Risk It All In Service To God, That Is Truly the Highest Gift You Can Give Yourself- Diwali 2022

So, the occasion of Diwali, like I said, it's a beautiful reminder for us to the deepest recognition, the reflection of the light of your own being. You see all these beautiful diyas are shining. In whose light are they reflecting? Whose light? That light itself, the light of your being. That light of Consciousness appears to whom? Who is aware of that? So, may this be the Master's blessing to you this Diwali, that anytime you see the light, look at the diya, recognize the source of this. You recognize what it is reflecting. What is being asked of you, in a way, is a quantum leap. So, a quantum leap of faith, because for your own good—is it for your own good to straddle both your limited identity and what is being shown to you unrelentingly differently? It is going to make you seasick if you try to do the straddling.

Now, the problem is that you are stuck. Your heart has already tasted the highest, so now it will chase that, chase that. It's found its home in some way. Spread the call of home, recognize the call of home. So, it is not going to retrieve. Your heart is fully set to live at home, but it's like the child still feels like they'll enjoy the playground as the mom is calling them home. You're tired, and we still have a bit of that, maybe, I don't know. Come home, you're tired. So, like that child who's confused between playground and home, a little bit of that. But you're stuck because you need to come to satsang like this over and over again. Clear indication that the heart calling is strong. Otherwise, to come here and then just even feel it or hear it or any aspect of it, and then you feel like, 'Oh, the playground is still very attractive.' You would not be here. You would not be here on Diwali day. You would be playing cards or doing whatever fun stuff with your friends. That you can even be here on this day is proof of your longing for your true home.

To your true home, Kabir Ji said, 'Build a house, build the pillars of your house where nothing can be seen, where there is no birth nor death.' To such a home is the invitation, you see? And I am the real estate agent for that house. But you cannot maintain two houses inwardly. Outwardly, it's all fine. In life, you can have your worldly responsibilities or not. You can do all of that or not. But your heart cannot be divided. Your heart cannot be divided between worldly desire and the desire for the highest. If you desire the highest, then what this body-mind will experience in the world is up to the highest. If you desire only the highest, then you have to surrender what plays out. You don't have to pick up a new desire of renunciation also outwardly. Desire the highest. But you cannot divide your heart. You cannot say, 'This also and this one.' And I promise you that nothing of value will be lost. You will lose anything that you will rid yourself of. That light in which even the light of Consciousness is born.

So, may this homecoming be our homecoming as well, coming to our true home. May these lights be a celebration of that final return from the vanvas. The vanvas was only played by mind, the worldly suffering. So, may the truth be your Ayodhya. It must be over. The kingdom of your heart has no lack. So, we must not fear. We must not fear any notion of loss. If I want only God in my heart, then what happens? What about my worldly life? I have nothing to fear. One moment of presence of the Divinity, one moment spent with this Divinity is worth more than the entire world can offer in centuries. So pristine that our mind cannot fathom it. How many lifetimes of pleasure for one moment of God? If He said, 'Okay, here's the deal on Diwali, I have two gifts: three lifetimes of pure bliss, or one moment of God,' you know what I will choose? A hundred lifetimes of bliss is nothing; it's pure illusion. This lifetime is going like this. I don't know if you're noticing, it's going like this. Soon it'll be gone. Nothing but a fleeting dream.

So, that which is not fleeting is the opportunity available to you. Build your house here, and life and death does not bother you anymore. Whether there is a universe or there is no universe will not bother you anymore. If your legs are firmly grounded in your reality, you are done with this. Otherwise, you would not be here. If you were not done playing with the Lego world that we call the universe, you would not be here today. Now what remains is just the dregs of old notions of desire and grasping and wanting. 'I want any of this also and that one.' Like the fire of Diwali today, burn all of that. Burn all of them. Always alluring notions and repulsive things for you. Stop looking for this world to become a sublime dream or preventing the nightmare either. It's just a dream. What can you keep? Suppose you became the highest idea of a person in this world: the richest, the best partner, the healthiest body, biggest halo, all the spiritual understanding. Small 'you' understanding every topic there is. All of that. Suppose all of this was yours. What can you keep? In all of this, you will not be able to find the light of one diya. What is this light? What does it mean? Here, all this happens, and then oxygen. Nothing to do. We have a lot of explanations about it. What is it? So, even the world you cannot grasp.

So, Kabir Ji said, 'Okay, in whose light do you perceive the sun?' Where do you know that answer? No answer. In whose light do you perceive the light of the sun? And in whose light are you perceiving this beautiful light all around here? Whose light is it? It's my own light. What can confirm this for you? Can the tools of perception tell you this? No. Thoughts confirm this provisionally? Yes, yes, it is my own light because Bhagwan said. But that does not help because that is gone in a moment. A new concept can come, a new grasping. All these spiritual concepts in a moment, in the hypnosis of desire, all gone. But where does this knowledge remain unchangingly? Where is it clear and unchanging? What is this lack of trust that all this pristine knowledge is available to us over there? And yet we have the silliness to make categories and say, 'No, no, it's only good for...' Is it ignorance or arrogance? That where my Self is apparent to me, there where Atma Gyan, self-knowledge, is clear, what can be missing over there?

