at the same time, I see whatever is unfolding and whatever comes, and sometimes I see, 'Well, it's like it's so magical' and 'Well, it's so amazing how it just comes like that.' But really, that's an appearance, isn't it? And I'm just not interested in appearances anymore. That's all. And that's just cool.

I had a very beautiful insight recently, and maybe it's like something that I heard you saying and lots of people saying lots of times, and maybe even I said it myself before. It seems to be like when we have insights, they can come more than once, and maybe if they come again, you can see it more clearly or something like this. Well, the insight was just that if I'm mostly by myself all the time, but if I'm with other people, I notice like just whatever speaking happens, it just happens. And so when this was happening, it was like I was just not really even concerned with what I was saying. I don't even know what I said for a long point, but it was so nice. I was like speaking these words I never even would say.

The insight was just that sometimes we say, you know, 'I am in service to you.' Well, I don't even feel like that's true. I feel like it's You who are in service to You. And maybe I said this before, I don't know, but I just felt like I could see it much more clearly. So that was nice. Thank you.