Flow Chart Talk - 23th November 2016

And I feel like I want to reemphasize this over and over again that right now you are free. It is actually the end of story. But if you have a 'but', then I have a suggestion. If you don't have a 'but', then I have no suggestion. If you have a 'but', then my suggestion is: don't believe your next thought. Is it okay? So first, emptiness. But something, something happened to me. I say, okay, don't buy this story. That's the first. And you say, 'But I keep buying it. It keeps happening to me.' Then I say, find out in reality whether there is such a 'me' at all, you see? So first was let go. I say no, no, but I keep falling for it. I say, okay, inquire into who is that 'I'?

No, but in inquiry it's not really working. And I say, okay, see what is real and what is not real. 'But my mind is too cloudy. It doesn't let me see. I'm not able to distinguish, discriminate between what is eternal and what is just momentary.' Okay, maybe you just need to sit and focus on your breath and just relax your mind a bit so it becomes a bit quiet and then you can see. 'You know, mind doesn't quieten. Yeah, it just doesn't become quiet. I sit and I'm not able to.' Okay, then maybe I give you a mantra. I'm going through the flowchart fast. Then maybe I give you a mantra. Maybe you do the mantra and then maybe your mind will become... the habit will break a little bit and you will come to some quietness of the mind.

'Can't even, can't even chant.' Okay, then can you maybe... that will bring energetic peace in your life. 'I don't enjoy it. It's just too boring and I don't believe in God anyway.' Okay, so then can you move your body in certain steps, in movements, or you sit in a particular pose and breathe like that? Maybe that will bring some peace, that'll bring some quiet. 'Yeah, I did for a few days. It was very nice, very nice, but now I just...' So that is how the flowchart is flowing from there, that stillness, to this point.

Then okay, what is it that you really want? Because if it is not feeling to do this, this, this—none of this—then maybe you're climbing up the wrong tree, you see? So what is it that you really want? You see, I don't know. You see, many times it comes like this. When you find people who are not able to get any in that ladder, then it seems that they have a problem with the wall actually, not with the ladder. They're climbing the wrong wall. What is it that you really want? Say, 'I want to climb on that wall.' Oh, that wall? For that I have a different ladder. Otherwise, usually it is found that some rung in this so-called ladder seems to be attractive if it is the truth that we want, the reality of the Self that we want. Somewhere we find some joy in any of this.

So what we usually talk about is that it can be the first rung. It doesn't have to be the top rung. We can make ourselves feel better by saying, okay, ours is the top rung of the ladder, which is so direct, right there, you see? Because all of it is coming to this point that you are right now. What you are is the Self. That is the so-called top rung of the ladder. If there's a 'but', then we go to the lower rung. There's another 'but'.