Once you start the story wrong, then you feel that you are compelled to build on it and take it to some logical conclusion, to still make it work. It's like if you start the story with 'Once upon a time there was a person,' where is it going to go? No matter how hard you try in your narrative, you cannot make the Self out of the person. Your raw material is wrong. Suppose you wanted to make this diya, but you start with corn flour. Can you do it? You may try and try. 'Okay, mix a little more dough, put some glue and put some...' Your raw material is wrong. So, once you start on the basis of your being somebody, you've just gone off in the wrong track. So, start again. Start afresh. The truth is never lost. It's a suitable thing to do, the only thing to do, is to say, 'No, no, I've taken this falseness this far, let me try to give it my best shot. Maybe one day the falseness can be made into truth. One day I'll make ice cream out of this water.' No matter what you think you've invested, how far you think you've come, even if you think you are just one millimeter away from the truth, forget it. Start afresh. Let this moment be the start of your new life in service to your heart, service to the divine presence which is undeniably clear to you. Don't make any ideas about what that means for your outer life, but inwardly I am requesting and demanding full sacrifice. Keep your eyes only on the Divinity within. Allow that light to burn everything that is false. So, it is a great giving up, the great giving up, but not giving up of anything valuable. I'm here to show you that you can. That is maybe the only value to the living embodiment of a Master: to meet someone who can tell you that you can, because I did. And when I say that...

Undeniably clear to others. Don't make any ideas about what that means for your outer life, but inwardly I am requesting and demanding full sacrifice. Keep your eyes only on the divinity within. Allow that light to burn everything that is false. So it is a great giving up, the great giving up, but not giving up of anything valuable. I'm here to show you that you can. That is maybe the only value to the living embodiment of a master: to meet someone who can tell you that you can because I did. And when I say that you will lose nothing of value, it is from experience.

So what does this mean? No wasting time on thinking about basically the four variables of humanity. No wasting time thinking about relationship, no wasting time thinking about money, no wasting time thinking about the health of the body, and no wasting time thinking about God. God does not need your thoughts. So come to me, be with command, don't think about God. The god of your thoughts is not God at all. Direct your attention to the God of reality, the very light of your being. And if the light of your being goes away, then all of this goes anyway. What can you hold on to? What relationship can you have if you don't wake up? If you don't wake up, the waking state doesn't come. Which relationship can you have? How much money can you have? God wakes up within you; all of it is just playing.

So this tiny sacrifice, which may seem like a lot, is a prerequisite to give yourself the highest gift possible. What if everything was the opposite of what you want? Face that fear and get over it. That's the worst-case scenario, and that's what keeps you in the jugular position. God also, but tightly holding on to what do you think we want or something—He can't work like that. So hold on directly to God and face the fear of what will happen. If you go on the streets, you also live. An instant of being with God as a beggar on the streets is worth more than lifetimes as a king.

What else? Lose this body? The life force, no Prana left in the body, you're dead. What happened anyway? Was it here? And someone just... fear of death is so strong you pretend as if you already died. Relationship? What is the value of a relationship if you don't even know yourself? If you don't even know yourself, it is like kids playing dollhouses. In India, my young cousin sisters, they would have this: 'Oh, oh yeah, please come for this thing.' 'What's happening?' 'Oh, my doll is getting married to this other doll.' And they would have this event. Who's having this? Especially importantly, drop all ideas about your freedom, the make-believe version of 'free you' which has nothing to do with the reality of the freedom of your being.

Your freedom is incomprehensible to your mind. You're free to present it to yourself. So million universes in your own light, that is your immensity. You can play universes effortlessly; that is your reality. Here you are anchoring to this body thing. So stop waiting for evidence of this. You have to take the leap of faith. What will happen? You bet your life on this stupid guy? You bet your life on the stupid guy who's telling you all the nonsense stuff? Actually, that much is clear: that this is not your only life. That one, break the farm and bet the house on it. See what happens. You bet everything and don't let the mind trick you into a story about how any of this looks outwardly. Nothing I have said has anything to do with how it looks outwardly in the outer life of the body. 'My job tomorrow'—I'm not saying that. Inwardly, it's time to be done with the risk-free spirituality, guys. A week, two hours, this balance out life, keep the practical thing in balance with the spiritual world and try to keep up the appearance of a balanced life. Full nonsense. Full letting go. Risk it all. Risk it all in service to God. That is truly the highest gift you can give yourself.

And this is then how to be free from this: 'I want to be free from the veil of this.' To remain in the command of the law, the Hukum. This I've shared, this appreciation in this expression. I don't like words like 'command.' 'God loves us, why should He command?' My buddy, He's my pal. It was really an attempt to exert your false individuality in the heat, in the fire of God's will. Burn only one of the two. Any guesses to which one? The false. Can you be vibrant, open to be in service to the Lord? Whichever aspect of God appeals to you. It can be impersonal, it can be personal, as long as it is not you.

