Experiencing Does Not Disappear in Realization - 8th January 2018

But I wonder sometimes, what is that ultimate state where there is no feeling, where there is no concern about anything? Is that... is the waking state appears, that pivot of phenomena will be perceived?

Yes, which is all-inclusive of whatever the phenomena might be. There is no such ultimate state. It's just like you discovered that this hand is the truth. Suppose now this hand is unmoving, not going anywhere, nothing is happening. It is the primal witnessing, the primal knowingness itself. Now a finger came. Now it's still the same hand. The hand has remained the hand also, but now one qualitative aspect has appeared. Let's call that consciousness, being. With the appearance of this consciousness, the Self has remained the Self only, but now all the phenomenal play is starting. And in the light of this consciousness appears the world. The world of activity begins, and in the world of activity, all this play of feelings, of events, of actions will happen.

So, this is a distinction between doership, or the sense of doership, and the end of activity. So you see that there is no individual doer of actions, and yet activities continue. Even though wanting to be like a non-doer is a doing. So in this realm of activities, activities will continue to happen, feelings will continue to come, perceptions will continue to be perceived. So the ultimate state you want to know, you are right now. That's where you know that. And that's the... but before the 'but'. That's where... what are you less than ultimate? No.

See, but that things affect in the city life. When I go back, it gets... I feel like there is some something which needs to be flushed out, some toxins accumulate, or you can say something like that.

Yes, because like he was saying earlier, maybe the insight has been given back to this reference point. This is a very important point and many, many are missing this. This is very important. You had the insight that you are the Self. You met Guruji, in his darshan you saw that you are the Self. Did this body see it? No. The Self was beyond all of this, isn't it? So what does that have to do with this body? Nothing. So whether this body continues to react in anger to some situations or doesn't react in anger to some situations, what does that have to do with the Self then?