Can You Be Somebody Without a Thought? - 15th November 2017

If you have to be somebody, you have to be somebody, can you do it without thought? It has to be clear. Clear has to be rather. How would you do it? You'd have to pick up some clear thoughts. I'd have to pick up someone that wants some ideas about who you are. Without that, you cannot do it. In fact, you're not anybody right now. Can it be this simple? The ego that you're trying to get rid of, you are rid of it if you're done with all concepts about yourself. What is there to do?

I often say that if this was the last page of your autobiography and the pen just stopped or the keyboard just stopped typing, nothing more to write. Not even one last 'I'm free.' Not even that one last 'I got it finally.' Nothing. You just lost all sense of identity and nothing you can say about yourself no longer feels like the truth. Not even 'Are you okay with this?' So here I asked, are you okay with not even that? Just don't make a sentence. Nothing to report, nothing to complain, no more interpretation of anything.

Who are you without your story? Who are you without the concepts about yourself? Are you somebody? We learned this, how to be somebody. We have learnt this bad habit. They even told you, 'You must be somebody.' Now that somebody is trying to be a nobody. Everything is written in Satsang. 'I'm just trying to become nobody and I just... I'm trying every day.' That's somebody trying to be a nobody. God pretending to be a person pretending to be God. Drop one notion. Now, whatever notion you have, that would be one that started, but it's too simple. I can complicate it a bit. I can bring big words like consciousness and awareness into the picture. Actually, you don't need any concept.

Show me a boundary. Can you show me a boundary? What this stuff is about is, is there a boundary inside the body? Is the body a boundary? Is a body your boundary? Outside the body, is it outside the zoo? Where do you start? I asked you, and yesterday I was asking, what does 'I' represent for you? To get into your own life, there is no need to explain it. There's no need to proclaim it. And because 'I' represents something, I've also been encouraging all of you to say 'I.' 'I will do this.' 'I represent.' And I don't mean conversationally, I mean seriously, with integrity. What does it represent for you? This is an inquiry worth doing.

What are the options? Is 'I' a set of sensations which you call the body? Is 'I' just a name, a sister name pointing to nothing? Is 'I' a representation of all your memories? Who is this 'I'? Is 'I' an object called awareness? Is it a thing called the Self? Because many times even these can become concepts. So, 'I am the Self.' What do you mean by Self? No, who are you? 'I am awareness.' There is awareness behind. Behind what? You handle these ideas. Who does the 'I' represent?