So how to follow God's will? You say, 'Okay, it's a deal. We all live together in this. How to be in service? How to follow God's will? How to take the risk? I am willing to bet my life.' You say, 'I will follow God's will. How do I do it? I don't know.' So how to do it is to be in the apparency of self-knowledge. Only when God's presence is palpable to you can you follow God's will. If God's presence is not palpable, then how do you know you're following God? This is very important. As you may say, because whatever we've heard together and hopefully together in this, okay, now there is no 'me.' That one is clear. The pretend 'me' has all these ideas and duality and desire and doership, all of that. I'm willing today to risk it all in the fire of Diwali, the holy fire of all these lights that are burning all over the world. Need to burn it all, but all that is false. I'm willing to follow the command of the law, the will of God.

It is not possible to follow the will of God till God's presence is palpable to us, because God's will is not an advice that can be in some ethical realm. So to follow God's will, God must always be apparent. Your presence is God. Your presence is not a personal presence. It's not a personal 'I am.' It is the presence of God itself. This 'I,' pure awareness itself, is now not a mystery to any of you. This 'I' that is aiming is not a mystery to any of you. So remain where that is apparent and nothing can shake you from that. And yet, due to the force of habit from time to time, you will be shaken, and that's fine. But as you have sacrificed personal desire, the shaking will be just momentary. The shaking will be very momentary after the sacrifice of person and doership, desires and volition.

I showed you the highest in your vision, which is not sight but your inner vision. All the time, just to put it again poetically, keep your eyes on God every moment. With your eyes on God every moment, you have no option but to follow His command. That's all you have to do. This is not a two-step process because the roadblocks we have already removed. The blocks you have already removed in your sacrifice of the so-called personal life. Now this is very subtle. You may feel like to keep the apparency of the Self or God apparent to me all of the time, I have to juggle my attention—half my attention on God and half my attention on the world. That's not it. Because although you may come to the palpable shining light of God's presence, you may rest your attention on the shining light of God's presence. With attention, attention itself being limited does not fathom the unlimited nature of your being. Attention by itself cannot fathom the unlimited nature of your being, and yet you can.

There's a source of intelligence which is far greater than your attention, to which your being is already seen to be unlimited and timeless. It is with you already. So you don't have to worry about what attention is doing because, as we keep doing these days, even if your attention is out on a worldly object, your being does not get lost. The Self still remains in view, independent of your attention. Either way, certain things... so to live in service to God, to live under God's will, is to be in the constant presence of yourself and the constant insight about yourself. God's presence is apparent, and everything you see in the world is just being a reflection of that very presence. That, in my view, is the highest gift that I can give to all of you and you can give to all of yourselves.

So this is Consciousness reminding itself that it is done with the trivialities of this play, including the trivialities of the spiritual search. It truly is time to risk it all and follow what is being pointed. No safety nets, no hedging bets in this life. Just one real life. Surrender yourself, surrender your heart fully to God. If it doesn't work out, well, another dream will come again. If the Guru is truly the bringer of light and your mind is the voice of darkness, hear today to the core of the light. My heart will shine in God's light and God's grace. It's time to be done with this sheepish spirituality. It is okay, so we do try and become a better person, have a balanced life—it is not that kind of Satsang. To try and increase your spiritual understanding—it's not that kind of Satsang. Pick up your sword and chop all that is false. At least your mind may be seen, but God bless you, you got them. Expose it and burn it in the fire of Satsang. But expose it not so that you can value it more. Expose it so that you let go of all value of it and let it be my problem.

So don't hide smartly behind even exposing as a way to give value to garbage. It is true to say that 'I recognize it as garbage because it's starting to sting.' Garbage because it is starting to sting, but still it is a comfortable hell for me. A comfortable hell because that is all that I'm familiar with. So I want to offer it to you in the fire of Satsang.

With this, I just wanted to like, maybe like the subtle appliances, at least in the realm of relationship. Like, at least am I not entitled to have that kind of understanding? At least am I not entitled to the other side? At least she did not need that type of respect, the type of care, the normal active things which is many times...

Yes, thank you. Thank you for exposing it. And yes, you're not entitled. As Guruji says, live as if you have no rights. If you hand over your life to God and say, 'But...' that guarantee... don't say, 'I fully devote my life to God, but conditions apply.' Read the fine print. God, He said, really cannot be that. The fear, as I said, the fears which the mind will produce: 'But what if? What if? What if?' A moment of God's presence is worth a hundred perfect lives that the mind can conjure. With the fine print, you wouldn't know. But I also see its visibility because of my own idea of how God should take care.

