Fear of dissovling or being too happy - How will I be with clients? - 6 April 2016

Yeah, I was at work. I was having lunch in a restaurant and feeling very good. I began to feel very expansive and very expansive and very expansive. And then all of a sudden, I felt, 'Uh oh, I better not dissolve because I have a new client coming and I can't dissolve,' you know? And then I said that I'm a psychotherapist and it would be okay if I'm just the Being in my work. And I wondered if you had any comments about that fear. I think that was the fear in that moment. I think I caught myself and pulled myself back. Do you have any suggestions if you... that Being as I go? That place is very good actually because, and especially in this hour, we have many psychotherapists. I just know this terms of dropping what was... that to be very helpful for you to bring this sense of peace to the clients which are coming. And as we... maybe we can help. All of the psychotherapy... Shakti is also here, so maybe she can share from what she feels about this. Yes, how do you deal with the fear? That fear of dissolving. That's because I felt myself dissolving in this wonderful peace and happiness, and then there was the fear. And so I would like to know how to deal with them, either with your other therapist...

I want to say almost what I can say is that the fear really doesn't matter because you're already That. The fear is just some reaction that has been trained into us from the imagining that we're separate. Yeah, so we haven't lost anything when we feel that fear. Hmm, but that's good enough. It's as though consciousness is so economical, it doesn't waste anything. So when we feel this expansion and then a contraction, it's as though it's just saying, 'Look here, look here with this place that's maybe still tight.' But we can't not be what we are. We only can be pointed to what we're imagining. And what the mind wants to do, in my experience of this experience, the mind wants to say that we failed or that we've lost our chance. But it's not so. We just get to look at this place that was imagining that it could do something wrong or lose. Good, good, that's encouraging. Yeah, yeah. And I would say to you also that there's so much mercy in the Self. Okay, so that... be merciful with each other, with ourselves. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Yeah, thank you.

With me is, I think the mind knows we can come and see it. If you just God, then you're going to make a mess of it. Because, yeah, being mind says you can't just be Being right now. You have to be Lucia, you see? You have to be a respectful therapist. Yes, Being doesn't know anything about psychotherapy. She... let me wait. This is very primal and this is very common also, and we face this every day. That if you start... mind says if you start going to Satsang, who's going to pay your bills? How will your responsibilities be managed? What is your future going to look like? You're being completely irresponsible. You're not even concerned about your patients. How can you just let the... call you must make Lucia? This is because God might... you got out of control, just out of control. If not, maybe Eric... this one that doesn't... it is that we believe can be in control and can project the right image of ourselves.

See, this is the jewel. One that runs this entire universe and planets and gravity, electricity, lights on, all of this—this One cannot be a good psychotherapist? Oh yeah, Lucia can do it, but God cannot? It's upside down and upside down for my little bit. That's very funny. It's very funny, but when you put it that way, it's very funny. I can't sit in there because I don't know what God is going to do. He might make a complete mess of it. Yeah, God forbid I should let God do it! Planning, plenty, many sequences... consciousness has been playing this role forever. It's only consciousness which has been in these roles. If you find that roles and continue it, they have to... more expectation of what must happen on all... Raven, you know Michael, is it funny? Don't know, not now. Describe affected. All right, all right. How we looking for freedom or I dialogue many lifetimes? What is where it was going right here? We wait a couple hours. You waited too long. I can't... you put it off a couple hours, right? Right, not right before I have this very difficult new client! Oh my God, oh it was like funny.

I really, really, really want you to... my one nothing else, which is what we do. When I'm off, when I'm not at work, when I'm off work in two hours, then you can give up my life for freedom. Take my life, just not this one time! Just one point that no one has been able to figure out how to deal with, and they've come to me just when this finding it to you have to come and save me. Laughter therapy, yes. No, is this what it was meant for? All the ones of be free comedian in her head. Right, right. I'm down on my hands and knees praying before my... Maha God, give me freedom, that's all I wanted. Right, over like, 'Oh wait, no ways. Give me two hours.' Another way, not now. Give me two hours, a lot. I'm good to go. Water them... know how God is, you scooping... Buster glide with God. What if I'm too happy for them? The psychotherapist you move in... what if I'm too happy for the people around me? Want you to be exact, you know? There's a lot to be happy living. Laughs below the babies. But this is wonderful. Trump cards of mind, some cards with me.