Are You Free Now, or Not? - 9th June 2016

Yes, there is something to this what you see, so that will keep reducing.

There seems to be this thing that, 'Father, I want it in this lifetime.' Yes, and it's like, I think for me it's the first time that all this is coming up because I've never really... I think I've spoken to you about this before, that since one and a half years since I've been coming in for Satsang, it's not like I've had an urge for freedom. I've just been coming for Satsang, I don't know how, when, why, etc. And every time you ask me, 'Are you here for freedom?' it's not like there was a 'yes' for me coming. But in the last two months, it's like this huge urge has kind of developed which is leading to all these freedom kind of...

So the mind seems to be using freedom to now not have freedom. See, if you allow this checker guy to continue a minute longer, I will come to Pune and vacuum him!

Father, I'll allow it.

This is very saintly, seemingly with humble desires, this one. If it takes root, you see, then it becomes a pain to uproot. So so far you say that it's not been so strong and now it is coming. You see, why is it coming now? Because you are having the recognition. You are having the insights about what you are and you're resonating very well with the words which are being shared here; they are hitting home, see? So now this one will come and say, 'Oh, but see, it's supposed to be one in a million. There's so many who've been here longer than you. Who are you to get this? What makes you so worthy?'

Right now, it's only about the right now. It is only the mind which comes and says, 'But what about then? What about after Satsang?' Only about now. Resist the urge to make this meaningless mind meaningful. Just now is enough for me. If just now you don't buy your next thought, you're one hundred percent worthy. I don't care what you read, which masters you visited, whether you know the difference between consciousness and awareness, whether you know both of them are one—all of this I don't care. If you can just see right now that there is the power to give meaning, to give relevance, to give value to my next thought, and I will not give it to this thought, it is enough for me. So 'forget about it' only means allowing it to come and go. Don't dance with it.

That's exactly what's happening, Father. Exactly.

These are first-world problems, spiritual problems. You come into Satsang just like, 'I don't want to suffer anymore. I just want my relationships to be better. I just want to be happy.' See, they are like most of humanity. And as we see that we are letting these thoughts come and go, that is coming. I am not really able to hold on to suffering. Then suffering comes through... then it comes through these first-world problems, see? You don't need to know awareness and consciousness.

Thank you, Father.

Welcome you.