Yeah, have you seen a more nonsensical machine? The one that is effortlessly in it, by its mere light producing universes by the dozen. That one has to be told by our mind how it should run one body? I'm sorry. Hit this body, with this body, and as we said also, we can hear it. These are all the things that your mind will do to prevent you from God's life. What's it about? What should we do? 'But I have enough money, but make sure that my relationship goes fine.' What? Just these three, four variables. If we know better, why are we confusing ourselves with God? If we know better, we can tell God, 'Okay, take care of me this way, that way, that way,' and take care of you yourself. Are you wasting time? Because really, in a way, it's like Arvind said that day: once you hire the best lawyer, then leave that one to do the job. If you're going to keep saying, 'Okay, God, I trust You. You are the highest being in this universe, almighty, all-powerful, but please God, I know what to do with this life,' maybe we shouldn't be demanding. Cannot be demanding. The time for that childish spirituality is over. You have to go open-chested with no rigidity about anything. Surrender the street, hopeless and clueless. The best offering.

Sugar sounds terrible. It's magnificent. One of the things that I found hard to let go of when asking or talking to... in fact, a long time between myself, he's saying, 'Should I not even ask for a physical... recognize physical presence of the Master?'

Towards what end? Not an island in itself, obviously. Towards what end? To bring you to the presence and to define itself. Cannot be this. In the physical presence, not in the physical presence of flesh and bones and blood, that is of course... you must be seeing a lot of that.

It's magnificent. One of the things that I found hard to let go of when talking to him a long time ago—between myself, he's saying—should I not even ask for a physical presence of the Master? Towards what end? Not an island in itself, obviously. Towards what end? To bring you to the presence. And the Divine itself cannot be this in the physical presence, not in the physical presence of flesh and bones and blood. That is, of course, you know, you must be seeing a lot of that. So you're not asking for more bundles of food with a little bit of halo. That's not what you're saying. Give me a bridge, a conduit to You, God. So the Master's physical presence at best is reassuring in the sense of saying that 'I have done it and so can you do it.' I can see it now; I may not be able to see it tomorrow. So the best time is to do it now.

You know what is the most painful part of the battle between head and heart? This painful stage of this battle is when it is in the middle: half-hearted and half-headed. Full-headed was better, and full-hearted, of course, is the best. It's half-off. It's forcing you. Full-headed you cannot become now; you've gone too far. You've gone too far. As far as the only way is to reach the top of this mountain, you cannot go back. The door is clear. No matter how hard you try, do not turn away from this now, even if it is but from what you have seen now. Whichever form of satsang, whichever form of contemplation, do not turn your back away from that now. The only way is out of that. And let go of your gravity, let go of your gravity which you're trying to still maintain as a safety blanket. It is not giving you safety; it is only giving you struggle.

Allow God to dictate this life. Who knows? For a God-assisted life, the God-dictated one sounds horrible to the mind. Why horrible? Because the notion is that 'I have the best idea about my life; God should assist me.' To recognize that God, the higher intelligence, highest divisions—is there still any confusion about that? Between 'me' who doesn't even exist and God who's the higher intelligence? So who's got a better plan for your life? Who's got the best moves? I'm planning to participate in the dance competition; you have the option to channel Prabhu Deva or be yourself. What can you do? Bow down at the feet of the Lord as God, not as 'you.' And I don't want to say this often because then that is very good to the ego, to be God finally this way. Because it has to be bowed down to be chopped; only then one message is possible.

After your beautiful thing, okay, thank you. Thank you for this question. So when you have let go of the world, that very instant, past, present, and future are all God's. So you could have spent your entire life in the mind, and the worst sort of mind is like a sinner, the worst sinner. But if he has let go, surrendered to God, all of your past has been rectified. It's the beauty because God does not live in time. God does not live in time. But the thing is, once you target the tree of conditioning and you pull one leaf, then it seems to again be. So this is the whole thing: the moment of surrender, truly there's no problem in your past, present, and future. But in the moment of the hypnosis—because ultimately past, present, and future are fictional, they are not now, they are fiction—in the limitations of energy, as much as you may try, you cannot squeeze God in your narrative. 'Me' will always be God for me, which is that God-assisted life will always be primary. And in the hypnosis, you will feel instantly that you are in hell, as familiar and as comfortable as it may seem.

Thank you. The only way to fix your past, present, and future: hand over this moment. See the light of God within you. Everything is cleansed. It's all funny. You know this in your heart. You know this, all of us do. But if you become evaluative about it in your head, at least fear it cannot be fathomed there. It is impossible to recognize them in the head. That's why I think you recognize it in your heart instantly, that your past, present, and future is empty of the error of limitation, the error of you. No, I didn't mean that. I mean that you have—when you see them, do you recognize that something else has taken over? But I'm just—yeah, I mean, I never know about the past, something else is doing because that personality seems not to be. Absolutely not. Actually recognize your whole way of—we will not go to sleep now. Something, it is a completely different life inwardly, and it is a completely different life outwardly. It may continue to be the same or not; that's up to God.

