All Confusion Is About Who You Are - 1st November 2017

So, what is the spiritual seeker? The spiritual seeker is 'I am' picking up the notion that I am an individual entity who has something missing, and then we take on the search. But what is most natural to you? Is the seeker most natural? When you wake up, the first thing is you exist. In fact, the waking up happens in your existence first. 'I am,' and then space. So, if you wake up with that, how do you become this one? Forget even waking up with that. Right now, in this very moment, you are. Notice how you will put on the mask of something. And the offer for the mask will usually start with, 'Oh, what he says is true, but yesterday I experienced anger.' Yes, but no God right now. 'Nobody in satsang, then I lose it again.' But you know God right now. This and this for me, anything before then. The you that you are is all there is. This untainted consciousness, unburdened by any notion. You are even greater: that which is aware of the coming and going even of consciousness. You are seeing this so naturally, so simply. Why are you doing all this hard work of believing the 'but'? Just habit. If you're addicted to smoking, what is it called when you let go? You have a habit. So, this salesman of your limited identity keeps trying and trying to sell. Feel pain about it, see. But this mind doesn't keep from the mind itself. The mind itself is where the war is happening. The thief pretending to be the queen bee, the policeman trying to catch the thief.

You have known the existence of God is here as your very own being. This is not some entity. And I know so many of you, this is becoming your direct experience. So, I might ask you simply: you exist effortlessly, therefore what? But just the looking at this can take away all your suffering because then you see that all effort—I'm not talking about the physical, that can seem to happen, that's just a movement of consciousness—all effort in the end will be psychological effort. So, the effort that we make to create something where there is nothing, to try and create all this effort is meaningless. If you had an option, you could live your life as that which you consider yourself to be, or you could live your life on God. Believe in God. What would you choose? That is it. If there is only this one, in this just visual, since we love choices, if there is a choice, there is only this one: the thought belief and thought will make you individual. If you don't believe in that thought, there is only God. We want to live our lives. Connection not so good today. These things might really do about it.

Can we? Okay, I'm going to let God run my life, but I hope he doesn't make a mess of it.

In this team, that is a possibility. I know this fear is not that much. I'm not denying the fear itself, but if you were to look at it, inquire into the validity of such a move. If God wants to make a mess of your life, any thoughts you believe about yourself is going to happen. So, what are you fighting? My cruiser? Yes, it is a bit patchy today because of the internet connections these days. Nothing. Then this thing doesn't work so well, so you have to get a wire. But mainly it is... I'm breaking up here and there. It's okay because I'm making the same point over and over. Now, consciousness, what do you want? You want to first pick up the idea that 'I am something' and then play from there? Are you open enough to, for just a few moments, drop the notion of something? I've been seeing more and more that simply being able to explain everything that I'm saying to say: don't make anything. Nothing. Try to make anything. You think we could retain something? I look at it, I think it actually. I think, maybe, does this consciousness have a question? Does this consciousness have a propagation? Does consciousness get it? Do you lose it? Does it have an evolution happening? This is the changing in its nature. And anyway, that is why the sage Jesus said, 'Don't idolize that which is changing.' That means don't idolize your thoughts, don't idolize your emotions. Allow these to come and go. What's truly in your heart altar? What was truly in your heart altar, in your inner citadel? Is a limited person sitting there? If you don't find this person, how long will you continue to give it your beliefs? Just because we have invested so much in a false notion, should we keep investing in hoping that one day there will be a real person that comes out and he is going to be, or she is going to be, very special? The limited person that you be, whatever you can imagine that to be, does not compare to the reality of who you are right now. That is where the great Indian sage Kabir Ji said, 'Paani mein meen piyasi, mohe dekhat aave hansi.' The fish is thirsting in the water and I look at this and I laugh. But the reality is even more for me an example. It is the water which is thirsting for the water. Being this, you have to laugh. If water in the river said, 'Please, please, please give me some water,' you are that. But the thoughts of the desert, don't buy that. That's what keeps coming. So, what? You're still water. Drinkable. Be until being. Tell me if it is the condo or it is some fish. It's all fear. All confusion is about the non-existent, the idea that you have about yourselves. You could consider yourself to be a cat, and that would be more accurate than what you consider yourself to be right now, because...

