Dissolution of the Idea of Personhood is Freedom - 13 May 2016

Mind comes so tricky. It'll give you very beautiful ideas. The reality of you is already complete; it doesn't need anything at all. Because even a beautiful idea, if you buy something that just wants to dissolve or fall or something, then it keeps saying, 'Yes, yes, almost fallen, almost just have to take one last step.' Don't fall for the idea that you have to fall. Don't fall for any ideas. Don't worry about what happens next. When dropping these ideas, fear can come and the message will come saying, 'What's going to happen now? Now what? Now?' Stay. Stay. Don't move. Let these ideas come and go. Then it might seem like even the body is shaking. There's so much fear sometimes it feels like, or so much sometimes Bliss can come. Don't make any judgments about it. Don't go with any conclusions about it. Let all of this also come and go because your reality is not shaking. The truth is not moving.

And if we did not have this power to pretend, the power to believe, then none of these appearances would ever seem to have any of this personal juice. But you're here because you're done with the personal juice now. You want the nectar of immortality, not this personal achievement. But it feels to you that you don't know how to drop this sense of personal achievement. Therefore, the sense of Freedom also you want to achieve personally, but that is not possible. The sense of Freedom also you want to achieve personally, but that is not possible. It is the dissolution of this idea of personal which is freedom. And the best news is that there is no person right now. There is none. Who is clear that right now there is no person? Let's show of hands please, if possible. Clear? No? Right now there is no person.

So now don't go with anything which is personal. And what is personal? Only the voice of this mind. The recognition that there is no person, I am this awareness, is already here now. Now all that is happening is in the play—the dropping of all that is false, all our false beliefs. Now if you're trying to get rid of the false, if you're trying to lose weight, then don't eat the hamburger thoughts. Losing the weight of conditioning and continuing to feast on conditioning—that is not it.

There's a restaurant in UK, if I'm not wrong, where you just sit at your table and there's a conveyor belt in front of you. You see? You heard? You've been there? So what happens is all the tables are around this conveyor belt. Now our habit has become so much to not just look—so giving our attention is looking at what is coming, and giving it belief is to take it and eat it, consume it. So our habit has been so much, okay, and then you say, 'I want to lose weight, but I'm not going to... this appearance of the conveyor belt is not stopping, so how do I lose weight?' So I say, okay, you can't stop looking because you're too curious right now, so look. But at least you can avoid the taking and the eating. Then you say, 'No, I want to lose weight, but I want to continue to eat.' So whatever concept... okay, enjoy the play and enjoy the food.

So a thought comes with some temptation. The conveyor belt, this very fancy dish comes. Attention goes to it. You're looking. It's passing by. You pick it up, you eat it up. Then the next thought, the next dish that comes on the conveyor belt is, 'What? You shouldn't have done that.' And you're looking at that and you're too quick to pick up that one. And then the next thought, the next dish on the conveyor belt is, 'What? See, now you're stuck in this.' And you pick up that. You see? This is how the chef is very smart. This is how you seem to just keep on putting on weight. Many of us seem to keep putting on a lot of spiritual weight also with spiritual concepts, spiritual ideas. We are consuming, consuming ideas, ideas.