So what I was asking was that—that's not a conclusion. This habit of making conclusions, let's experiment. Yeah, now what is that? What about your past? All the mistakes, all the times you took yourself to be false, from all the time you heard the voice of limitations, selfishness. Stepped out of time. To meet God is to be one with God. But you cannot meet God to be one with God; it's not for you. The ego wants to do what it wants—to become God, you see. So if I say, 'Ah, when you meet God, you'll become God,' yeah, God with your head bowed down, and then 'do with me as you please.' Moment to moment, try God's presence and try to retain the demons or even the muscle memory or whatever you want to call them. Try, seek to see and not to understand. What to understand? And then I think we will tell you that we find for yourself.

There are so many examples. Murderers and things like that, they turn to God and then they became the greatest sages. Was it Valmiki? To take that leap, it's a leap of faith. 'I will not understand.' Thank you. Really, PowerPoints and CRTC, I'm not to understand. Time to burn the house. It's time to burn the house and not to reassure ourselves anymore. What if it doesn't happen? Like, what if I'm not freed from jumping? No safety. What is that bungee cord? The bungee cord which saves you. Attention, of course. Later we see here confirmation of this is requested or proposed or provoked so that you learn to trust that intuition where this can be confirmed rather than—it's not enough information in. Try, try to confirmative perception. See if you can see.

So all these questions: Who am I? Can you stop them? Are you and who's like this? Perception happens. Perception is completely helpless. I will help you. So that is why it's beautiful, because you can try. All your faithful attempts will be confirmed. In whose light is this light to see? You will never perceive that light, and yet you will know in your heart. It's like you know that it is you that is aware. It's like you know that you can't stop being 'me' in your head. That's as far as you can go. But I'm saying positively confirmed. Where will you do it? And it is the maximum you can do in your intellect, not this. Okay, but where can you confirm it? All these agency, all kinds of things. The universe is nothing but a firefly which is flickering for a bit and will go away. Oh, where have you seen? If you're just talking nonsense, no reason to follow. Thank you. No motivation to focus. I'm not being paid to share something. There's nothing. The firefly in front of you flickering. Where do you know this to be true? After reading this, why are we still have Maharaja in the world? Ludicrous nonsense to the head, but somewhere we know he's speaking the truth. Somewhere you know he's speaking the truth. Want to change? It's a complete switch outwardly in the story of your life if somebody else. Question happened progressively over here, but you have to completely, at least moment to moment, continue in this love triangle.

There was a space where it is independent of perception. Yeah, so it was consistent because if the mind used to block the perseverance back and forth, and with the perception and things moving down, it's independent.

There is no way to resistance, and that is the beauty of open and empty. The beauty of open and empty: the Absolute is apparent, Presence is palpable, and the world is shining brightly. What better way to live can there be? Share with me. The instruction may not be clear then, and I can clarify what open and empty is. So I'm saying again, as you open and empty, the Absolute is apparent, God's presence is palpable, and the world is shining brightly. Quote-unquote, time—not a real time—against the Absolute is apparent. There is time. This is a question, for example, that only your heart can answer. What is the change in environment between then and right now? That's all. That's all that this switch is about. The light beyond perception, the parents, the light of God is in its core as the vibration of being. All of this clever reflection of that very same light. He doesn't put it in any lower degree because the reflection of God is also God. For that instant you insert 'yes, but'—'but' means something in reality changed. But your life has changed, or how life seems has completely changed. That's why this is called Maya, although it does not exist in reality, and yet in the VR experience, compute the hypnosis. There is no Maya. It is from an individual perspective that plays squeezing your neck. Call it Leela. In the hypnosis of thought, to call this Leela is just fooling ourselves. God's plan? Not yet empty of it. Empty of the mind in the Unborn, no mind. What is all this? It's my pleasure. Then we can say it's a decent.

Look at it. Clouds. What can you see in there? Cloud shapes and make meanings. That stops. And that doesn't completely stop. It's not 100% stop here, but compared to how it was before I met Guruji, I would say 99% stop. And I don't pressurize myself for 100%. Thank you for that moment. Did you decide to not go back? I actually felt it is so clear, but the mind was giving one thing: 'If I lose this also.' Share this story, but it was here also, there. 'What if I go to sleep today and wake up tomorrow morning?' No sleeping. So your mind was playing with this stuff. So not a recommendation, it's not a template, but I feel like that two, three months after meeting him, life made this phase where I could just sit without much happening here. I felt like that was very helpful. The things you wouldn't need to bother with writings. I keep going through this. We have a lot of the punching had already happened here, so I was already pretty smashed when I met Guruji. So a lot of the inside presence of being, a lot of that happened through that whole play of sadhana so many years. It's like when I went to Guruji, it was all pretty much little to some level. You can't really say what happened.

