Are You Really Here for Truth? - 17th October 2017

After searching, but obviously he's just joking around. Everything that you're using, but the body is here. Like we said yesterday, the starting point is this, and then the mind will say 'but'. And it just wants to... the mind's 'but'. You can have this 'it but' which has the body is here, or 'but Satguru is here', 'Atma is here', 'Self is here'. He often says nothing is stronger than the holiness of your being. Very innocent and beautiful. I read many months ago which stayed with me—what is this? People maybe a misspelling, and let's see how it goes. Very nice. I read it said: 'Don't tell your Satguru how big your problem is; tell your problem how big your Satguru is.' Very innocent and sweet, but it's very beautiful. And it is this missing 'but'. What is here? Surrender, resistance, grace—innocent-sounding pointings. But something has to take, something has to catch on.

Something that cannot be surrendered... can we have another master key? If you find something there to get this, 'I just can't surrender', then that which you cannot surrender, that you put into your enquiry. And you will come to the same recognition: that the separate 'me' never was there. There is nobody whose problem this is. Now, the problem itself is that I want to play with this 'me' a little longer. If the problem itself is that I want to play with this 'me' a little longer, but I want to play with the 'spiritual me' or the 'enlightened me' or the whole journey of practices and siddhis and getting to peace of mind or something like that, then by all means play with that. But then don't say 'I want to come to the end of this'. What is the end? The Absolute, the Truth.

I'm tired of this spiritual journey. Let's see. I'm playing, I will join this. Why are you stopping Self? Why you say to surrender everything now? Really enjoying this. But suffering only comes then what we are saying is different from how we are playing. If on one hand we say 'I want to come to the end of this now' and I'm saying 'Wonderful, it's your lucky day today, right now it is the end of it', then unless you want to still play with it, you will not pick up the 'but'. If you're done with it, then you're done with it. If you're not done with it, then please enjoy the play. There is nothing wrong with the play. With the innocence of a child going to the playground, all to your play. And when you're taken away from the playground, all to your crying.

Yes, actually there is no problem until the problem of 'me' arrives on the scene. Yes, yesterday Mr. Me or Mrs. Me comes. And this is the part of it that it never actually exists; it comes as an idea of it, as a notion of it. So when the notion of it comes, either let it come and go and say 'It is this Satguru's problem', or we say 'Who is this one?' On who is it talking to? Either question is the enquiry. You are to be accepted without any basis actually, because it doesn't have a basis. When we accept it without basis, then in the design of the world, suffering is bound to follow. Suffering is only the result of an unenquired thought, accepted and uninquired. If you have truly looked at the notion that is making you suffer, then the notion must dissolve because at the premise, as the basis of all notions, is the idea of the non-existent.

The spiritual journey is very simple. One main pointing is just your... can't read from the screen... allow everything to come and go. Life is just a dream. The second part is that if there is something which is not making you merry, then you pick up that concept and say 'Who is it that this concept applies to?' Why am I not finding freedom? Why don't I have a better relationship? Why don't I have more money? Why can't I have a healthier body? These are the main notions. Find out: is there an 'I' like that, that can have any of these things?