Recognizing the Truth, Still Conditioning Can Play Out - 26th May 2016

Okay, so I feel to say something about this. I don't feel actually it is true that we don't speak about once the glimpse of the truth is seen, then what next. Because especially in the last few months where you've been there, I've been sharing this: that the recognition of the truth, the seeing of the truth of what you are, is not necessarily the predominant end of the conditioning, or the dissolution of conditioning. It doesn't here necessarily mean that if the truth has been witnessed, the recognition or an awakening experience has happened, it doesn't necessarily mean that it is the end of conditioning.

So what is it that leads to the end of conditioning? For that we have to understand what is the meaning of conditioning. Where are these conditions? These conditions are just ideas that we have attached to the presence. Now what happens is that as these ideas are being dropped... I've been talking about diet. You don't have to, when you're on a diet, you don't have to specifically say, 'Today I will focus on the food that I ate three days ago, today I will focus on the food I had yesterday.' When you're dieting and you're not picking up new food, then all that has to be burned from the past is also getting burnt on its own.

So as you're not buying any thoughts about Anil and attaching them to the pure presence 'I am,' then all the previous conditioning will also take care of itself. And as this conditioning is dissolving and you're not buying any ideas about yourselves, then you'll find that this sense of 'I-am-ness' also seems to become more and more transparent. I know it seems to be heavier when it has a lot of ideas attached to it, but as they are dropping—now including the ideas that 'I haven't got this, I should get this, and then I will be free, this is what this one says, this is what that one says, and then I will give myself the freedom certificate'—drop all these ideas because they are just attachments to the pure presence.

And as you rid yourself from all of these concepts, you will come to this point where you see the 'I-am-ness' is very transparent, very light. It's like a contact lens which you can't even feel and yet you know that it exists. Rushing, rushing—'I want this, it's been so long and I haven't got this'—just allow yourself now to not go with that urge to pick up from the conveyor belt of thoughts just now. And in this diet of conditioning, you find that as it's dying out, the sense of 'I-am-ness' just seems like an auxiliary.

From this point on, any amount of trying or trying to mentally understand it, or any amount of conceptual frameworks, any amount of truth-seeking in scriptures or in various masters' words, none of that is going to really help. It is your openness, your nakedness. Don't try to cover yourself up with any ideas. For some of us, some fear can come, some anxiety can come about this. Remaining still in this way is very uncomfortable for the mind. The mind wants to come with something. Then one day, if you allow this mind to just come, and one day you find that your mouth is just being used by the Presence itself, then you will find that there is great fragrance of love and peace that can mix from you. Just give up all your trying and efforts. Allow this mind to come. The one Being, one Presence, let it flow from here. It is not different. I look forward to hearing the same words which you share accompanied by the fragrance of love, peace, and joy.

Bhagavan, I just have a small query. Like for almost 20 years I'm on anti-anxiety medicines, so they are keeping a lot of things under the carpet. So the suppressed energies which should come out in the process, they are not coming out. As soon as I reduce the medicines, you know, havoc happens. It's almost like a Tandava, Shiva Tandava, that is what happens. Totally uncontrolled energies. So I have this doubt whether I should continue to keep them suppressed with the medicines or I should take a plunge and slowly, slowly, you know, taper off the medicines and let the suppressed energies come out. But it will be hell. It will really be hell. So what should I do?

Having some experience of this in my life also, I can say that there is no reason to subject yourself to any type of hell. There will come a day with my Master's Grace where these anxious thoughts, anxious ideas, anxious energy will be allowed to be released, but there's no rush to play with that now. Because here you're coming to more and more recognition, more and more insights about who you are. We don't have to add another factor into this and say, 'Okay, let me now also deal with these suppressed energies.' No. You come to this seeing and this dissolution of as much conditioning as possible, and then Grace will unfold in this way also when it is meant to.

So for now, the feeling is to say that don't necessarily be in a rush to taper off or to feel 'I don't need this' or whatever. In fact, I would say that just whatever your wife says you do, you do that in terms of your medicine. She says don't take panga, she says don't take panga. Sounds like okay.

Okay, thank you Bhagavan. Thank you so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you for your Grace. Bhagavan's Grace, thank you.