Like, how can I? Absolutely. You are absolutely sure right now, but not in the head. First you have to see that there are two sources of inside. Sources inside, because try as you might, you cannot squeeze this in your head. The hammer will never tell you the weight of the room, no matter how much you try. What shows you, what tells you that you exist? What is that source of inside? What brings being? Be polite for you. Stay there. Who do you love? I don't have to reveal her name. How do you know? Is it just out of feeling? Your girlfriend? Once you have children, it could be anyone. It could be even simpler, right? Have you heard some music where you did not understand the words but still you loved it? Or do you love like Beethoven's something or a Bach something? Where do you recognize it? Go to anything which is truly valuable. Where it is when you say 'feel,' you are talking about like an intuitive feeling. You're not talking about feeling him as I keep talking about my children. I know I love them even if they may be frustrating me at the moment. It's like, do I have to run your own works? You see, the anger may be there, and yet somebody says, 'Do you love your children?' Yes. How do you know? It's not—I may not be feeling that love. Wait, where did that love go? Now in my body, the found emotions. That's what I'm saying. Empty of that. Suppose that emotion is not there at the moment. It is anger. To make up some situation: suppose your son had his SAT exam and he didn't put the alarm clock, so he missed it. In that moment of emotion of love—the emotion—and yet somebody says, 'Truly, do you love him?' Yes. So there is a deeper knowing which is independent of emotion, and that is how you love God.

I may not be feeling that loud. Wait, where did that love go now in my body? The found emotions—that's what I'm saying. Empty of that. Suppose that emotion is not there at the moment. It is anger. To make up some situation: suppose your son had his SAT exam and he didn't put the alarm clock, so he missed it. In that moment of emotion, of love, the emotion is gone. And yet, if somebody says, 'Truly, do you love him?' you say, 'Yes.' So there is a deeper knowing which is independent of emotion, and that is how you love God. I'm not always feeling the love of God. Anytime you're feeling 'Why me?' to God, somewhere you must love God, but it is not dependent on the feeling always. And with the Master, yeah, over the years, I'm sure we frustrated each other enough, but there's never a lack of love. If somebody asks, 'Do you still love us?' and of course, does he always make you feel hot? Where is that now?

So many times, I don't know. For the first few weeks, I didn't understand anything you said in Satsang. I've got these reports so often, and yet I knew I had to be here. I knew I had to be here. Where was it known? Not feeling, not heart. Thought was saying, maybe even attacking, saying, 'Who's this stupid guy? Look at the clothes he wears, look at his whatever.' It can happen day to day also. Today, I just didn't want to come to Satsang, but my bike got me here. Not really the bike got you here; you intuitively knew. So what is that? Really know God made you know God. Where do you know that there is a Self beyond perception? The value is only known there. That is complete information, I think. A value is only known there.

The voice in a rush, the voice which pretends to be the know-it-all, the voice which is telling you that you're limited in time, is not the voice of love to the species. But that Satguru presence and divine intelligence, where your Self is apparent to you, where your being is palpable, that is not a matter of perception. None of you have perceived the unlimited being. If you have perceived an unlimited being, you are imagining, which encompasses this universe as if it is like a layer on top of the world. That's all nonsense. It's not like that. Unperceivably true that your being is boundless. Where is this known to you? Only rely on that. Rely on that no matter what the situation is, what the challenges may seem. That is your Satguru presence. Surrender to them. Risk your life on it. In fact, beyond risk of life, sacrifice your head to it. You have understood as much as can be understood. Now you have to jump without guarantee.

Can you just breathe a bit on the presence? This Self-apparency is same as God's presence, as your anybody's presence would be to see presence. Presence. Okay, I can feel the presence. Yeah, I can. I can change this. Can you? So let's verify. Okay, so I said as you open and empty, your Self is apparent to you. It means that 'I am aware'—that awareness is apparent. Check, all of us. Let's check this together. You just effortlessly open and empty. Are we aware only of perceptions? I know the question has become familiar; I'll find a new one. But let's treat it as if it is fresh. As you open and empty, are you aware only of perception, or is there something beyond perception that you can confirm?

Confirmed. No, it's not this perception. The witnessing of perception, which is I. I am witnessing these perceptions. It cannot be perceived, and yet it's confirmed that I am witnessing them.

So effortlessly, effortlessly the Self is apparent. You mean like that your being has a boundary? You exist. That is your being. Is your being palpable? Try to stop being. If it's confusing, it's okay. For three years reading Maharaj, I was confused. I had no idea. I was done. I knew in my heart he is speaking the truth, but I could not find this being. Like, what is this 'I am'? What is this? Try to stop being. In the attempt to stop being, it becomes very clear. The presence of being is presence. Presence of being you can bring your attention to is not the entirety of it, but maybe keep that for a moment. And then, is there any distinction between the appearance of the world and you as you open and empty? Is there a world and me?

No.

Yes. And this is the nature of this. The mind feels immediately threatened. You're having effortlessly, you're recognizing the highest Absolute, you're recognizing God's presence, and you're recognizing the world's life as a reflection of God's life. It is what we are celebrating today anyway. So the mind obviously will be certain because it has no legs to stand on. All that the Masters have proposed is being just made into findings and being fed to you, obviously. But now it is up to you which voice will you listen to. If you sacrifice your head to the Lord, the choice is clear. If you still want to keep your head and be in the heart, it's going to be a struggle. More spiritual seekers fail, more spiritual seekers fear, because they don't risk enough. And what is the risk enough? To risk it all.