It is like laughing if water in the desert said, 'Please, please, please give me some water.' You are that. All thoughts of the desert, don't buy that. That's what he keeps saying. So what? You're still water. Drinkable. Tell me if it is the desert or it is some fish. It's all fear. All confusion is about the non-existent—the idea that you have about yourself. You could consider yourself to be a cat, and that would be more accurate than what you consider yourself to be right now. Because even a clear limit you don't have about yourself. You say, 'I feel like I am this body.' Then I ask you, 'How is the body a problem?' How many worries about the body do you have? One? So who is the 'I' that had that problem of security, of freedom? Who is the one who wants freedom? Non-existent. At least if you were a cat, then you know, 'Okay, let's give him some milk.' Just an idea. This is the divine illusion—how you, consciousness, can consider yourself to be something so small, something with a duration, with a birth and a death. All true just in your next thought.

Because you are free right now. The struggle has not been to become free. The struggle is to try and become a person. Struggling every moment to find the next valid thought. 'Make me a better person, a bigger soul.' Consciousness, how you want to play? 'I want to pick up the personal mask.' It is great. It is being brought to you on the conveyor belt of the mind. Every moment, which mask do you prefer to wear? An enlightened person mask? The spiritual seeker mask? The 'not finally, it was not stable yet' mask? 'I see it, but I can't stay in it.' This mask is masking. Then, 'I caught it, but I want to be seen to have got it' mask. 'I want validation from the Master or the satsang' mask. Which mask? Oh, I seek an example of this confusion.

The nastiness of my personhood is a fact. I can't offload this as an excuse to God.

Now, the 'I' in this must be coming from a limited notion about yourself. Who can then also lose this problem to God or not? As long as you have this—and it must be said after this—as long as you have this notion that you are this 'I' who can outsource it to God or offload it to God or to surrender it at the feet of my Master, do it. Otherwise, you're not listening. If you retain it with your individuality, the mind is only going to mix more and more muck into it. If you offer it up truly from your heart, then it's going to be burned up. Yes, drop it. The thing belongs to you because you yourself are not a real entity. You and all these afflictions of need for attention, need for who, need for something—you start to feel funny. Yes, you look at them and you wonder how they were given space, how consciousness wanted to claim these for so long. But until you feel like you want something and you want to deal with it yourself, you are giving more and more belief to your individual identity.

Like my Father's feet, very low tone for you, and to surrender there. At my Father's feet, only your holy presence is present.

Then we have to get the words out of your mouth. Please pick something. How is it? How is it at my Father's feet? Please share something. If you'll never hear, keep quiet for me. It was sometimes you have to do, let this be your last doing. Like it's taking, we truly listen in this known space. You are in the fire of the holy presence when all favorite concepts are being burned. And sometimes these kind of tears are the byproducts. You are discovering that beautiful silence. Okay. It is when the silence is there, it's quite rare. These things, they come to a Master. It's some brushes. Such a great mistake, you know, in satsang, to commit to your Master.

A lot of gratitude here also for all of you because you come fully well knowing that you will not get anything. Whatever you might think that you have is also being taken away. From this kind of freedom, you come unburdened. Truly grateful for that. Even that addiction will not be noted here. Thank you.

Well, can I discuss something? No, I have to. I see you so many times as my own son. This is a relationship. This is a relationship which I cannot explain.

Oh, I will. Like he got caught with his hand in the cookie jar. It's still being faced to us and you existed. No person ever existed, but you as consciousness are here. More than anything you can get in this world. Zero burden. It cannot be bought, cannot be sold. Truly, there is something priceless. Why do you call it only capital? The only capital you have in the world is your Being, I Am. I'm presuming that is what then he was in a good algorithm. It is also called the 'I Am' infection. Like I said, we're spiritual addicts. So this is the root of all spirituality. This is the spirit itself being I Am. Drink up. If you are addicted to this, it has no side effects. No taste compares to this. This is the taste we've been searching for, that which has always been here. We're trying to get that taste through worldly objects, through experience. Nothing compares to your Being. This is the nectar of you. This is the prayer that you are searching for. If you wear a mask and I rotate this, and once we get in the real duty, it says, 'Come naked, come okay.' Troubling me, this maskless, no notion of who you are. You were that. This one you. Thank you all so much for being in satsang today. Satguru Sri Mooji Baba Ki Jai. Satguruji Ki Jai.