Get Used to Your Emptiness - 4th November 2016

Can I tell you something? Can I tell you something? Even the one that is reporting that 'I can see the person very clearly' is the checker guy. It is very tricky. When subtly, it is very subtle. It is almost a sticky and slimy manifestation of the ego because it is uncomfortable not to have a conclusion about ourselves. It is uncomfortable to just be open initially. But this is what you have to get used to. You have to get used to your emptiness without any interpretation of the emptiness, without any conclusion about anything. This is opening. As easy as we are open, there are no interpretations, no conclusions, no labels. All there is, is this natural sense of existence and a natural sense of awareness of even this existence. All other reports, everything can be allowed to just come and go. Just come and go. Don't make any conclusion about yourself, you see. That is my Brahmastra against this checker guy: don't make any report, don't make any conclusion about yourself. And soon, it is my blessing that we will really make no reports about you.

It's just... it's really possibly it's a part of the play because when such a thing happened, it was so clearly seen that really everything unfolds as it's supposed to be. It was really like, 'Wow, I have not done anything.' It was given also. I stepped... the whole life, everything, everything was unfolding from the first opening when I was twenty-six. Everything was just a gift from there. And now this last, as you said, that's the psyche. Everything has been greased.

Everything. All our sublime experiences, all our seemingly terrible experiences have all been part of the play. Not a blade of grass moves without... does not move... not a blade of grass moves without the will of my Father. So all has been His play always, you see. So just allow it to just unfold naturally. In fact, if I were to give you a blessing, I would say you forget about that experience knowledge.

Yeah, give me which...

Yeah, absolutely. I'm here to listen to the most which the egoic self doesn't want to listen. Then I forget about... then sometimes it can hurt, you see. Sometimes it can poke because 'don't take this away from me, it was the best experience, don't take this.' But you see, in that itself is attachment. Attachment means to label something 'mine.' Even if you label an experience 'mine,' it is already an attachment, is it? But whatever, no matter how sublime the experience was—for me, yeah, no matter how sublime the experience was—this recognition of the truth is always fresh and here now. To go to memory is not needed at all. To go to memory only means that I am still catering to the idea that I am a separate entity who had this experience and now there is something left to be done again. Leave all these ideas. Remain open, fresh, in a simple allowing. Allowing everything to come and go.

That's why actually in the Satsang today I shared that recognition experiences, which can be labeled awakening experiences, are very beautiful but not necessarily the end of conditioning because the mind can try and use that also to try and get some hold, is it? Hold over you that 'I had this experience, this happened with me.' Any time you find yourself making the story, know that it is the checker guy, this report as 'I' which is operating.

So the one who is watching the checker guy... because I have to say, I can see the checker guy, but it's still there. Its existence is here and it is there.

Show me. Show how it is. Ready to check it now? When you check, where is it? Right? It doesn't exist. It only exists when we... only seems to exist when we believe our thoughts. And stay with this feeling of limbo, you see. A feeling of limbo will come. We will feel like, 'Okay, but now what?' What can seem a bit strange, you see. But allow yourself to experience that. This is just some withdrawal symptoms from our addiction to the mind. It will try and make a report because this has been nourished. It will keep coming to you with the report: 'You are not being open enough. You're not really... this is still the checker guy,' you see. 'Only the checker guy is still working.' It is still trying to sell you these stories. Just let them come and go. Allow them to come and go. Yes. Let's see. Anything okay? That's my relationship. Thank you.