So the difference between a God-assisted life and a God-dictated life is really the difference between lifetime seeking and a combination of true insight. So if all you want is a God-assisted life, it's still about the non-existent 'me'. If you're willing to bow your head down, see you tomorrow, then walk in the mind down. You can only push the button that you hold up for me. Getting it? Who's that one? The protagonist of that story is like the truth is knocking your door down. Do anything? No. Caught in the storm, the thunderstorm of God where the mind is in, you're not getting wet. To jump into this complete surrender, we're already jumping.

Try to be open and empty. Your awareness is apparent. Your being is so in this being. Feels like within this, no distinction between this already. Then the witnessing doesn't seem to be dry. I want to see that. Is the witnessing a product of your—is the confirmation of the witnessing a product of attention, or even your being for that matter? At best, we may see the difference. Appearance of the world soothing my attention because attention itself is limited. If I ask you, is your being limited? So where is your being known? It cannot be through attention, although your attention may rest on it. The recognition of your beingness, the recognition of the vastness of your being, is not a product of your attention. The unlimited nature of your being cannot be known with a limited instrument called attention. It has to be only with intuition. It has something to do with the play of being, the projection of this. What objectives? So the primordial vibration, the presence of the time. But that presence of being confirms the presence of being, not the vastness of being itself. That is known in intuition.

So although it is a beautiful exercise to rest your attention in your being, confirmation of your consciousness does not need attention. How many of you are feeling like you're meeting this, or this is meeting you? But okay. It is, yeah. It's funny. If you're taking effort, you're going in the wrong direction anyway. What I'm saying is instantly apparent to you, except under the brief moment of hypnosis of a thought. Always apparent. Even the notion of timelessness, where can you meet even the idea of eternity? Where can it be? So all our worldly references can only be in time. 'Oh, from yesterday and today I have not felt angry.' How long will we keep that up and measure our timelessness? So when we say 'Rest in Peace' on somebody's passing, it's not alien to us. Where is it now? Where do you know that that one has not died, that we are wishing them rest in peace? Is it just pure hope?

Next question: the word asking, is it pure hope or a belief? Well, somewhere you know you were not born. Somewhere you know you will not die. In fact, death is an alien concept to you because you say, even people who have never come to Satsang, you say, 'Maybe in this life rest is not there for me.' And death is really into you. There is eternal life apparently. Is it apparent somewhere? Somewhere? Or where is that? Not in your head. If you have sacrificed yourself, you can get to know you. Where is the boundless independent? Which time is that? You see, already be that. That time is a projection within being, and yet we can also see that even being comes and goes. So we are already comfortable with two frames of references of time. Yeah, where is that? Seems like the mind cannot fathom two times. So now even time one, which is the projection of beingness, time two, and where being also comes and goes, and the eternal timelessness—three times. Where can you meet that? Impossible. Okay, somewhere all this is very natural. One to three times, hundreds, millions of times. So what we do is to try and understand. We feel like understanding is a value. Exactly, exactly. Because never in the mind can be confirmed such a thing.

Thank you so much, Father. Fury between—I experience deep sleep. Many times we are able to say, 'I never experienced it because...' and then I say, 'How do you know that you were there to see even that?' But I don't even know what I was saying. I would do any contribution to know my own, my own. So apparent. That explains how is it that apparency is called intuition.

That apparency is called intuition because the apparency seems to be lost in the hypnosis, and in the apparency it is known that it's the unchanging reality. And yet the job is to make that apparency seem unapparent. Make your timelessness seem like it is time-bound. This is bound by space, that whatever. So when it is apparent, we call it intuition. Then it is whatever I may be doing, I am in the knowledge of my existence. Doesn't be now. If by knowledge you mean that it is apparent, then in the hypnosis it is not a fact. If by knowledge you mean that when it is apparent it is known that it is always that way because you—

So can it be that when I use my mind, then I realized that what I was mistaking was that this thing was what changed before and during the inquiry? So the change was I realized that that 'I', that person thing, is an idea, and it's not that 'I am' is not. You realize it as an intellectual calculation?

No, no. So I—that's it. Please forgive me. I mean, that's what I see you is that it just has nothing to do with this individual way, you know? Any certain things you know, what is recognized? What is recognized? Who is that you intuit?

Yeah, when I intuit, I intuit that I'm an effort. When you intuit everything, it is not that you intuit something now. As you intuit the entire ocean, in that intuition, the wave may rise to the surface of your mouth. 'Oh God' may rise to the surface of your mouth, and it may express that this is what was recognized. The recognition was never limited.

No perception. Okay, intuit something as a specific recognition and show. It's a beautiful contemplation. To a specific intuition, can you do it quality? There's no specificity. It is either the knowing of all there is or not knowing anything at all. And beyond all that appears is different from all there is in the way we're using. So when I say that as you open and empty, you intuit yourself as awareness, you intuit your presence as God, and you intuit all that appears as the reflection of God itself. It's all in an instant together. So when I say all there is, all of all.

