How to Come to This Surrender? - 15th November 2017

See, how to come to this surrender has been what we've been talking about last few days. That to be surrendered means to have no idea, to not know anything at all. Now of course, when pain is there, the pain is experienced and you check tightly to see who is suffering from this pain. But whatever the objective experience might be, inquiry means to look at what witness is that. So whether it is energetic sensation in the throat or if it is a concept of something, to inquire means to know what witness is that, what is perceiving, moving, whatever the content of the experience might be, whatever the content of the experience.

So the problem is that when we inquire with the expectation, then there's always this monkey on our back which is saying, 'Is the symptom going away? Is the feeling moving? Am I feeling better?' And so today I've been saying that just inquire for inquiry's sake. Inquire for the truth. It is worth it independent of any other benefit. And as you make no conclusion, does inquiry become so open that no conclusion is forming about anything? Then you will see that surrender and inquiry are actually one.

Because you will never find 'I' which you can see that is me. No notion will ever live up to your discovery of yourself. You will say, 'There is no me, I can't find me.' These things you will say. You never will be able to point in any direction and say that is me, and yet it is your very own discovery. This is the beauty of this. So many get frustrated because, 'I've been looking at for this for so long, I just don't find it. How many satsangs does it take? How much inquiry does it take?' because it can feel like one day I will find the 'I' as if it is an experience. But the truth is much more obvious than that, simpler than that, but cannot be painted in a picture, cannot be described in a concept, and yet it is your very Self.

As we remain empty of any concept and notion about everything, then that is surrender. And inquiry, through to the inquiry, it is apparent and there is never a sufferer, there is never some owner of anything. Unless there is a notion actually present, then actually even the terms... I really will say something like, but at this point even the terms inquiry and surrender will become empty. It will just be used when the Satguru puts them in your mouth to share with others. All concepts like body, world, universe, God, consciousness, awareness—they don't point to anything at all.