Father's best emptiness itself has done emptiness as well. There is this concept of knowing all, yes. And that seems to, you know, like the mind will feel you don't know this, you don't know that. But there is emptiness in reference to a category of full and empty in the mind.

Yeah, now let's read even that. Let's see you in there. It's a full open and empty without even open and empty. Now what is the basis of knowing this? Can be fun. Basis of this knowing. Is it open? Is it empty? Is it full? Is it all? Is it nothing? What is this? Small and empty. I mean, then are you recognizing this all at one time or piece? Try to recognize only like only see the presence and don't see God's light in the world. Don't see that you are aware. Is there arising or—

In the mind, yeah. Now let's read even that. Let's see you in there. It's a full open and empty, without even open and empty. Now what is the basis of knowing this? It can be fun. What is the basis of this knowing? Thank you. Is it open? Is it empty? Is it full? Is it all? Is it nothing? What is this? Is it small and empty? I mean, then are you recognizing this all at one time or piece by piece? Try to recognize only like, only see the presence and don't see God's light in the world. Don't see that you are aware. Is there arising or not arising now? Okay, tell me what you're saying just for communication and what you're hearing. Tell me which part questions.

I feel like I take it in my head and I'm like, it's like doubt arises and it takes it like, what is the capital of Timbuktu? I don't know. I don't like that I know what notices. Some kind of benchmarking can happen here.

We will prerequisite benchmarking is the process of the mind. So as you open and empty, you allow it to come. As you're diving into the ocean, now these clouds appear, it doesn't matter so much. Oh, you know nothing at all. In true insight, everything is known, and in very hypnosis, nothing at all. Right? There is not an instrument made that can validate this. It's a complete hocus pocus. Like, where is the evidence of this? Not with your tools, within the heart. If we had only the mind available to us, it's a complete no. They revealed so much, so somewhere we know it. Is anybody else?

To be honest, I should feel one way or another about like, something that's weird to watch this video. The best way to watch this movie, because what's gonna happen in the next scene?

Okay, we did that episode. You cannot be her. That's right. There is so confusing, the spiritual egos. I also, among these, are the same. Why should I bow down? This is that's what the whole Ramayana is about. One is a very learned scripture, it is relying on his conception inside, aggravating history. Why should I bow down to Ram? Oh, God cannot be one for you to bow down. That's where it comes from. So to observe the intelligence of even nature of its knowledge, there's no other tool available where you can know everything, you see. So if you send your mind and then do we know everything? It does not happen to have the capacity to pull out, you see. And yet it is not that that knowledge doesn't come. It cannot sprout out. And that is why, and things like that, people are still making scientific discoveries which are proving the facts of the way. Einstein said anything ninety-nine times, but only when I swim in the ocean of silence do my greatest insights come. Scientists are probably the greatest scientists because if the desire is to know everything, then everything cannot be known and there's no real benefit to it. There's no real benefit to this knowledge from the mind to the greatest gift you give to your true selves from a personal perspective, which doesn't have to have any benefit of this.

So this content, what is, for example, the benefits that Maharaja got, or Bhagwan got? And personally speaking, I mean, they got the greatest gift and they passed on the greatest gift to anyone who has opened. But you look at her as a frail old man, died of cancer. What was the great benefit he got? Maharaja, nobody wants a life like that. Still lived in that small house in Mumbai, not even did not even die ever again in India. He got the highest gift and he gave the highest gift. And so much for all of you because you're meeting it and whatever, what is being revealed to you, that is what naturally you will share. You can't help this. This one, I couldn't help it. You will always share your truths, whether there are words or not. Nobody knows. How do you know what happened to him? How does he know what happened? Just sitting here, something, no value, not compute. Using the experience with outside, I mean by seeing somebody who has been, we have some electric current things, can't say it's zapped. How do we know this need to, and you have mentioned that tremendous transaction to 100 is never possible. There's a continuous thirst for that or more than that keeps coming back.

What do you mean by thirst? Is it the same way that you are longing for the truth?

That is, longs for the truth. It is not longing for two things. See, if it is multi-directional, you say, 'I want the truth on God or the Self,' which is all the same thing, 'and by the way, I also want the mind to become...' We have that like this. Just check. It's like a question arises like, God, exactly what are you waiting for? If the question is at all, then the thought is not longing for the truth. Your heart is longing for the truth because if it is only a thought saying, 'What is true? What is true?' you would have said bye-bye long back. What pulls you here? That something is your heart. So trust only that. Trust only that. As humble or as useful as the desire may seem from the head, sacrificing... okay, don't do that. You are not doing that. The mind will propose that to you based on perception. Again, the mind proposes that something has changed. Notice that I am right there. This one is only to enable that meeting. Just don't confuse them to be my reality. And anyway, if it is closed captioning, not available to know, I don't know anything. It's as bad as knowing, thinking that I know anything.